03-10-01 Saturday

"I think chicken soup smells like BO. No really. I eat it, but I think it smells like BO."
-Nicole, on chicken soup

So it's Saturday, and my plans for the day...sit on my butt and do nothing until I have to be to work at 5 tonight. I'm excited though. Not really about tonight. But I have all these great plans. During my week of spring break, I'm house/dog sitting for Kim. She offered to let me do it last night at work. She's leaving for vacation on the 17th, and I get to watch her house...stay there...whatever for a week. The day right before spring quarter starts is the day she'll be back. It's totally perfect timing. I've been having a lot of problems with my family...so not only will it be Kim's vacation...but I get a vacation too. Only I'll be working...and I'll be taking care of her dog Grace. That's fine, cause I won't be at home...to fight with my mother. Or to listen to my brother...or even look at my dad. I'm sure I'll be here though...to shower (cause Kim only has a bath tub) and to check my mail. But that's not such a big deal. And Kim says she doesn't mind if I have people over. As long as it's not loud. I'm sure it won't be. I'll have movie nights...like every night. I've felt bad cause we always do stuff at her house...I don't offer mine, cause my family is nuts, and the house is always a mess. So this will be a make-up for all the times we've used Nicole's living room. I'm really excited about this.

Ben: "I bet that guy has massive mulitude."
Me: "Mulitude??? Could you define that for me please?"
Ben: "Mulitude...you know, the attitude of one who has a mullet."

So after reading my last entry, Kyle sent me an e-mail. In which he confessed that he'd had a crush on me...way back before Christmas. He used to come in the store just to see if I was working. I find that...to be extremely funny. Sweet...and funny at the same time. Nicole said, "I told you that boys like you." So I chose to make fun of Kyle for that all night last night. I probably got on his nerves after the first few times I looked at him and just burst out in laughter. But I couldn't stop. It's funny...because...I noticed him back then too...and I'm sure that I mentioned "some guy named Kyle who comes in the store all the time who's really hot." in an entry somewhere...I'll find it. Ya, last night, we made a big trip to A&W in Delphos. I only had a rootbeer float. But afterward when we got back, I felt so sick. I ate way too much yesterday. I had a cheeseburger from McDonald's for breakfast. (Shannon had me stop in to get her a bacon egg and cheese biscuit, but they had stopped serving breakfast, so I got us some cheeseburgers.) Then at about 3:30 I went down to Sunshine Cafe (Danielle's mom owns it, and she works there as well as gadzooks) And I had a chicken salad sammich, and some chili cheese fries. So by about 7, 7:30 I had this rootbeer float...and I was just...Bleh! So we dyed Jon's hair bright frickin' red. (the smell almost made me vomit) Kyle wants to do his the same...a shade lighter. But it was...too red. I'm pretty sure he'd get fired for that. It's just not natural. Then again, Kim's hair is maroon. I still don't understand how she gets away with that. I like Kyle's hair the way it is. I don't know. We watched Drowning Mona...Only I didn't really see much of it. My face was buried in Kyle's shirt through the majority...I seriously just wanted to go home and go to bed. (and that rarely happens when I'm out with friends) I had a headache...and ya. But I covered it up. For once I had time to spend with Kyle, and I was this close to puking all over him. The drive home...I was half asleep. So I'm sure it wasn't the best night Kyle had. It was prolly a pretty big bummer. *sigh* But there's not much I can do about it now. He mentioned something about a party that he's going to tonight...and I don't know why, but I got a little...nervous about it? Maybe it wasn't nervous...I'm not sure. I think it's just...knowing that since I'm attracted to him, there are obviously other girls who are attracted to him. So may be it was nervous...whatever. I won't let myself be a jealous girlfriend. I'm working tonight...so I'll just keep my mind off of it. I have a poetry paper to write...and I'm not sure when our final is in there, so I have to have it done by Sunday night. I'll start writing it...on Sunday. That's just the way things work. I need to study for my history final. (even though I studied 5 hours for the midterm, and still got a C) That was pulled up to a B when I went to that extra credit lecture though. I'm pretty sure my average in there is about a B+. So I'm not gonna get super worried. I REALLY need to study for poetry. Hell, I'm not worried about poetry either really. Eisa said she talked to Professor Arbuckle who said that everyone was doing pretty well in there. No one's grades were low. But the average in there is like a B. So I'm prolly around a C+ or a B-. And I have to add my finishing touches to my animal for theatre...(that cracks me up) So ya. Next quarter...I have to stop this class skipping. And I can't let my procrastination get the best of me...

~You found a place where you belong, new friends who can do no wrong. That's what you believe. But who's be there when you fall, to build you up when you're feeling small?~

Mostly next quarter, I need to adjust my social order. I'm not going to depend on the group of people that I currently talk to when on campus. After the concert Thursday night...hell it started that day. I've found that Lisa is happier when she hangs out with Jason. They get their jollies off of making fun of other people, and I really don't enjoy that. I have better things to do than stare at Brad until he turns 12 shades of red. And I'm absolutely sure they've made fun of me. I watched and heard Jason comment on my poetry Thursday. (They make fun of me because I write poetry??? I definitely don't understand that) There is no doubt in my mind that they have some cocky nick name for me...or they just make fun of me behind my back. I'm tired of it all. And I'd rather sit by myself and read (hell I could be studying or doing something productive) then subject myself to this ridiculous torment. It's so childish. And that's just another item to add to the list of things Lisa does that I just can't get over. We're civil to each others faces. And that's the part that pisses me off the most. I have friends like...Nicole, Tyler, Jon, James, etc. That I put on a back burner just to get to know and spend time with people at school. And it was wasted. They suggested we go out after the concert. And I didn't go. Mainly cause they wanted to go to the Olive Garden. But also because I wasn't up for any sort of torture. I tried to convince Ben to go...so I'd have someone to talk to at least. But he didn't want to go to the Olive garden either. Plus, I had to get up early the next day to work, so I went home and went to bed.

~All those colors long since faded, all our smiles confiscated.~

And now, I have a boyfriend...who I spend any spare time I have with. Because it's getting so our schedules conflict quite a bit (I've noticed that Kim rarely schedules us to work together...she's pretending that there's nothing going on with Kyle and I...cause last night, she was talking about all these guys she wanted to hook me up with. Including this one who she claims only comes in the store to see me. hmm, noticing a pattern with that one.) So I don't really have any time to waste over on campus anyway. Everything has to be planned in advance, and spur of the moment type things...don't really happen anymore. I'm so damn busy. But it's better this way. I'm convinced. I'm can't wait for spring break. Kir!!! get a hold of me when you get home. I want you to come over for movie night. AHH I'm so excited.

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