The comedy is that it's serious...
06-26-03 3:09pm
~I won't worry my life away...~
I am currently in a fit of rage. First of all, it's frickin' arctic in this house. Whoever thought that just because it's technically summer, you should jack up the central air...is a fool. I'm freezing my void of balls off. Secondly, this short in my light is pissing me off. It's turned itself off again, and so I'm sitting here in the dark. So, we're going to remedy that right now. I'm going to grab a lamp. Ok, that's solved. Grabbed a sweatshirt too. It seems so asinine to be wearing layers in the latter part of June. Ok, now to the real reason as to why I am raging. I have been thumbing through every job search site on the net. Including the local newspaper classifieds. This is absolutely ridiculous. Ultimately if I want a job around here that isn't low quality or embarassing, I'm going to have to get a nursing degree or a f'n CDL. Personally, I don't enjoy dealing with urine and/or other bodily fluids. And as for a CDL...I don't think my driving record would allow for it. The only odd ball things that I qualify for are lame-O cell phone sales at a kiosk in the mall...or other similar crap. I'm totally frustrated and pissed off. I think during my fit, I screamed several times and spurted off something about "screw this! I think I'm going to just take Jesse's offer and move to Michigan because there is NOTHING here!!! I hate Lima!" You know what I think? I think the world is out to get me. Ever since I stated as a child that I would never become my mother. I would never be a stay at home mom and feel like I've been shafted...the hands of fate have left me with no other option. And THAT even looks grim. Considering the fact that I can't even find anybody to procreate with. (I'm attempting to cheer myself up with sheer stupidity)
~Gimme just a second and I'll be alright. I'm gonna get through this...I'm gonnaa get through this.~
Leave it to Troy and my mom to make me feel better. They just got back and I ran out into the kitchen to snag a smoke from momma. And I start to spout off about how mad I am. Which included a violent kick and a smashing of my fist into the wall. Troy screams like a little girl and runs in the opposite direction. Slowly walking back as I explained why I was bitching. Then mom says, "you know, I figured out why I've been so pissed off the last few days. PMS!!!" I laughed and said, "that could be part of the problem." and Troy screams again. Then he picks up a spoon and says, "I know 31 ways to kill someone with one of these. Stay AWAY!!!" This is why I survive. If it weren't for my family (and my brothers friends who I might as well consider brothers) I would have done something crazy by now. Do you see why I claim that we're more entertaining than the Osbournes? I should sell my family to the devil that is reality television.
~you want to stay but you know very well I want you gone.~
I think tomorrow, I'm going to take a trip to the American mall. It's a crazy thought, but I'd rather work there than the Lima mall. Less people...less people that I could live without seeing for the rest of my life. I'm hoping that at some point today I'll feel compelled to check up on the resume that I dropped at Family Video. I might just call. Cause I'm not in the mood to be near the genral public. I might just go out tomorrow and pound the pavement. Screw the classifieds. Screw trying to find something on-line. I'll just go out and leave my resume all over town and hopefully some unsuspecting fool will give me a call. It's as simple as that.
~Tap on my window, knock on my door. I wanna make you feel beutiful...it's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's compromise that moves us along.~
You'll never guess who just messaged me on AIM. Out of nowhere, I get a message from Mike. And not just ANY Mike, the infamous girlfriend stealer. Mike, the reason why I no longer go to church at Cable Road. Mike, only Nicole and Kyle would know who I'm talking about. Mike...I really don't understand why he thinks to message me of all people. Why would you want to talk to someone who really truly hated you at one point in time? I don't know. But yes, the bridges are rebuilding themselves...it's a theme lately. It wasn't an intense conversation. It was quite surface. A what have you been up to sort of thing. So that's Mike, and TJ...who's next? Bring it on!!! But...I think I'm off to call Rob...see what he's up to. And shower, to wash away this poor attitude. Just to mention briefly, someone has been voting on the Celebrity lookalikes poll...WHO ARE YOU?!! NOW THE LIGHT COMES BACK ON!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
~aspects of a life they confuse me. You and your thesis amuse me. After an afternoon with you.~
just found the most awesome videos on Launch. Mraz does The Rainbow Connection. You'll have to look it up under artists just search for Mraz. (if he's not on the main page) Sounds like a lot of work but I wouldn't ask you to check it out if it was badass. Link fun!
Mraz videos
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