06-22-00 Thursday


So I was sitting in the hotel room at 11pm on the 20th. Actually, I was attempting to go to sleep...and I just got the urge to write. I went in the bathroom, and sat on the counter...and wrote. (About the events of the day.) I went to James house that day. And I had a "talk" with both James and Matt. I walk in the house (James house) and begin the conversation with something along the lines of, "You really pissed me off" James...being the character that he is, hides his face in his shirt...how can I be mad at that??? How can I yell at him? So I said, "You're not allowed to be cute when I'm yelling at you." He's like, "I'm cute?!?!" Grrr. So we talked about how stupid the two of them were. And I told them not to do it again. and that they really disappoint me, and make me want to bash their heads together. The story...that I got from James...kinda upset me. He said that they ended up taking Andrew with them to the lake. (-I- invite him...and -I- get uninvited...and -he- gets invited...no comment) They did their usual male bonding thing. Talked about me...James says he told Andrew to call me because he was tired of being the go-between. Understandable...they (James and Andrew) didn't really...nevermind. We'll just say, they were...awake and talked while Goo was...out of it and talking about "this one time at his other house..." I guess he made up some story about he and I getting it on...only...NO. and Andrew thought he was telling the truth...and is like, "You're kidding!" and James is like, "dude, no! He's lying." I thought it was pretty funny myself. Goo was about to kill James when he told me. It was hilarious. So then, we went outside and played football. I got cool points because I'm "the only girl" who has been willing to actually try and play with them. So that's all settled. I got a lovely message today from Goo. He said he was sorry. and that he realizes NOW that what he did was dumb...and he wishes he could take it back...and he was surprised that I cared so much...well, I can't help it. The people who ARE my friends know that I would do ANYTHING for them. and that I love them like crazy. If you're good enough to be my friend...then you're good enough for everything that I think should go with friendship. (love, honesty, trust, a shoulder to cry on, someone to call when you need to talk, did I mention love, etc) So ya. Even though they're big dumb losers. I still love 'em, and I hope they'll do the same for me.

~I wanna hold you and love you in my arms and then I wanna need you cause I need to be with you til the end.~

Yesterday, I ended up going to youth group...even though I hadn't planned on it. Dianne called...then Kir called...so I went. and I've noticed that our topic always seems to coincide with what's going on in my life. -HOW TO HEAL BROKEN RELATIONSHIPS- that's just crazy. and I don't know what to say about Jon. He's...confusing. and...ya. I went home last night...and my dad is like, "You got a phone call." ok, so I was like, "ya? from who?" and he goes, "Some anonymous male friend." and I'm like, "Oh really? what did he say?" and he's like, "'is Laura there'...and I said 'no' and then he says, 'ok. bye'." NO message...he didn't recognize the voice...(if he knew any of my friends...he might) So...hmmm. At first I thought it was James...then my mother suggested it might be Chris...but then I was like, (light bulb) WAIT A GOSH DARN MINUTE! what if it was Andrew!?!?! Then I got all...jittery and happy. But now I'm just like...for pete's sake! I'm jumping to conclusions again. stupid stupid stupid!!! (smacks self) Today, I woke up to the sound of grinding machinery. Don't we all love plumbers?!?! NO! we don't. I'm tired of them always being around...and digging up my front yard. and using big tools that make loud obnoxious noises. (yes, that's two adjectives!!!) But I must say, the one guy wasn't bad looking...Kept my mind off of Andrew for a split second (then he lit up a cigarette) So ya. I got up and Nicole called. (at 11am) and asked if I could take her to the BMV so she could get her license back. (long story) So we went to get food. Sat in the BMv forever...Saw Jen!!!! went and got icecream. (celebration for Nicole passing the drivers exam) then I came home and took a nap in the big chair. Now, it's 9pm, and I'm sitting here...alone...and bored. So ya. that was the past few days recap. You're welcome.

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