Watch out for the SHOCKER!


06-15-03

~I'll never take that day away from me. No.~

Just a warning: This is going to be a VERY long post. The wedding, oh the wedding. I'd like to call it independence day for my own personal reasons. But, we'll get to that in a minute. I went to pick up the food at 2:30 yesterday afternoon. Drove like a bat out of hell and made it to Nicole's dad's house shortly after 3pm. Who's the first person I see??? Nikki...Kyle's girlfriend. Which at one point in time, that would have been a tragedy. But I had a bit of an epiphany on my way out there. I had written this long poem the night before that I was going to give to Kyle. (here it is if you wanna read it) And I was second guessing myself. I had left it in my notebook thinking I could give it to him...but the option of just forgetting about it was still there. As soon as I saw her, I figured, you know what! It's not worth it. He's not the same person that I left behind. I'm definately not the same person anymore. And that was that. I enlisted some help for the unloading of food. Some guys who happened to be sitting around. Rushed in and out of the house hauling large extremely HOT pans of chinese food. I still give Nicole mad props for having such an unconventional wedding. Anyhow, Nicole was inside...starting to wig out about things...that's when I ran into Rob. He was running sound for the ceremony. Thank God for Rob. I didn't know that he was bringing anyone other than Eric G. with him. But he also brought AJ. This is where things started to get...weird? Odd...strange. Not really but then again...kind of yes. The first thing AJ says to me when I see him is, "So, are you taken yet?" Confuse me!?!? I said no and laughed shaking my head because of the odd placement of such an inquiry. Then he whips out this huge skull ring and said, "Then will YOU marry ME?" Ya, it was odd. He puts this massive ring on my finger and ya. Weird. Whatever though right?! There were things to be done so I kind of went off and did what was needed to be done. Passed out lapel flowers to the guys in the wedding party. etc. That involved walking up to Kyle and Nikki. Which was also odd. But it didn't matter. The ceremony lasted all of 10- 15 minutes. Before it started, I ran into Crazy Jon who is home from college for the summer. Got a huge hug from him. And a short flashback to all the crazy fun we all used to have together. That was when I noticed that ALL of Kyle's family was there. Understandably so, Kyle's mom and Casey's mom have been friends for years. So I ran into Kyle's mom's boyfriend Mark...the only one who was ever exceptionally nice to me. He was like, "so, long time no see. How are you?" something about getting old and all of his hair going grey...which you wouldn't be able to tell because HELLO! He shaves his head bald. Which I pointed out and rubbed his hairless scalp. I thought that was pretty funny. And ya, ODD! But he was really nice to me. Actually gave me a hug. And we had a decent conversation. But I was being pulled in about 9 different directions. So moving on, short ceremony...lots of picture taking. Then we all stood around for about 20 minutes. I had several conversations with AJ...did I mention...I'm sure I have before. He is adorable. It's hard to believe I've known him as long as I have. I've been there for all of his awkward younger stages. The chubby phase, the braces phase, the mono phase when he got super skinny. And then POOF! All of a sudden, he's absolutely hot! Where the hell was I when that happened? Oh ya, I remember! I was playing the fool! right! We all headed over to the tables and had a seat. Once again. Oddness. I sat at a table surrounded by all of these people that I've been friends with for years. Jon, Eric, Rob, AJ, Steve...I also noticed at this point in time that Kyle's dad and step mom were giving me dirty looks. But somewhere in my head, I cast it aside. Because it just doesn't matter anymore. I was having a great time thinking about how awesome it was that all of us could come together and celebrate something so wonderful. After the meal, we all just sat around talking and having a good time. Laughing and just ya, it was great. A proud moment to realize how amazing all of these people are.

~We dance and we play Oh Lord we rant and we rave...~

I had quite a few short conversations with Aaron. I can't recall all of them. They're all still kind of swimming around in my brain. It's silly I know. Logically, it's just me reverting back to old behavioral habits. I made a promise to myself that I would never do it again. Crushing on people that you have no chance with...just a little childish I know. But I formed a little crush on AJ. Smack me please. But c'mon now! He's really grown up to be a great person. And oh so good looking. This was around the time that Laurie and I started taking up collections for a hotel room at the Holidome. Nicole and Casey wanted to get a room for their wedding night. But money is tight so we pulled some strings. All of us chipped in and Laurie and Steve took off to get the room booked. It was a great idea. We decided that we'd all go out there with them and swim in the pool. Drink a little champagne and then leave them to do the deed. So Laurie and Steve left, Nicole and Casey started opening gifts...and I snuck off by myself to smoke a cigarette. I went back behind the house and had my smoke. As I was walking back around the house, I ran into one of the guys who helped me carry in the food. Didn't realize that I'd met him before. He obviously didn't remember me. This is how the conversation went...
Josh-"Hey, I thought you were just the chinese delivery chick."
Me-"uh, no. I've been friends with Nicole for a very long time. She just pulled in a favor and asked me to pick up the food."
J-"That's good though. I'm glad you stayed, because you're the best looking chick here."
M-"Oh, c'mon. What about the blushing bride?!?! It's HER day."
J-"Ya, but she's married now."
M-"true."
J-"so what's you're name?"
M-"Laura. And you are?" (this is where we shook hands)
J-"I'm Josh."
M-"And you're a friend of the family?"
J-"Kind of. You know Nicole's dad's fiance Becky? That's my mom."
M-"So you're Dakota's dad. I've actually met you before."
J-"Ya, I'm Dakota's dad. When did I meet you. I would have remembered."
M-"A few years ago actually. Remember that big Halloween party Nicole had? That was my 18th birthday party."
J-"Right! I remember. That was the night that I came out here all painted up. I was working at Camp Robin Rogers...I scared the crap out of Dakota."
M-"Ya, I yelled at you for that. It was really mean."
J-"Ya, I hate to say it...but I was tripping that night. I'm clean now though. I haven't smoked anything in a year or so. I can't believe I met you before. How old are you now?"
M-"Uh, I'm 21 now." (he noticed the huge skull ring)
J-"That's really cool."
M-"Oh, ya, It's my friends. We're engaged for the day."
J-"You're boyfriend???"
M-"Oh, no (laughs)"
J-"Is he here? You're boyfriend? You do have one right?"
That's where I started to get weirded out. I told him I didn't have a boyfriend which was dumb. I could have scared him away then and there. Thankfully, his little 4 year old Dakota came up and asked him something. So I bowed out gracefully. And walked away. I practically ran back over to the group that I had been hanging out with. They were goofing around with Jon's bass guitar. I sat down next to AJ and he asked what the twisted face was for.

~I wonder which one of us is gonna state the obvious.~

I told him the whole story and he kind of laughed and said, "So that's why that guy's been giving me dirty looks." Then Josh came around the side of the house. It looked like he was going to come over to where we were. Then AJ became my savior for the evening. He wrapped his arm around me and I leaned in and hid my face in his leg. You see now why I think the things that I do. I think too much and that's my frickin' problem. Josh proceeded to stare at me the rest of the time. I don't know what the hell he was thinking...with me sitting there next to AJ. We played with the kids for awhile. Then Laurie and Steve came back and we gave the key to the room to Nicole. Plans were made for the evenings festivities. We invited everyone to come to the hotel with us...but AJ and Eric had plans to go to some girls graduation party. They said they might stop by later. But they were about to leave. This is where all the hugging began. Hugs are so awesome. I hugged AJ and then I hugged Eric and he was like, "It's so hard to say goodbye!" And I hugged Jon...*sigh* Then we all went into the garage to start packing up the food. They came in to grab a few fortune cookies for the road but we opened them and read fortunes for a minute. (obviously adding the words "in bed" to the end of every one) Then AJ hugged me again and I called him Sweetheart. Which I realized afterward how strange it was for me to say that. Cute little pet names don't come easy from me anymore. But ya, once again, you see why I think the things that I think. (too much hugging...too much closeness) And later I discovered that I wasn't the only one who was thinking those things. Unfortunately the other people who were also thinking those things...didn't happen to be AJ. I don't know, he might have been. I wasn't aware of it. (thinking too much again) But Laurie and Nicole both said something to me about "hooking up" with AJ. We're all just WAY too close. They were reading my mind the entire night.

~I was lost I was lost. Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed. I was lost oh ya. Ya, how long must you wait for it? Ya, how long must you pay for it? Ya, How long must you wait for it?~

So they left, we cleaned up the food and I took off to pick up my swim suit (I'm quite proud of that damn bikini. I don't look half bad in it.) and head for the hotel. When I got there, it was just me, Casey, Nicole, Steve, Laurie, and Rob. We swam and chilled in the jacuzzi. We joked around about the Jason Mraz show. Just had a good time. We all went back up to the room and ordered a pizza. Drank a little champagne. Then Josh shows up all of a sudden. He only stayed for a little bit but it was enough for me. And what was worse was that he said he was going to come back. Nicole called AJ to see if they were coming over. He said maybe in a little bit. Then I made Rob come outside with me to smoke a cigarette. I started to get antsy. Thinking about Josh coming back...so I called AJ again. BACKUP! I said, "hey, are you guys coming out here? Cause that weirdo stopped by and said he was coming back." And he was like, "we're in the parking lot." So we rushed up to the room. We were all chillin' like ice cream fillin'. Watching some Robin Williams comedy special on HBO. Eric thought it was funny to untie my bikini top. I had a shirt on but it got pretty annoying by the second time. Somewhere around midnight, Nicole and Casey kicked all of us out. So Laurie and Steve left. And I was left with all of the boys in the parking lot. They were trying to decide where they could go and set off fireworks. I don't know. Eric told AJ to untie my damn bikini top. And he did. They were all just goofing off. Climbing up the pillars outside and Adam was standing in the sprinkler...Eric dared me to do it naked. I said, "hey. Maybe not naked. But I still have my bikini on." So I stripped and ran through the sprinkler. Had a great time trying to get my clothes back from Adam...that's when I started to think it wasn't such a good idea. It was a really dumb idea actually. Honestly, I'm comfortable with running around in a two piece. It didn't bother me. But I didn't really think about the fact that I was surrounded by a bunch of horny boys. It was a dare...and I've hung out with these guys for years. But still, DUMB IDEA! I was pretty tired of standing around in the parking lot by then. Eric mooned me. Which was really unnecessary...So I got in my car and left. I called Rob when I was half way home to see if they finally figured out what they were doing. I was bored. And not tired at all. He was like, "I don't know. Call AJ." So I did. And he said he didn't know either. But they would call me when they figured it out. Well, I came home and changed out of my wet clothes. No one called...so I called Rob again. Come to find out, Aaron went home and the rest of them decided to walk down to the park in Country Club hills. So I went out there and hung out with those goofballs for awhile. Heard several stories about their conquests. It was entertaining. Then we all piled in my car so I could drive them back to theirs. Eric got in the trunk and so the other 3 made me drive like an idiot to rattle his brains a bit. He was screaming from the trunk, "Where are we!" Then I came home and went to bed. *sigh* What a day.

~It's when you cry just a little but you laugh in the middle that you've made it.~

So today was supposed to be the big preparation for job hunting tomorrow. But I slept in until 11ish when Nicole called and woke me up once again. She wanted to know whose car we had put the chinese in. I finally got up and made mom take me to develop film. (since I'm so broke it hurts) One hour photo is the shit! I got back my Mraz pictures! Oh yeah! It's exciting. But it would be moreso if there was someone to be excited with me. I showed the one of Jason and I to my dad and said, "I'd just like you to meet your future son-in-law!" He wasn't very enthused. But dammit. I jumped around for about 15 minutes. As soon as I can get my hands on mom's scanner...I'll post them. My scanner is a piece of junk or I'd do it now. Because it's 11pm and I'm not tired at all. Because I fell asleep on the couch for an hour to two earlier. I just called Rob because thinking about how exciting it was to have these pictures in my hand got to me. I had to share it with someone. He's like, "I'm chillin' in Ottawa with Cindy." So I said, "OOOOOOOH! Sorry to bother you." But he was like, "no." So I said, "I see, it's not like that huh." And he said no. Then he said, "why don't you call AJ so you can do him." Oh for crying out loud. If I was that desperate, I know who I could call. I'm shaking my head right now at how retarded all of this sounds. I should just shut up about it now huh? So I'm going to go take a shower. And put the picture that Jesse drew for me in the frame that I got for it today. And THEN, I'm going to write. Because I got some new pens. Now THAT is what I call an exciting evening. Later!

~I found myself in the riches. Your eyes, your lips, your hair, and you were everywhere. I woke up in the ditches, hit the light and thought you might be there but you were nowhere. You were nowhere.~

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