06-15-00 Thursday


I really thought I had something to talk about...I did last night...I was going to re-update for the 14th. But I was tired...and I figured it was just overkill. I was on ICQ until 3 o'clock in the morning. Talking to Alanna, Goo, James, and Danny. So ya...I was supposed to go to Wapak today...but plans change. Last night was youth group. Talk about ironic...we always talk about something that is going on in my life. Last night's topic...

BROKEN RELATIONSHIPS

I don't even want to talk about it anymore. But I have noticed a lot lately. That when you pay more attention to what's going on in your life, and you shut out God...he'll interrupt whatever you're going through to point out your lack of communication with Him. Between all the crap that's been going on...I've ignored Him. and now I'm getting those little warning signs.

~I'm an outcast...don't ever count me out.~

I'm currently arguing with James...about guys being superficial. In all honesty...I think guys are much more judgemental when it comes to looks than girls are. I've gone out with some less attractive guys in my time...and I've seen really pretty girls with butt ugly guys. But I've never seen a really attractive guy with anything less than Barbie. Ok, I'm generalizing. Prime example...Channie...is going out with Aaron. He's not really...the type of guy you'd think she'd be with. He's not exactly HOT. He's cute. and he has a GREAT personality. Looks wise, she has had plenty of offers from really hot guys. The girl is...Type A Barbie. Cute, blonde, with big boobs. But she at least has taste. Props to Channie. Now in my case, I have to fight to get a guy who passes Rule #1 in the Constitution on Dating and Relationships. The kissable rule. If you look at a guy and think...ugh! I couldn't even touch that guy. Then no amount of personality is going to help you. I mean you at least have to be somewhat attracted to them. But like I said. I'm not Type anything Barbie. So guess who loses...

LOSER=ME

just in case you didn't get the hint. And it's not so much that I'm a loser. I could live with that...if I didn't see all these other people in happy relationships. If I knew what it felt like to not have to worry about dating and such...Then I'd be happy.

~I'll try not to complain. I know that's a pisser baby~

I called Alanna this morning. Well afternoon. I just got out of bed. The plan was to find out if Dan and Brett were back from Panama City yet, and if so to find out if they got laid. I called Dan's house...but he wasn't there. I guess they're back...probably clutching their virginity...hahaha...silly boys.

When my hair grows out...I'm gonna be tempted to get dreds. I could do it now...where would I go to do it though...I don't think your average beauty salon does dreds. shucks...You know...there are some really good looking black guys...Like D'Angelo...and Tyrese. Maybe I've just been looking in the wrong places...(I would get shot if I even thought about it) I'm just kidding...right...now I'm just rambling.

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