06-12-00 Monday


~I'm a stranger in this town...~

It's Monday...3 o'clock in the afternoon...and I'm still in my pajamas. The story (or reason) for my lack of bathing isn't because of my laziness. (which would normally be the explaination) Actually, we're having our yearly plumbing problems. (I think it's an annual thing) The pipes don't want to drain for some devilish reason, and so we have to space out anything and everything that consists of using and draining water in my house. (until they fix it next week.) My mother has been doing laundry all morning, so I have to wait until I can shower. I told Kristy that I'd stop by the Squirty Worm to pick up an application today. I guess not...I've caught up on my phone calls though. I called Chris yesterday (he wasn't home) and he called back today. and James finally got a hold of me. That was interesting. (it's a long story)

HERE WE GO!

I had two graduation parties to go to yesterday. First Kristy's then Laurie's. I went to Kristy's and found her pretty much bored. Her dad has been giving her all sorts of hell. And it just wasn't good. I didn't want to leave her there but I had to stop at Laurie's. So I promised I'd be back. Then I headed over to Laurie's. She seemed pretty good. Stevie and Dave were there. but Dave skipped out as soon as I showed up. So I talked to Heather (Dave's sister) and I chilled with my girl. Stevie did the sweetest thing. He got her roses...I wish I had someone to buy me flowers! *sigh* But wait...I'm not allowed to think about boys. (I decided last night.) only it's not working. Laurie said she thought my hair was going to be a lot worse than it was. I guess she thinks it's ok. (I'm ok with it now) Nicole showed up so I figured I could leave. I went back to Kristy's party and found that I had missed all the people I used to go to school with. (I guess I shouldn't see them.) It would probably only resurface those awful memories. Abby showed up and we talked about all the guys we used to have crushes on. Scott, Jason, Gabe...boy the list goes on. She informed me that they're all hot now. (MAN!) Then I asked if she had seen Andrew lately. And she's like, "uh, YA! He is really hot! Have you seen how buff he is???" and I'm like, "YA! We were sitting in Waffle House, and he lifted up his shirt sleeve, and I was just...mmm. He's definitely hot." Only I really shouldn't be saying this here. Seeing as his cousin (my ex-boyfriend James) reads this. but wait...I pretty much just told him when I was talking to him on the phone. So oh well. Moving on...

~Silence is not the way...we need to talk about it.~

So I talked to James about Andrew...and well, I guess Andrew just broke up with is girlfriend. (a day or two after Waffle House) It seems as though every time I see him, he's got a new girlfriend. and I always hear about him breaking up with them a few days after I see him. I think his break up with jamie was all James and my effort. She was totally cheating on him...(I guess it runs in her family) I had been talking to a guy named AJ who really wanted her in the worst way, and I guess she was all over him...while she was going out with Andrew. C'mon! He's extremely good looking, and he can't find a good looking girlfriend...Let alone a girlfriend that won't treat him like crap...For Pete's sake! I remember...Christmas...James, Andrew and I went to the movies, and we picked up James ex-girlfriend Crystal...(boy was she a winner) and went to the movies. After we dropped her off, Andrew came out of the shell he had crawled into the whole time she was there. So I asked him why he had been so quiet...he said he was just uncomfortable around her. (girls in general) and I asked why he wasn't like that around me. I don't think any of us understood. I'm just easy to be with. (wait...that sounded bad) I mean, I tend to be myself around others, so they feel more comfortable about being themselves around me. I can't stand it when people are all formal...and tense. Then he said, "I wish I could find a girlfriend like you." THAT was a nice compliment. I bet James is going to say something to him now...*sigh* great...he also said that Andrew has this rule...That he can't go out with any of James ex-girlfriends. So I'm basically screwed. Even though he said he was totally ok with it. I mean, he and I are good friends. and he has a girlfriend...so there's no reason for him to get all crazy or anything. I don't know...it's kinda like the don't date your sister or your bestfriend's X's...so I understand.

~what would you do to get to me what would you say to have your way...would you give up or try again if I hesitate to let you in...would you be yourself or play a role tell all the boys or keep it low...~

I went shopping with Nicole...3 days ago? I think. and she informed me that she said something to Jon. She asked him if he liked me because it seemed like he did. He said no. I think that makes #4. Rejection sucks big fat bananas. *sigh* I guess it wasn't really rejection. He had...well still has no idea that I liked him at all. I'm really tired of dealing with stupid boys. At least the majority are away on vacation. Dan seems to think they're not coming back from Panama until he gets laid. Boy...I really don't understand what I see or saw in him. Ahhhh! I'm NOT allowed to think. I wish I could find that switch that Mike told me about. and just turn off all feeling. I'm making my brother extremely mad. He wants on the computer. But I'm only feeding him his own medicine. He's on when I want to update. So it's my turn. He got me all obsessed with Napster. I'm downloading the new Aaliyah. I should probably go take my shower. That's a good idea.


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