06-10-01 Sunday

~When it's over, that's the time you're in my heart again.~

Why is no one ever on ICQ when I get on? Granted, I come on in invisible mode. Because when I get on the computer, I want to do what I want to do, and then get off. And when I'm not invisible, a bunch of people will start to talk to me...and say nothing. Sometimes...and it's rare. But sometimes, I'll see someone on, and then have to message them and talk. But right now, no one is even on. They're all in n/a mode. Oh well. And I haven't talked to Jesse...since Kyle and I have been together. I think as soon as he found out I was dating someone, he wanted nothing to do with me. And I actually thought he was an interesting guy. I liked to just talk to him. Cause he was nice...and funny. I kinda miss talking to Jesse. Maybe I'll e-mail him. I dunno.

~You've got your problems. I got my hash pipe.~

So I'm home...how crazy is that? I'm never home. I'm either at work or at school, or at Kyle's. But I'm home tonight. I decided it was the best thing to do, since Kyle was going to his mom's...and I went to his dad's for supper...so he needed to spend time with his brother...and his family over there. And I had to come home and talk to mine. Because for some reason, everyone feels the need to tell me what I'm currently doing wrong, and what I should be doing. My boyfriend is too young. I should have a full time job. I should get another part time job. I should take night classes. I shouldn't go to school next year. I should go out with this guy...or that guy. NO! I shouldn't. I'm a big girl. I can make my own decisions. And as of right now, I am happy with my boyfriend. My hours at work are being increased, and I'm not sure what I'm going to do about school in the fall. I haven't made that decision yet. I'm thinking...I may just do the same thing I did this year. Just take some classes...and I'll talk to an advisor...and try and figure things out from there. But I'm not extremely worried about it. I'm worried about saving money. Because I'm constantly broke. And I spend money like it's nothing. But here's the catch...-I- want to do it. I don't want people telling me I should save money. I want to do it myself. I don't want someone monitoring my spending. Because that just makes me want to hurt people. It's MY money. I worked for it. So I'm going to figure out where it's going by myself. And I think I've got a budget going.

~You've got to pay to play...No diggity. No doubt.~

This whole trip to Columbus has got me in a shambles. Cause I'm not ready for it. I don't know what I should bring with me. I NEED a big suitcase to take with me. Cause mine is little, and barely fit enough clothes for our weekend trip to Massolin last year. I need LOTS of clothes for this. So...I'll have to find someone who's willing to part with a suitcase for a week. (crossing fingers) I've been saving money for the trip...and that's been somewhat successful. So I think if I can do it for the trip, then I can do it after the trip. Hmmm, another thing...I didn't realize just how out of the loop I am when it comes to Christian type events like this. I've never heard of any of the bands that are playing...ok, I've heard of a couple. But they'er just not my style. Stacie Orrico or something...and Jennifer Knapp are the only two I've heard of. And I could live without hearing either one. I have a feeling...that I won't be spending much time listening to the music during this excursion. I'll take a personal cd player...and I'll be fine. Dan was trying to explain to me all the things that are going to be going on. I guess it's mainly the music, and some seminars. A few speakers. So...I don't know what I'm going to do all week. I signed up to work 6 hours everyday. So maybe I can meet some cool people and just chill. I'll catch up with Nicole...and just spend some over due time with God. That's the plan.

~I'm a cowboy baby, with the top laid back and the sunshine shinin'.~

We went to Nicole's last night. To watch a movie. We went to Bandido's for supper. And then to Nicole's...it was a good time. I miss those times. Just chillin' somewhere. And the weather has been really nice the past few days...hopefully it'll stay that way for awhile. I need some sun. I'm feeling sickly from all this rain. I got burned the other day when I was outside for like an hour. But it still felt good. And I'll do it again. I wish I could tomorrow. But I work until 2. And then I told Kyle I'd go to his mom's. I guess he doesn't really have anything else to do. Not that I do either...But I'd kinda like to go outside and just lay in the sun. Maybe he'll lay in the sun with me. I don't know. Hey, I could always go to Gerty's and get that video edited. That lovely spanish video that I never finished...everytime I run into Srta. Pohlman...I feel guilty...so I'm going to pay Eric to edit it...and just get it over with. So I get to hang out with kids from school...and have some fun while I do it. ok...I need to get off of here. I'm doing too many things at once. Night.

~Nasty boys!~

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