Stalkers and birthday parties...


07-28-04 Wednesday

~If looks could really kill then my profession would be staring...~

So I really f'd up the last entry. All the dates were off. Didn't even realize it until Nicole called just to inform me that I'm a dumbass. That's what happens when I have a day off of work. And I'm too lazy to go back and fix anything but I posted it as the 27th which is correct even though all through the entry, I'm claiming it's the 28th. Today is Wednesday July 28th. All clear? OKAY!

~If it makes you less sad, I will die by your hand...~

So I mentioned briefly in yesterday (the 27th's) post that I ran into Thomas last Sunday. He then proceeded to try and call me at work (it's listed in the phonebook unlike my cell #) since he accidentally left his phone at home in Indiana the last time he visited. No big deal. He left a # with Natalie where I could reach him. Natalie and I both decided that apparently this guy's got the bug. Meaning he's relentless because he just can't resist my charm. HA! And I decided it wouldn't be a big deal if I didn't call him. So I spent my day off on laundry. Hanging out at home in my pajamas. Sometime around 5, he fucking showed up at my house. First of all, I didn't remember if he'd ever been here before so I was a little shocked to see him at the door. He asked if I wanted to, "go for some coffee and warm conversation". I hadn't even showered or put on clothes. So I delayed him a few hours. Told him to come back later. Called Natalie just to let her know I now officially have a stalker and asked if she'd be willing to help me out. He came back over and we went to Nat's place to decorate for Jake's birthday. Several weird things took place. #1 He asked me to pick a cd and pointed out that he'd burned Tenacious D at my suggestion. (LAST JANUARY!!!) #2 I said something about my futon and he pipes up with his knowledge of the old twin sized bed. #3 The boy would not let me do anything for myself. He opened the car door. Carried everything. Tried to pay for everything...don't get me wrong. It was nice. But he was trying to give me a backrub and...I don't know. I can't even remember what happened last week let alone 7 months ago. He just freakin' creeps me out. I'm surprised he didn't try and call today. Not that he would have been able to get through. The power went out at work today. It was the return of the darkness. Okay. New topic.

~And that's what you get for fallin' again. You can never get him out of your head...~

Hmm, ya. So I was doing okay with the whole Ryan situation. He seemed so upset on Sunday about the fact that I've been going out and meeting people...hanging out with guys. I know he wasn't happy with it but I needed to get out of my head for awhile and it made me feel better to know that he now sees my point of view. So I was fine with it. Up until a phone call from his dad's girlfriend this afternoon. I honestly love her. She's great. But why does she have to call me looking for him? Everyone knows that we are no longer together. He's doing the same thing to them that he's done to me. He doesn't call. He doesn't stop by. How should I know? So she talks to me for at least a half an hour about how his dad is really upset with him and she's worried about what's going to happen when his brothers come to town on the first. Because she knows he'll stop by and she's afraid his dad is going to have it out with him. Something along the lines of his dad feeling like he's lost Ryan and he doesn't want him to take his brothers away too. She's concerned. But he doesn't want that right now. He wants to do whatever without being questioned by anyone. She seriously thinks he's on drugs or he's talking to his X Cassi again. (as though Cassi is the equivalent to drugs) I tried to explain that he's staying with his friends. She doesn't think he's eating right and she wanted me to have him get a hold of them the next time I heard from him...I don't know. But there's no way for me to contact him. Although I tried to pass the word along, it was jumbled up and now I'm the bad guy once again. Pat left his phone at Laurie's last night so I told her to tell him to tell Ryan the situation or have him give me a call. Knowing his dad's girlfriend. She'll tell me one thing and give him the watered down version as to not hurt his feelings. But when Laurie told Pat, he went off on some tangent about how he's friends with both of us but he thinks I should lay off and we should give each other space. OKAY! I got that point from Ryan. Just trying to help out here. Don't kill the messenger. Sorry if I feel obligated to be nice. Or at least give him some warning before the shit hits the fan.

~You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say it's because I deserve better?~

Okay, turned on some From Autumn to Ashes. I'm better. I just want to announce that I love the guy that Natalie is dating. (oooh that sounds horrible) Scott is great because he's getting Natalie into good music. FINALLY! She and I have been bonding. It's so great. We cleaned her apartment while head banging and playing air guitar to FATA. hahaha. I know it sounds completely stupid but...sometimes it's good to do dumb shit like that. We're dorks. And speaking of metal...what an intro...I just had a conversation with Tim. Fucking Tim. I haven't spoken to that crazy mother fucker in forever. Needless to say, it was odd. But we were as civil as we could possibly be. Don't think he hates me anymore. He actually gave me permission to call him. Oh that's delicious! Played a quick game of catch up. Sounds like he's doing well. Just found it a bit strange that I was talking about him here just yesterday and ya. It's good though. It's all good. Ok. Gotta get off of here now. Things to do.

~I'd break in two for you...~

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