02-26-01 Monday

~Today I screwed up again...I wasn't paying attention. I walked into the wall again. I heard you laugh and saw you grin.~

Oh my goodness, it's been a busy weekend. I don't think I've been home beyond sleeping time. I'm so...I don't know, scatterbrained right now. Just thinking about everything that's happened is making me dizzy. On top of everything else, my computer (well the computer that my brother and I use) is screwed up. It seems as though my brother downloaded so many music files...we have no space left on the hard drive. It happens I suppose. So my dad...gets this great idea. He told us to save anything that's of any importance to us on disk, cause he's gonna wipe the drive. UGH. So eventually, I'm gonna have to find time to sit at the computer in the back and figure out what I have saved...and what's of dire necessity. I barely have time to be sitting here updating right now. Cause Nicole and I have plans to go to Toledo and visit Tyler today. Well tonight. First we have to drop off her truck at the stereo place...she's having a cd player installed. Then we get to dink around and wait until it's done. Then we're going to Toledo at 5. I'm going to take my history book and read my chapter for class tomorrow in the car. And ya. That's the plan. But moving on, I'll start with Friday.

~Ya we make great friends but it just isn't the same.~

So we had tickets for the Fisk Jubilee Singers Friday night. (got them free...cause we're choir nerds...and the dean paid for them) We all met at Cracker Barrel and had a nice meal together. It's about time we sat down and just have food and good conversation. I was very pleased with that. I'm glad we had the time to bond a bit. Then we traveled to the Civic Center (it was a great night on the town. Lima baby. You can't get any better than that.) I was surprised when we got there...cause little did I know, but Fisk University is an all black school. And it was a big black history month tribute. The Fisk Jubilee Singers are a really great gospel choir. So we started the night off with a prayer. And they sang. Then after the intermission, this lady comes out, and music starts...so I think she's gonna sing. But I looked in the program, and it said "Silent Worship". She signed (like sign language) the whole song. It was so powerful and spiritual. I cried. The choir came back out...and finished. I was also very surprised to hear them perform a few songs we did last year in Chamber. They were an excellent group. I was very impressed. Afterward, we walked back over to the parking garage. And Brad is all, "do we wanna go do something else?" So we decided to meet at the bowling alley. Bad idea. It was thunder alley...and every white trash kid in town was there. Here's us, in our dress clothes, and we walk into this smoke cloud and it was...not right. So we went to Arby's. Once we go there, they changed their minds again, and we left our cars in Arby's parking lot and walked over to Godfather's (pizza place) Ya...I knew pretty much everyone there. If I didn't know their names, I'd at least seen them at youth group. So we sat around and chilled for a bit. Ben walked in...and said hi. At one point, he came over and sat with us. Lisa saw Kent's tattoos and asked if I knew him. I said ya and called him over. So he showed her. Then said if we wanted to see some others, we should check out Matt's. So later when I caught Matt's attention, I called him over. He kinda got up slowly (cause he didn't know what I wanted) and looked back at Colin...and really slowly walked over to the table. I said we were admiring Kent's tattoos earlier, and we wanted to see his. So he showed her. He turned around, and I said, "If you didn't want to come over here, you didn't have to Matt. It wasn't that important." Cause he kept giving me funny looks. But he's like, "no. You called me so I came." and I said "good boy." haha that kinda makes me chuckle. Cause Matt is like...the leader, so to speak, of this group of boys...and he's the uh...ladies man. Kinda like the one that no one bosses around. Usually if you tell him to do something, he does the opposite. So it made me feel a little...I don't know...empowered. Right. So Sterns, Sherrick and I (all those who drove) walked back over to Arby's to bring the cars around and pick up our passengers. We get over there, and Goo, and Andrew were sitting inside. I went in to say hi. It's nice to see them. I haven't seen either for awhile. So hugs all around. Then I drove my car back to Godfathers. Here's the tricky part. I pull in, and see Ben headed for his car. So I took the space next to his car...and acted like I was gonna hit him. He opened the door to his car and started the thing...but waited until I got out of my car. So I get out, and he kinda looks at me, and asks what else we were gonna do later. I said I didn't know. Then he gives me this hug. Now...it was a rather long hug. And I went to pull back...but he was still hugging me. I thought that was a bit odd. And so I asked if there was something wrong. He said no, and asked why. And I said, "well, you never hug me." (seriously. I don't think the boy has ever hugged me before.) and he gives me another look. And says, "I dunno." So I said bye...and went back inside. It was strange. I guess...but whatever. I think his aim is to catch people off guard. Anyhow, that was pretty much the end of the night.

~But I don't...wanna stop~

Saturday...I worked...closed the store that night. But after...made plans to go to Nicole's and watch another movie. Tyler had come home this weekend. So it was Tyler, Nicole, Jon, and me. I guess they thought it would be cool to go get Kyle. (Jon is Kyle's biggest fan) I showed up after work, and they had already picked up Kyle, and gone to Delphos to get pizza and a movie. 12 Monkeys. It was good...the parts that I actually saw at least. Cause it happened...that Jon and Nicole sat on the floor, Tyler took the one chair, and Kyle and I took over the couch. I know we were getting on their nerves. They were trying to watch the movie...and Kyle was tickling...and poking me. So I was loud...and it was just...ya. Eventually, I trapped his hand and he shut up. 10:30 rolled around...and Kyle had to be home by 11. So I offered to take him there. This is where things get super complicated...cause it was his mom's house this time, and I didn't know where that was. Kyle could get me there obviously. But getting back wasn't so easy. Ty gave me his cell so I could call them and get directions back. That was a good thing. Cause it was turny and curvy. And I'm terrible with directions. Anyhow...Kyle...has this thing with beeping my horn everytime he rides in the passenger seat. And I told him to stop. So he thought it would be fun to tickle me while I was driving. Um...not a good idea. So he stopped. When we came to a stop sign though, it was free reign. And he attacked me. I didn't know...but it was all in his plan...and he ended up planting one on me. HELLO! So we finished the drive to his mom's, and as soon as we got in the driveway, I was like, "I need to call Nicole now, cause I have no frickin' clue how to get back." So the cell phone had dissappeared. We found it...he found it...and put it in his pocket. Right...so I HAD to kiss him again to get it back. Ransom...and finally when I got it back, he kissed me again. And then got out of the car. I called Nicole...and she says...she was waiting for it. I told her the whole story. The funny thing was...she said something like, "you know the boy's got balls. To just kiss you in the first place. But you're 19...in college, and he's 16. That's some pretty big balls." Ya. I'm proud. To be honest though, that's about all I'm gonna say on here about Kyle and I. Yes, the relationship is started. We've had encounters since Saturday. And I'm thrilled about everything that's happening. But I don't think I want to give out my personal life...(hahaha like I don't already) I just don't think it's necessary for me to detail every minute we spend together here. Unless it's important. Honestly, if you want to know...or if I think it's something you should know...then I'll tell you. But other than that, it's everyday stuff here. It's life events...just to inform people of what's going on...and to keep a nice history for myself. Onward.

~I'm paid to smile~

I had class this morning...and I'm just...gearing up for today's trip. Tomorrow, I have class all day...then I have a lecture to attend for extra credit in my history class tomorrow night. Oh boy. That's about it though. I'll try and update when I can. But I can't guarantee it'll be as often as usual. I'm so frickin' busy.

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