02-26-00 Saturday


I had such a great day. Today, I was 8 years old again. Nicole called this morning and we decided to take advantage of the nice weather. We went to the park, and played. Can you picture two 18yr. olds with pigtails skipping around like morons? That was us. But it was so much fun. I don't do things like that very often. Conversation was thin, and it was nice to NOT think for awhile. It got Dan off my mind for what it's worth. That was the ultimate goal. But of course...what do you think is on the brain now??? Hmmm...I wonder. and I still need to talk to James. I'm avoiding it. just like I'm avoiding Dan. Notice a pattern here? I just suck in all situations involving guys.

Loser=me

02-27-00 Sunday

I have had a CRAZY day. Let me tell you... It's 11:00pm and I should be working on the history that I have a test on tomorrow, but it's important that I get this out...Quickly...

First, James called me. Took him long enough...but he did. and that was...Awkward. #1 we haven't talked in awhile. #2. after the fact, we were back to good ol' conversation. (laughing and such.) I apologized. Which is something I am NOT good at. He also apologized. We called ourselves asses, and moved on to less serious topics. One thing about James is that it's terribly hard to be serious.

After talking to James, Kir called. She wanted to talk about the essays we all have that are due tomorrow. NONE of us had started. (go figure) The once unspoken rule... Now dubbed a spoken rule. You're not supposed to read what is assigned for class. You just BS your way through everything. (it's much more amusing that way) We not only talked about essays, but also caught each other up on our lives. It's funny... We laughed the whole time. It was good... just to talk to her for a change.

Both James and Kirsten invited me to go to the Deep End tonight. but I made no promises. I hadn't eaten anything, and by the time I had, it was 5. (Deep End starts at 7) So I figured I'd start my essays. But I never got to that. Suddenly, there was a knock at the door. (suspense) Shockingly enough (and a blast from the past) it was Chris my ex-boyfriend from like 3 years ago. (we used to call him Hanson cuz he looked like one of those mmmboppers) He hasn't been a big part of my life for quite some time. but he spilled his guts about his girlfriend breaking up with him last Sunday etc. and at first, I figured it was another one of his devious plots to get back with me. (he used to do that all the time) But he was really upset. I guess she broke up with him because she was scared. The relationship was getting pretty serious so she jumped ship. At this point in time, we went to his house. He spilled even more. I guess right before he started going out with this girl, he was trying to get hooked back up with me. (surprise!) blah blah...still has feelings for me...doesn't want to go out with me though cause he really loves this girl...and they're going to get back together... MAN! He's younger than I am, and he's all serious about this stuff. LOVE??? what's that? but I listened to him. He rattled on about it for hours. Literally. HOURS! I didn't get home until 8. I am such a good listener. It was just... wrong. He told me things that I could have lived without knowing. He informed me that he'll be talking to me more often because I am his comfort. Then when he dropped me off, he nudged me with his elbow and called me his "buddy". *hysterical laughter* I'm like, "sure. no problem." Then he's like, "well, I was gonna do something else but thought..." (silly grin) "I thought it wouldn't be appropriate." So I reached over and gave him a good hearty hug. and he was like, "I was going to do more than that even." (nervous laughter) "I just thought you'd take it the wrong way." Awkward??? nope. not at all. So I now have a new friend. This is going to be one of the MOST awkward experiences.... I know it. I can feel it.

Then, when I finally get home and get started on my work, Laurie calls and asks me to come over and do the essays with her. She ended up coming over here, and we worked until 10. I didn't finish my essays until 11. and now I have a map test that I REALLY need to study for.

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