08-18-00 Friday

~You're a God and I am not and I just thought you'd like to know~

This update is dedicated to James and Goo because they yelled at me for not updating. I haven't been on the computer for days...since I last updated (don't even remember when that was) I get on here...and find that my brother changed EVERYTHING! The screen saver...the homepage. It pissed me off. Anyhow...I'm gonna start with Tuesday...because quite a few things have happened in the past week...But I've been neglecting my page...so...moving on. Tuesday, James called. He was bored. He and Goo came over and picked me up...we went to Arby's and Happy Daz. I found out just how much James used to like me...which is kinda sad. It makes me feel terrible. But what can ya do? Goo let me dye his hair blue...that was fun. Then...he got in the shower...and James hid away in his sisters room so he could talk to Kelly in private. So I almost fell asleep on James bed. Next thing I know...Goo walks in with nothing but a towel on...and all at the same time...James, his little sister, and his sisters friend come in the room, and James rips the towel off of Goo. I turned my head around so fast...I think I got whiplash. So I saw his butt again. I think I've seen Goo's bum a million times. I have a picture of it on my computer somewhere...I'd post it...but I'm not sure that it would be kosher with everyone. Anyhow, We watched The Matrix...I just wasn't in the mood for a thinking movie. So I almost fell asleep again. Then...I was involuntarily humped. I wish I could explain this. But it's one of those things you have to see to understand. Then Goo drove me home. My advice for this evening...Never prance around someone else's house in nothing but a towel. You're just asking for trouble.

~Bill Gates, Donald Trump lemme hear ya now!~

On Wednesday...my mom took me shopping. Now...it wouldn't have been that bad if my brother hadn't come along. We ended up in the mall...and buying clothes at Gadzooks. Which I really shouldn't do. #1: Ridiculously expensive. #2: ya...expensive. So I'm glad I didn't work there. Because it would have just been bad. Ralph works there. (this kid who had a huge crush on me...probably still does) and so does Ben M. (one of Danny's friends) I wouldn't consider working with Ben bad...but then I would develop a crush...and that's not allowed anymore. I remember a dream I had not too long ago. A bunch of my friends were in it. I remember Tyler S. and Nicole...and Ben...of all people?!?! I told Danny. But I don't think I gave him any details. We were...trying to do something or get somewhere, and we were trapped in this hospital elevator that only went up. Right...so anyhow, when I walked in the store, Ben gave me a funny look. I would have said hi. But I don't know exactly what level I'm on with him. I don't want to just say hi to someone who doesn't know or give a crap who I am. I think maybe Danny told him about the dream...and he couls be assuming...or I could be full of it and jumping to conclusions like the idiot that I am. So...I bought a bunch of clothes that I shouldn't have. They're cute...so whatever. I got this pair of tight shiny black pants, and when I got home and tried them on, the didn't fit. I'll get back to that. I missed out on youth group that night. Because my car battery was dead. Which ticked me off. Cause I didn't get to see Jon (since he's been out of the hospital) and I didn't get to see Kir or Tyler before they left for school. : (

~We are young! Heartache to heartache we stand! no promises, no demands. Love is a battlefield.~

Yesterday, I got a new car battery (amen) and then ended up driving Nicole, James, and Andrew to the A&W in Delphos. That was fun. Nicole and I were supposed to work out...but there was a whole...thing with her locking her keys in her car...and me driving back and forth to her house twice...anyhow, I'm still kind of uncomfortable around Andrew. So things weren't as good as they could have been. He's no fun. He rarely talks. And he doesn't fight back. He just sits there and occasionally chuckles. After we dropped Nicole off at her car, James decided that we should go to Erin's. I barely know her. But she didn't seem upset that we showed up...around 9:30 and stayed until midnight. That was just...lots of laughs...and joking around. I tripped off her porch...in the dark, and smacked my heel against the wood.

~now it's time you know the truth, I think he's just the man for you~

So I discovered a black and blue bruise this morning. I've been covering up a limp all day. Laurie called this morning too. We made plans to go to the fair. I had to run back to the mall and exchange my new pants...and guess who was working?!?! Not only Ralph and Ben! But also Kim (my old manager from Paul Harris) Ralph asked why I buy things there everyday...and Ben gave me a funny look again. He's definitely attractive...(he kinda looks like Tony from No Doubt) but I know nothing about him. And I'm not making that mistake again. So I tried to find Nate. I stopped by his house. Cause he's been calling. I hadn't seen him since...forever. But he was working at the fair...(ya my friend is a carnie!) Laurie and I got a hold of Nicole, and we went to the fair. We ran into everyone from high school there. It was just one big "hey I'm gonna be fake and hug you and tell you I've missed you" fest. It made me sick. But it was good to hang out with Laurie again...and it was nice to see a couple of people. But I see those people all the time. I got the scoop on who's dating who...who's getting it on with who...that kind of thing. I'm satisfied. So ya...that was my week. Eventful...for me. I haven't been out of the house that much for quite awhile. THE END (I don't remember who it was that told me I should say that when I finish telling a story. It was an inside joke type of thing...because I had a story for everything...and you could never tell when I was finished. strange that I remember that...) Goodnight

~I'm feeling older and I'm wondering why~

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