04-24-00 Monday


Wow...so much has happened. I'll go in order I suppose. Starting with Saturday...

***SATURDAY***

The day started off bland. Until about 2. I promised Nicole that I'd pose with her for her senior pictures. That was fun...Tyler fell off the box...hilarious. We get back to my house and I remembered that Jason had messaged me about doing something since he was home this weekend. So I grabbed the phone and gave him a ring. Guess who's chillin' at Jason's place...Mike. So between them handing off the phone to each other, we devised a plan for the evening. The catch...Mike didn't get off work until midnight. So the plan was: meet them at the video store where Mike works at 12. Ok, mom didn't like this plan very much...but she said be home at a reasonable time. After quite the odd conversation on the phone, I decided to call Rob. BECAUSE...he's one of the few friends I have that can stay out really late. AND...cause he's cool like that. So...we headed out at about 11:00pm.

~I don't wanna come back down from this cloud.~

Right...we ended up at Mike's house. In his basement...watching Event Horizon (which is a really twisted movie might I add) But things were going pretty well. I'm thinkin'...we'll finish up the movie at about 2:30am...then Rob and I can head back home. No problem. THEN...Jason stole my pillow. Furious??? You bet. We started wrestling around...fighting over this pillow. I finally got him down...his face was smashed against the side of the futon, (we're both on our knees on the floor) He throws me backward, and I landed with my one leg bent behind my back. Let's just say that it hurt. A LOT! My leg hasn't been the same since. The muscle is all streched out. If I put too much pressure on it, it aches. and my back...ouch! Anyhow, he apologized of course. I'm not trying to lay a big guilt trip. Just describing...it was an accident. Right...moving on. We all ended up squishing on the futon. and...I don't know what else to say after that. *sigh* I'm still extremely confused. We were talking about how it's unacceptable for Mike and I to be anything more than friends. (laugh) and Mike goes, "well, what if we fall madly in love with each other???" (this statement shocked me at first) then I was like, "well, all i know is...I'm free and white..." it was hilarious. The movie wasn't over until 3am. We turned it off, and turned on the tv. I'm half asleep. My body is screaming...and they decide, "hey, let's pile up on Laura!" Pillows on my face! I couldn't breathe...It was awful. But what do I expect? Boys will be boys. Everyone was laughing, having a good time, then they discovered that Ben Hur was on. Mike and Rob watched the whole thing...filling in their own dialogue. (because it's a "silent" movie) Every other phrase was, "in bed" or "horny"...talk about funny. (Mike was getting into it a little too much I think. Craziness!) These two were cracking me up. I was attempting to pay attention to the new version...when Jason started in. I don't know...he was...rubbing my arm...and I told him to stop. But I guess he thought that I meant "hey I like that." because he kept right on with it. It got a little annoying after awhile. Poking me...so I kinda got mean. I told him, "did I ASK you to do that? No. I told you to stop. So quit. Seriously." Call it cold shoulder...but honestly...I wanted to enjoy the evening without hassles etc. But my brain...I read into things too much. I had to move away from him to get him to stop. I ended up sitting on Rob and Mike. (???) yeah. So when Ben Hur was finally over...(like 5am) I'm like "KRIKEY!!!" but we were all laying there. and I was comfortable...then they started in with the pile up again. (haha there's more to that, but I won't elaborate) I'm like, "uh...what do you think is a reasonable time to be home???" hahaha oops. We sat there for a minute. and Mike says, "man, stay until 7. If you guys leave, I'll get tired, and I have to be up for church at 7." I would have. I was having too much fun I think. He's like, "man, Wapak people aren't as cool as you guys." (cracks me up) Rob and I eventually left at approx. 5:45am. I didn't make it home until a few minutes after 6. I could see the light coming up behind the trees...Talk about freaking me out. I get home...and come in the house. and guess who happens to be awake??? dad... he's like, "you're just getting home???" and I said, "uh, ya" Then I went back to my room and went to bed.

~Keep it locked up inside, don't talk about it.~

***SUNDAY***
(Easter)
I woke up at 11:30am. BIG purple bags under my eyes. I tried to stand up...and well, my leg gave out, and I almost crashed into my desk. Made it to the shower, got dressed. And went to Easter lunch with the family. (dad's side) I hadn't seen my cousin in months. It feels like years. She moved to Dayton a while back, then moved to Indianapolis with her boyfriend Joe. It's kind of depressing because she and I had gotten pretty close. I miss chillin' at her apartment. Those were the days. So I got to see her, and Joe, and my grandma, and even my aunt! No big surprises. It was a holiday meal. Funny though. My cousin and I have almost the same haircut, and we were wearing pretty much the same outfit. It's scary how much alike we are. She's me only 5 years older, and a red head.

~You've got your ball, you've got your chain...~

***MONDAY***

The plan for today was our big trip to Findlay. We (spanish class) had to film scenes 1 and 5 for our wonderful Don Quijote movie. It turned out to be quite a riot. Rachel, Ashley and I were given the task to find goldfish. Senorita gives us directions to a pet store down the street, but when we got there, it was closed. So, being the beasts that we are, we took off for Meijer. (this is Findlay. I've been there twice. I know how to get to the mall from the interstate exit, and that's about it.) We guessed...and just happened to find the main road that takes you straight to the mall. and I knew that Meijer was across the street from it. (we're awesome!) We found it, and got the fish. No problem. We got the taping done and headed for Olers. (it's a spanish restaurant/pub type thing) Rachel, Ashley, Kyle, Matt and I in the convertible...that was fun. The top down...yeah. The food was absolutely awesome. We had to take Kyle and Matt back to Senorita's place so they could get Matt's car...they insisted on following us there, so they were depending on following us back. (in other words, they had no idea how to find the highway) They sped around us in the parking lot (like they knew where they were going) and Rachel's like, "OH! you wanna play THAT game?" So when Kyle stuck his head out the window to find out which way to turn, Rachel pointed them in the wrong direction. (hahaha) They turned right, and we turned left. We are such beasts!!! Matt backed down the road, and turned himself around. It took them forever to catch up. But when they did, it was like highway wars. I think Kyle mooned us...They had their feet out the windows. Just...a strange trip.

~He is everything you want, he is everything you need, he is everything inside of you that you wish you could be. He says all the right things at exactly the right time. but he means nothing to you, and you don't know why.~

I had this weird dream...I don't even remember it. But it was something about...vietnam. and I mean, that's what we've been going over in history...but c'mon! It's not exactly vietnam. Just agent orange. (some chemical they put on fields etc. to kill the vegetation) they found out that it was harmful...like after the soldiers had been around it. (strange) but I was listening to my Rage Against the Machine cd...and they talk about it in this one song. I can't remember which one. I think it's Sleep Now in the Fire. But that dream has been on my mind all day. weird...and I still don't know what to think about Saturday. I mean. A lot more happened than I would like to include in this journal. (#1. because it would make the entry toooooo long. #2. because I'd just rather not) It's...a long story. I wonder if Mike got in trouble for having us there so long. I don't think it would have been such a big deal if we had been quiet. We were LOUD. I wonder if Tyler ever ordered that karaoke tape...I should probably stop now.

~I am the Nina, the Pinta, the Santa Maria, the noose, and the rapist, and the fields overseer. The agents of orange, the priests of Hiroshima. The cost of my desire, sleep now in the fire.~

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