Corrupted

I walked through my mind today.....
past the demons and children i once knew, 
screams of terror and tears of anger deafen and confuse me.. .
Thoughts of you succumb me and entrance me on my way home.....
alone once again
Blood runs and wounds heal, 
but will i ever be the same again?
My world of insanity and hate you rectified with your
 every ready presence 
and loving demeanor 
Tormented by lust and my obsessive obtrusion 
i murder any and all love i am hopeful enough to be given...
Hate me for what i am worth and love me for nothing more 
Upon my shame i torture myself with thoughts of death and rapture 
and death once more
What shall it be my one and only love? 
Forgive me