Nine Ladies Dancing

I'm so incredibly lucky, it's incomprehensible. Yes, look out everyone, it's gush-time again. Forest just said the sweetest things, that were just what I was thinking, and just at the right time to make me completely floaty and happy. It's not really that cheerful, because he's not happy at the moment. He's wishing for things, and feeling regrets, and that's always hard.

I have sympathy for him, and know how much this pulls at his heart strings. I want to reach out and hug him, and tell him that it's okay, and soothe it away.

The thing is, I can't help but be cheered by it, because he wishes for just the right things. More than anything, he wishes we could have more time together. Thoughts like those make me feel so loved! Somehow with things like that, the thought *counts*, and the sharing of the thoughts in a beautiful way counts double.

I love you sweety and I know it hurts you too that we have no time together... I love you so much you can't even begin to imagine. I just want a normal, sane life together.

I think the most important part of it is that he makes me feel as though my emotions make sense. I was worrying about time together, and whether I should ask for more, and how it was ever all going to work out. I felt a bit silly about it, and wondered if my feelings were just unfounded, or left over from another relationship. But no! He not only validates my feelings, but shares them as well.

So in the shortest moment, I'm a bit sad that he's feeling stressed by this, and we're both wishing for things we really can't have... but it's easy to see past that short-term sadness in the face of the long-term relationship-building ideas we share. We both want more time together, and we are building a history of sharing our feelings, happy or otherwise.

And *that*, my friends, makes me a very happy Wendy.

Today is the office Christmas party. I work with a bunch of very silly geeky people, so our parties are always nuts. Today I think we are planning to play party games, and eat much junk food at my bosses house. I have no idea how they are going to fill four hours, but I'm sure there will be lots of laughing and sarcasm, as there always is in our meetings.

Forest, Kirstin and I had rather a nice evening together last night. Forest came home a little late, having struggled to find the dolls for the dollhouse. Believe it or not, we tried FAO Schwartz and Toys R Us, an neither one of them had dolls appropriate for a dollhouse! He ended up having to go to the local hobby shop. I was impressed at his ambition - he was on a mission, and refused to come home without those dolls! He also got our gift for Allyn, which was a nice suprise.

I made us dinner, and we all plunked down to watch Antz and snuggled on the couch. It was quite pleasant to be bundled up in our nice warm house together while the snow was falling outside.

Christmas preparations are coming along nicely, I think. Now the only people I have on the list are my grandma, my stepmom, and Kirstin's cousins Ashley and Alyssa (new additions). Piece of cake. Speaking of cake, my mom has volunteered me to do some pretty serious baking for Christmas. I'm to make several loaves of poppy seed bread. It's not tough, but it's a larger quantity than I am used to. I only have one bread pan, so I guess I will have to buy more.