Tears of silver streak her face....
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[Meaningless Name]
[She Blooms]
[Trophy]
[Winter Rose]
[She Blooms-Part 2]
[Chasing a Shadow]
[Girl]
[Slit of Light]
[Colors]
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Blank page, blank heart, blank soul
Do not shed a tear for me
For as far as I can see it's useless, the effort is
futile
Look into my eyes and know I'm dead
This worthless life that tortures my head
Life knits my shroud up around me
And now I finally know why
I can never picture myself at eighteen
Because before than I think I'll die
My soul is as scarred as my arms and my wrists
Eternally a virgin, never to be kissed
Except by death that is I say
I'll not see the light of an other day
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Meaningless Name
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For a while I thought things were okay
For awhile I thought I was fine
I was happy with my friends
Secure in what was mine
Something changed though that one night
When I met my new friend
I pulled him out of the can on my desk
He showed me a means to end
At first he treated me kindly
But then he started to hurt
And before I knew what I had done
It was over with
His reply was short and curt
This left me to dwell alone
And wonder at what I had done
What ever had made me think
What I was doing was fun
I severed my personality
Kicked here out into the rain
And oh God help me
I can't remember my name
Who am I?
Does it matter
I thought I'd be the last
But stupid me I saw fit
To give away my better half
I'm not sure who I am anymore
I thought that I was different
And despite the things I'd been told
I did anyway
I should've listened
A penny for your thoughts
I was given quite a bit
And away, out of the circle
I, alone, now sit
So my name is still the same
What's it mean to me
This worthless little attribute
No longer defines what was me
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She Blooms
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Daddy's little girl
Mother's beauty queen
Dyes her hair black
Avoids being seen
Powder white make up
Eyes outlined so dark
Drinks a pint of Snakebite
From a silver cup
Dresses of silk and satin
Lace up boots and more
Crimson crayon on the ground
Pentagram on the floor
Acts of darkness carried out
Behind the pulled down shades
Slashes at her arms and wrists
With a knive's sharp blade
Marred with thorns
The blackened rose
For her lonely self she mourns
In the misery and the gloom
This dark child
She blooms
Tears of silver streak her face
Sadness of what she's become
Wonder's what's true happiness
These thought just leave her numb
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Trophy
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The Shadow stole my cookies
I'm still mad about it
She always takes my things
A long time ago I remember
She stole my Childhood
That bitch
I was twelve years old
Damn it
You call this fair?
She took my Peace of Mind once
But that was so long ago
I'm not sure when
or where
No such thing as give
and take
With manners, She never bothers
She stole a littepiece of Trust
When my brother was beaten by my father
My brother too, him as well
He did a bad thing to me once
Then She stole my fucking Integrity
She ripped apart my Trust
You know, fuck this world
Fuck this life
Fuck the whole damn thing
Telling me to hold on doesn't mean a thing
That inconsiderate bitch
That I call a Shadow
I'll tear her down with me
And I don't think I'll feel
much better
Till I have Her head
As a trophy
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Winter Rose
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Rose stays frozen
Stiff and hard
Broken
Shards of shattered ice
At her feet
Dying
Thin and starved
Her bones protrude
All alone
So alone
By herself both day and night
So cold
Pulled in and quiet
Inconspicious
Withered and wrinkled
A relic of Victorian beauty
Long past her age
She bends over and weeps
Covers her face with her hands
Cries tears of frost
Takes a last shuddery breath
And dies
Winter rose
Among the thorns
No more
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She Blooms-Part Two
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Tears of silver streak her face
Sadness of what she's become
Wonders what's true happiness
These thoughts just leave her numb
Stony gaze and frozen heart
She'll not venture out before dark
For fear of the mockery
Of her painted face
Scorns her life and the human race
So is it worth it to live today?
She thinks as she looks into the mirror with dismay
Or shall I bleed a final time
Kill the only thing that's truly mine?
They tell me I'm ugly, sickly, and pale
That I should find a cross so I can be nailed
Upon it like the Christ that I choose to forsake
To burn forever in the Fiery Lake
Sighs and pulls the cloak over her head
Cries silently, wishing that she was dead
Hoping one day for someone who would really care
Someone with whom feelings could be shared
A worthless wish from a worthles mind
Holds the knife and bides her time
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Chasing a Shadow
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Followed her across the desert for years
Wanting revenge on the cause of my tears
The memories are blurred and the pleasures are few
And while I search for her I'll long for you
The days are lonely, and the evenings worse
As I chase after this elusive curse
The landscape is barren
The sky's are clear
And she always far
When I think she's near
The shadow in black stole something that was mine long
ago
And it has been such a while I'm not sure that I know
Why I follow her and with such intentions
And all the while time seems suspended
So when I finally grasped the shadow's black cloak
I spun her around so her face I could see
With growing horror and much despair
I realized the shadow I had chased was me
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Girl
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Slit your wrists with scissors sharp
Stain the wall with colors dark
The girl is here she’s left her mark
Less is more, less is more
Do a dive and take the plunge
After you no one will lunge
The girl is here she’s left her mark
Less is more, less is more
Dangerous fire, dangerous spark
Illuminate an absolute dark
The girl is here she’s left her mark
Less is more, less is more
Fill the needle with liquid clear
To your arm or leg you bring it near
The girl is here she’s left her mark
Less is more, less is more
Shake the bottle with the pill
Take too many and make you ill
The girl is here she’s left her mark
Less is more, less is more
Butcher’s knife is good to cut
End your life you worthless slut
The girl is here she’s left her mark
Less is more, less is more
Death becomes her once or twice
Do the deed and pay the price
Charon is here to take her away
She’ll not see the light of day
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Slit of Light
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Slit of light
This bitter night
Is all that I can see
In the shroud of darkness
That envelops me
Sanity left the door cracked
When she packed her bags and left me
The light that pervades from outside
Is all that I can see
Slit of light this bitter night
Turns into to a slit grin
Not on my face, but much below, an inch beneath my
chin
Slit of blood this bitter night
Shuts out that little slit of light
Mortality thought to close the door
Now I can see no more
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Colors
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White and black and blue and grey
The colors I feel at the end of the day
White and pale, shivering from the cold
The cold of young hearts and stories untold
Black and dark and angry inside
Feeling the need from others to hide
Blue is the color of the bruises I wear
They come from the burden's of others I bear
Grey is the sky and grey is my soul
But my eyes shall burn like two bright coals
Anger's fires are red and envy's are green
Two emotion that shalt not be seen
Choke it all back and swallow my pride
And keep it hidden deep inside
White and black and blue and grey
The colors I am at the end of the day
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