deeper and deeper still....
[Suicide Poem]
[Death is the only escape]
~*~
Suicide Poem
~*~
I grab my razor,
And slice my skin.
Releasing all my
pain within.
Then again
six more times,
to ease my very
depressed mind
Tears of blood
run down my arm,
As people wonder
why myself i harm.
As i move further
upward, upward after
My mind fills
with evil laughter
And i know that it
shall not be long
Before i end this
Sorrowfull song
Wanting to die
Wanting to cry
How can i hide
How can i lie
When so verry much
I’m longing to die
I look at my wrists,
Stare at the veins
Clench my fists
And block out the pain.
Right below my hand
I point the blade
As i think of all
the mistakes that ive made
I start pressing it down
Deep and deeper still
I feel like im tumbling,
down an endless hill.
I switch to the other,
Destroying myself
And please tell my mother
This is partly your fault
Dont say it wasnt you
Dont act like my depression
was something new
You just didnt notice,
You just didnt care,
And all in all
You were never there.
Down this spiral i’m falling
in this web im caught,
And look how youve made me
So verry distraught.
The lightening flashes,
The thunder booms,
as i fall down
On the floor in my room.
~*~
Death is the only escape
~*~
You laugh and criticize my every word, destroying all my dreams
And i, I grab my blade, and slowly drag it accross my skin, releasing my
pain
You scream at me, tell me that i am a worthless hoar, and beat all of my
hopes away
And i, i cry myself to sleep at night, trying to stop the blood from
escaping my wrists
You live in your own little world, where nothing can harm you, and you yell
derogetory comments
And i, i live in a depressed spiral of pain, with no escape, but death
So as you ridicule me, and slowly tear me apart,
I say nothing, just listen, cry, cut, and bleed, and why, because of you.
And as you tell everyone, and they whisper about me,
I have not the courage to do anything, but cut, and why, because of you.
You live a happy life, being the one that slowly destroys others
And i, am the one that gets destroyed, my heart aching, and my soul empty
You are excited, by others misfortunes, loving the torment in your victims
faces
And i, i am a tormented soul forever forced to live with the secrets that
lay deep within my heart
You go on, basking in the love that people feed you, as if you were a baby,
And i, i fall to the floor, the blood encasing my body, hoping only, that
you realize what you did
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