This one is fairly weird. Our creative writing teacher asked us to just write down our train of thought. I had so much on my mind, I think I could have gone on for hours! ha ha... This is a really good excersize to help if you're stressed. Just write down everything that comes to your mind!
written on Sept. 15, 1997
I've been staring at that computer for hours. It makes my eyes hurt. I wonder if it's bad for you. Maybe I should get my eyes checked. I can't wait to get out and go to the gym. Those Marines are so... oh my boyfriend would kill me. I wonder if I'm going to see him today. I think I'm going to start on the step machine again today. My legs always feel so tight and hurt after that. I love it. It keeps getting cloudy outside. I kinda hope it rains. It always cools off the air so much. And the feel of the rain is so soothing. I'm not looking forward to my Air Force medical exam for the Academy. They're going to do all kinds of stuff. It kind of scares me. I wonder if they're going to let me have a female doctor for that wonderful thing called a pap smear. I wonder if that bothers anyone else. Kevin was so nice to my mom this weekend. She seems to really like him. That's a first. She never likes any of my boyfriends. Especially Ernie. His Pathfinder used to be so nice. I wonder what his truck looks like now. All he does is brag and whine. He's such a baby. I can't stand thinking about how I could have possibly dated him. I wonder if Lois is ever going to grow up. She acts like a 12 year old when she doesn't get her way. I wish I could just punch her some times. But I'm not going to sink to her level. She's too low for me! I don't know if I want to go back to the Skating Rink or not. Joey's really nice and all but I can't stand the people that go there, especially on Saturday nights. And what if Michelle yells at me? Am I going to be able to hold it in and not lash out at her? Hows that go? Kevin keeps saying that every time I make a sound or something trying to tell him something and now I'm saying it. Moo! Hows that go? He is so homesick. He really doesn't like to show his emotional side and I can see that now. I hope he feels comfortable enough around me to break down in front of me. The night before last I felt like giving him a big hug and wrapping him up in a blanket with some soup and hot chocolate and just babying him. But I don't think I can. Not until I get to know him better. I don't want him to think I don't care, but I don't want him to think I make too big of a deal out of things like little scrapes and stuff. I'm glad he likes my cats. I miss Smokey. That scratch he gave me will be with me forever. I'm glad I've got a scar with a good memory. Kevin has all kinds of baseball scars. He really does love to play baseball. Maybe some day I'll play with him. I hope we go to Six Flags. I can imagine us riding roller coasters and him screaming at the top of his lungs. It would be funny. He's such a sensitive person. I hated it that time I was riding the roller coaster and a bug hit me in my eye. That hurt really bad. It ruined the whole ride for me because I didn't get the bug out until the end of the ride. That sucked. I wish they still had that dark roller coaster open. But somebody died on it. I can't believe my cousin's pregnant. She's so young and naive. She's going to be like Cheryl and end up letting her mom raise her baby. I can't wait to visit my family. It gets so cold in this school. I finally brought a large warm shirt to put on today and I'm glad because my fingers are so cold they're numb. That's okay. I need a big glass of water. With crushed ice. I'm craving chocolate so bad! Chocolate! Yeah... carapaccino.. Yeah huh huh. Like, as if. Kevin does such a good impersonation of a woman some times that it worries me. Well, not really but he just shakes his butt a little too much... You never know. He did say his roomate's a faggot. I'm so glad he likes going to Praise with me. That is the best church in the world as far as I'm concerned. I wish I could fly to Jamaica for the weekend. That would be pretty awesome. I can't believe that Kevin was talking about eloping in Puerto Rico! I'm there! No I think I'm going to wait a long time before I even think about getting married. And kids man if Mrs. Wypychowski doesn't stop walking around..she keeps making me lose my train of thought every time she walks by! Maybe I'm just a finicky, nervous person. Well, I've got so many errors in this paper it's going to take me an hour to get them all out. I wonder if that company took our trailer yet. I've really got to make up that test in Biology. I can't believe that I'm doing so horrible in that class. Maybe I just have to study harder. Well, I'm trying. As long as I'm trying my hardest I can't complain because I can only do as good as I let myself do. I quit my job for A's. And that's what I'm going to get. A's. The only class I can exempt my exams in is French. I'm finally a senior. My fingers are so numb!!
