The Two Sides of Her Heart

    “Jenny,” Electra said as she entered Jenny’s office. “I’ve got some bad news.”

    “Oh great now what?” Jenny asked with anger in her voice as she turned around in her chair to face Electra.

    The past week and a half had been pure torture for Jenny. Lane has become this big jerk to just about anyone who got in his way when he was in one of his bad moods. But most of all, Lane has taken out a lot on Jenny. As it always had been, Jenny cared a lot about Lane from deep within her heart but with everything he had said to her and done to her lately, the hate that she once had for all the revolutionist had returned to part of her heart along with the hate she had against anyone or anything else for any reason. The hate was building inside Jenny but she didn’t know it. All she could feel was the pain of her heart. Although she hadn’t broken up with anyone, it felt as if a lover was ripping her heart into two pieces with his words of “not anymore…” or “no longer can we…”

    “Lane has officially told the Magicks, especially Courtney, to take a hike and stay out of the revolutionists way. If they don’t, Lane, along with any other revs he can get, will attack and declare war.” Electra said noticing Jenny’s tone.

    She knew that Jenny was having a lot of problems with everything that was going on with Lane and the other revs. Jenny was terribly stressed as it was but without her best friend and rescuer (Lane), things were getting worse with her. Lane had always been there in these hard times for her. Now he was the one causing her the hard times, pains, and problems. Also, without Lane and the other Revs watching out for her, she had to watch out for Siren, the Endalls, and the Corporates. Jenny had to keep one eye open at all times.

    As Electra looked directly at Jenny, she noticed the agony of the pain Jenny was under. She also noticed the loss of sleep Jenny was suffering from because she had stayed up worried about what would come. Jenny looked paler then usual and her clothes were wrinkled and messed up. They didn’t match either, which was quite unusual for her. The pain Jenny was enduring could be seen in her face. Especially her eyes. Her cheeks looked as if they were wet, which meant that she had been crying. It hurt Electra a lot to see her friend/leader this way. If she could have she would have hurt Lane or at least tried to talk some sense into him but Lane was inaccessible by any member of the Kebb Squad because of some communication block that Lane had put up. Lane didn’t even come or reply when Evie tried to contact him. He gave no answer as to why he never came or never answered. He just never did it

     “Oh great!” Jenny shouted as she hit her desk with one hand. “Have some members get their butts over to the Magicks base to help them out. I don’t care what the damn Revs do. It’s not like Lane can hate me much more then he already does.” Jenny ordered with a sigh.

    “Yes ma’am. Right away. But you didn’t let me finish.” Electra paused. “Courtney has gone missing from the Magicks.” She finished.

    “What? Why?”

    “Well, Lane kind of kicked Matt out of the Revolution and the next we heard was that Courtney had disappeared from Taylor’s board of allies. We don’t know where either of them are. The Magicks don’t even know where Courtney is.” Electra said looking down at her feet. She hadn’t wanted to be the one to bring Jenny the news but she got voted to do it.

    Jenny dropped her head and let it hit the desk in front of her. She could feel her heart pulling farther apart getting the news that two of her closest friends had disappeared. Now she would have to deal with Lane on her own. For that’s what she was, all alone. She didn’t know if she could make it on her own. Sometimes the pain was just too much for her. Sometimes she needed somebody and although she did have good friends on her squad, that didn’t mean they could help her much. It wasn’t the same as having a best friend to talk to.

    That’s when the tears returned. “I can’t do this.” She whispered to herself.

    Electra then noticed that something was really wrong with Jenny. “Jenny, are you okay?” she asked.

    Jenny shook her head no slightly but Electra didn’t notice. Jenny took a deep breath and sat up the tears still present in her eyes and on her cheeks. “Just leave. Do what ever you think is best. Send Evie to me. I need to speak with her right away please.” Jenny said standing up and walking towards the door that connected her room with her office.

    “Right away Jenny.” Electra replied and exited the office, closing the door behind her.

    As Electra left, Jenny went into her room and fell on to her bed, grabbing her stuffed tiger that she had had since she was in high school to hug. She hugged the tiger close to her chest and cried. She cried over her hurting heart (Lane) but most of all she cried because no one could help her. She was alone to face her fear as well as pain.

    About ten minutes later, Evie stood quietly outside the door that led to Jenny’s room. She lifted her hand and knocked gently at the door. “Jenny? You wanted to see me?” She asked in a semi whisper. Electra had told her that Jenny wads in a teary mood and seemed like she wanted to be alone. But Electra had also said that Jenny had wanted to see her right away.

    Without replying Jenny yanked open the door. “I did. I want to you to contact Lane. And don’t even say it! I know he doesn’t listen! But I figured that if I bombarded him with every possible way of getting a hold of him he’d get annoyed and come to strangle me or something. He’s mad at me now but he can’t get much worse. You contact him with your powers and if you can handle two other tasks at the same time, then I will give you two more. Can you do it?” Jenny stated quite strongly. She was determined now to talk with Lane and she would do anything to get him to come to her. Evie nodded accepting that she could handle the two more tasks.

    “Good. Go into my room and sit at my mirrored vanity. My laptop is set up there. It’s open to my email. I need you to send him email after email telling him, in bold and capital letters, that I must talk with him. Go to New Kebb Main Hall and shout out message after message of the same. Also, with your powers I need you to yell inside his head that I must talk to him now! I’ll go through aim, his computer, the phone, and with a little powers of my own. Now please get to work. And when he does show up, don’t interrupt us. Just stay where you are. And yes I know he will come!” Jenny shouted the orders. Evie could see that the hate Jenny had once had for Lane had returned and was gaining more hate with ever minute.

    Evie did as Jenny had told her and tried to contact Lane. Jenny sat down at her desk and faced her computer. She grabbed her phone and dialed Lane’s number on the Particus. It began to ring but no one picked it up. Jenny wasn’t going to hang up and forget it. She was determined to talk to him even if it took months of this to get him to come see her. She logged on to the Particus and clicked on Lane’s computer. Lane didn’t answer the beeping that the computer was giving him that told him someone was trying to talk to him just like he was ignoring that phone ringing. She clicked up her aim and began to send message after to message to Lane. Inside her head Jenny thought and thought, finally coming up with few good incantations she could use to get Lane’s attention. She grinned widely to herself. It was surprising how evil she could be.

    It was a wonder that Jenny could keep track of what she was doing. It wasn’t that Jenny had to do this but chose to. No she could pull together some earthly ingredients and pull him to her but her figured this would be more fun. She also knew Lane well enough to know that this would get on his nerves pretty damn quick.

    After half an hour of the torture that Jenny and Evie were doing to Lane. He got wise and closed off his aim, shut down his computer and unplugged his phone. But Evie continued with her telepathic connection and Jenny began to use her nature powers.

    First Jenny mumbled the incantation for the flowers that showed up on Lane. Then she brought in a frost hoping to freeze Lane. With both, she had no luck. Then she remembered something that she had once told Peter about Lane. “The only way to get Lane to do what you want is to light a fire under his butt.” Well if that was only way to get him down here then she would burn Lane till he was burnt crispy if she had to.

    After five minutes of the flame, Lane finally got so angry with Jenny that he teleported to her office.

    “ALRIGHT! WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT?!” Lane shouted still a little frosty, still covered in flowers and still on fire.

    “It’s about damn time Carmen!” Jenny shouted back. Over the past hour Jenny’s hatred had grown but now the love was leaking out. Without the hate backing her up, she would be worthless. Without the hate, she didn’t know if she could do what she had originally planned to do.

    “I’m here so why don’t just say what you want to?” Lane demanded strongly. “But maybe you could do me a favor and get this God damn stuff the hell off of me!” He shouted directly into her face.

    Jenny looked at Lane and, the part of her heart that cared for him, swooned. His voice had a strong affect on her but his looks with the voice made her heartache. He wore all black except for his jeans. His shirt had white writing on it and his black reflective sunglasses covered his eyes. He had a scowl upon his lips and he stood with his arms firmly across his chest. His shirt and pants we burnt in a few places from Jenny’s powers.

    Jenny turned away as she waved her hands and the flowers, frost, and burns disappeared from Lane’s scrawny body. His clothes, with a snap of Jenny’s fingers, returned back to the way they had been before she had attacked him with the flames. sHisHIHiHiHiJenny was losing her determination and she knew it. She could feel it along with the small string that held her heart together in one piece as it slowly began to break.

    “Spit it out or I’m leaving!” Lane demanded again.

    Jenny turned to face him once more. “What is wrong with you, Lane? Why are you acting like this?”

    “Nothing’s wrong with me, like I’ve told you so many god damn times before. I like the way I’m acting.” His grin was evil. Jenny had never seen him smile like that before. “Is that it?” He asked impatiently.

    “No! How can you like who you’ve become? How can you kick out one of your best friends? And how in the whole god damn world can you just up and forget me after all the hard work you did to make me and my squad become allies with you and the other revolutionists? Not to mention all those times you risked your life to save me? After everything we’ve been through?” Jenny asked trying to keep her voice normal but it slowly became shaky. All the hate that had just flowed throughout her body now sat pumping through one half of her heart. Her love and caring had slipped out and was now controlling her and her actions.

    “I do like who I’ve become because I’m more controlling and powerful. Matt and I were never good friends. He was always in my way. And as for you and your squad, well, we never really needed your help. In fact I think we would have been better off if we had never become allies. That way the Endalls wouldn’t be trying to kill me and they would have already seceded in killing you!” Lane said grinning more. Jenny’s heart began to tear again and she felt faint.

    “Fine! If this is the way it has to be then leave! Just leave, Lane!” Jenny said as the tears began to slide down her cheeks.

    “Gladly!” Lane shouted at her and disappeared. Jenny rushed from her office into her room. Evie was gone and Jenny guessed that she had teleported away. Jenny fell down next to her laptop and quickly before she fainted, typed twenty-two lines that became a poem. Just as she dated it the last strand between the two sides of her heart broke and she fainted, falling to the floor beside her vanity in a heap.

    As Jenny lay there on the floor, a solar eclipse began and a black cloud of what looked like smoke began to billow out of her slightly opened mouth and form a figure’s outline next to her. People around the world watched as the moon covered the sun. The scientists were all confused and wondering. A solar eclipse wasn’t supposed to happen for years.

    Meanwhile the black cloud next to Jenny grew and grew. Finally it was no longer a cloud but a body. The body’s eyes remained closed until the last of the black smoke had left Jenny’s body. The last thing to leave Jenny’s unconscious body was her powers that could be used for darkness and death and these brought the figure to life. The figure’s eyes opened as the last of the smoke left Jenny’s body.

    The figure stood next to Jenny and looked around. She grinned and threw her head back with a laugh. The figure wore a black cape pulled up over her hair. She lifted the hood from her head to reveal brownish-red hair just like Jenny’s. Her face was exactly like Jenny’s except the figure wore no glasses, bright red lipstick and was paler then the real Jenny. As you continued to look at the figure you found that she wore black nail polish upon her long fingernails, along with a black widow spider ring on her right ring finger. Under her cape she adorned a black dress with three-quarter length sleeve with lace at the end of the sleeves. The dress went down to just above her knees were you could see a little bit of her fishnet stockings. She wore knee-high black boots that were old fashion design with the laces up all the way up the front. Her cape ended two inches from the floor just about the bottom of her feet if she had been standing flat-footed.

    She wasn’t Siren. Anyone who looked at her could tell that much but she did look a lot like Jenny. It wasn’t Jenny because the real Jenny lay next to her on the floor unconscious. The figure must have been a part of Jenny.

    The figure looked around the room and noticed a flower sitting on one of Jenny’s dressers. She a lifted her painted finger and pointed at the single rose that Jenny had been keeping alive since Lane had brought it to her. One second later and the rose was dead. The woman in black took a deep breath as she smiled.

    “Ah. It feels so good to bring death to the world!” she said and then let out a witch like cackle. “And now to join my rightful group and seek revenge on those who have made me hate them. First on my list, Lane Carmen, who truly deserves everything he will soon receive.” And the dark woman grinned from ear to ear. “For Death is ready to seek her revenge!”

    And that is when the woman named Death lifted her hood and replaced it on her head. She spun around and took one last look at Jenny and disappeared is a cloud of black smoke.

    The words “Revenge shall be as sweet as honey” rang through Jenny’s room as the eclipse ended and Jenny began to stir. As Jenny sat up, she put her hand on her heart. For some reason she didn’t feel the pain anymore. Neither did she the hate that had been there. But instead of the pain and hate, she felt as if something was missing inside of her. She didn’t know what it was but she felt a little emptier inside then she had before. Like a big part of her was missing and yet she still loved. In fact she seemed to love more now then she had in her past. She felt as if all she could do was love.

Written on November 10, 2002
Edited December 21, 2002
For Lane who will someday get his “Kiss of Death”

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