whoa, just had a surreal experience with the capslock key. yes, this is me once more, returning to the blog i deserted several months ago. i'm doing this because i have a chapter of locke to finish, which i'm stubbornly and very skillfully procrastinating. it took me an extra hour to do laundry this morning because my stupid towel wouldn't dry. it STILL isn't dry. i'm going to get out of my shower tonight and dry off with damp towel. that's the kind of weekend it's been.
let's see, major highlights. i'm in drew university in new jersey, i'm taking political ideologies, statistics, zen and the art of critical thinking (a mandatory freshman seminar course) and intermediate russian, along with a russian conversation class. i'm currently trying to apply for an internship with the secret service. in all honesty that isn't a likely possibility, with all my strange overseas experience that makes me suspect as a spy. sigh, right?
sounds tend to blend together in a dorm. right now, tasha has french music on, and 'i will survive' is being blasted from some near vicinity. i have no idea why i started writing about this.
it's been a month of upheavals and changes, and some severely messed up shit. i was watching an ER episode last night, and the topic of the episode has renewed an old nightmare...suffice to say, i haven't slept at all, and i'm still pretty low in the sick department. i still can't believe how powerful past experiences can sometimes be. some fears are difficult to put to sleep, i suppose.
after these past few weeks, i definitely think it's time for me to step back and figure out what the hell's been happening. it's a given that i'm always stressed about school and such, but these other things are pissing me off. life gets far too complicated.
right now i'm feeling pretty unimportant.