{04.23.01} "An Attempt to Tip the Scales"~ I sure don't have the time lately to update this page. Saurday night I went to see a show. This is who played: Go Fast, Porch Ghouls, and Syrup. I could've done without Go Fast. But, the Porch Ghouls and Syrup were very cool. Normally, I would write off a band like Syrup to cock rock, but their sparkly cowboy hats and rocknroll dance moves are convincing. And while I was at this venue, I was contemplating a few things. Among them, does anyone else wonder about people who write on bathroom walls? Most of the people tend to scribe their messages in big, thick marker pen. Do people carry around markers just for that purpose? Hm, I think I'll go see a show and write a stupid message on the wall, better pack my marker pen.
{04.16.01} "I Don't Wanna Grow Up"~ I found out this morning that Joey Ramone passed away this weekend. It was on the local morning news. So sad. Ramones aren't supposed to die; especially not JOEY. I always had this weird fascination with Joey. When I saw a Ramones video, or watched Rock N Roll high School, I coudn't keep my eyes off of him. I don't know. What else has been happening lately? Hmmm...Classes are almost over at school, and all I can do is give a big, huge sigh of relief. I don't even know if I want to be an English major anymore. I don't know what I want to do at all. You don't have to go to school to be a poet for chrissakes! What else...? I had a nice visit home over Easter. Got some sleep and rest and a little calm piece of mind. And lots of food. The weather is so cool right now- not hot, not cold, but superbreezy spring nights and sunny warm days. What have I come to, talking about the weather? It must be time for bed. Yep, gooooooodnite....
{04.01.01} "Get Outta That Spaceship and Fight Like a Man"~The past week was completely amazing. My best friend Melissa spent her Spring Break here and we had the best times. We had an interesting experience at a Bright Eyes show. I met Conor!!!eeeeeee! Besides that, we went to my favorite dive, the Hi-Tone and heard some good records. We also hung out with some of my friends and they dug Melissa, which who couldn't?! What else....oh, we saw a local band called Lucero, and a band on Touch&Go, The New Year. Then on her last nite here, we went to a little hole-in-the wall place and saw some crazy Japanese rock band. Then we hung out with some friends and went to bed when the birds started singing. It was such a good week and I can't wait until she moves here. What a beautiful girl. Well, as this new week starts over, I have to put my nose to the grindstone at school, so a-studying I will go!!!
{03.12.01} "Nobody's Fault But My Own"~Things sure are funny sometimes the way that they work out. You see people you haven't seen in so long and you just have to wonder whether they are back in your life or what. And also, my daddy was so sick and things were on the edge for awhile but it seems as if the sun is peeking through. Speaking of the sun and they way it feels, it was a beautiful day today and I had to spend the entirity of it at work. Indoors. I have all these swarming feelings and I don't know what to say. I can't wait until March 25th.
{02.14.01} "From Black to Blue"~I have nothing to say. I can't keep up with things. I am so busy these days. I apologize.
[01.28.01] "A Forest"~The saddest thing about being lonely is the fact that you know no one in the whole world is thinking about you right at that moment.
[01.24.01] "To Make You Feel My Love"~Has anybody ever REALLY worried about someone before? I mean REALLY-don't-know-if-they're-dead-or alive-or-if-they-just-don't-like-me-anymore worried? How do you deal with it? Let me be a little more cryptic. {it's not too late}
[01.22.01] "Hazey Jane I"~The days are cold and busy, and the nights are long and even colder. But, things go well and they go bad, and you learn to take them one by one and deal with it. You don't have to smile or frown. You don't have to get up every morning (or afternoon) and make wonderful things happen, but you should try. School has started and I'm wishing there was less of it already. I've been to several good live shows recently. They've included an acoustic set by Cory Branan and a wonderful night of Low at the Hi-Tone. And last nite I saw the C.C. Riders at the Map Room. Oh, and last week I saw a sweaty, rowdy rocknroll show by the Sub-Teens, which included several incredible numbers. Ah, local music. I miss my friends in Murfreesboro, most notably Melissa, but also Chris and Nick and others. I only have one or two here that I can hold onto. What I'd give to be able to go dancing at Faces on Thursday, or to sing along to "Eau d'Bedroom Dancing" with somebody who knows the words also. Yet, to dip back into to my little philosophical spill from before, time passes and things change. Life sucks sometimes and sometimes it truly rocks. I'm not the first one who said it, and I won't be the last.
[01.07.01]"Mixed Business"~THis is my first entry of the new year. I guess I should write something special to mark the occasion, but I don't feel up to it. I know I haven't exactly been keeping my thoughts up to date, but I haven't really been on the computer a whole lot. It seems like lately if I'm not working, then I just want to sleep or relax. School will be starting back again soon, and I can only hope that this semester will go better than the last. At that time, alot of my "free time" will be forsaken and I will grow increaingly grumpy and tired. Ah, well, the pessimist, with so much to look forward to in the future. On this particular Saturday night, I have just spent some time with myself. I read some of a wonderful comic, Optic Nerve, that a friend at work lent me. Earlier, I was all dressed up with no place to go. I didn't feel like putting on the social face, and I am low on funds anyway. It's not so bad to spend a Saturday nite alone. What differentiates Saturday as special as opposed to any other day anyway? I feel that I am just rambling on a bunch of bullshit and that I should be writing something meaningful. Not much here. Oka, then, here's my stab: I wish that the West Coast would send a smile back to me. Decipher that.
[12.28.00]"Setting the Woods on Fire"~Well, now that the big, commercialized holiday to end all holidays is over I feel a big sense of relief. That is until the Christmas bills come in. I did have a nice time with my family for the few moments I got to spend with them; I got a good feeling that things are going to be okay, ya know? And the end of the year is upon us once again, so in memorium, I will be posting my LIST 2000: a synopsis here soon...
[12.23.00]"If You Were Born Today"~Here it is, almost Christmas day, and I feel like the Grinch stole it from me.It just doesn't seem right to not be at "home" during the holidays.I'm used to being around my family at this time of year, and until I get to go home tomorrow I won't be in the spirit at all.Perhaps my title for the night should've been "Blue Christmas" (I'm listening to LOW's version right now).I can't believe that this year is almost over, and I know everyone says that, but so much has happened and it's all gone by so quickly.Anyway, I got my grades for the semester, and they were hovering around mediocre.I made the first 'D' of my life this time.I'm not worried over it, though, for this semester was a trying one, and grades are merely a numerical label that institutions put on your attempts.Well, that's all I've got for right now; I must go wash the color from my hair before it starts o fall out!Happy Holidays to everyone!
[12.18.00]"Southern Girls"~Yes, I know that I've really been slacking this month on updating this sorry little page.But, two certain little kitties have chewed their way through two computer mice cords, and I've been super-busy with work and final exams.School is finally over for the semester {yea!} and I don't even wanna see my grades.What else has gone on?HMM, I went to a couple of great rocknroll shows- I saw the Grifters play at a X-mas party, and the other night I saw Liberty Leg and the American Deathray(!) play.Tonite I was off work(!) and so I decided to relax for once.I really wanted to do something, but I couldn't reach certain people, so I chilled out alone.I listened to a used Royal Trux 2 cd set I bought today.While doing that I painted with some cheap little watercolors while my kitties watched me and tried to catch the moving paintbrush.I haven't sat down and painted in a really long time; it was liberating and relaxing.By no means am I a painter, but it's fun to do little kiddie looking stuff and look at it afterwards.I made three called "Girl," "Ladybug," and "Faces."I was thinking of maybe giving one to my friend Melissa.She'd appreciate the absurdity of it.
[12.07.00]"You Made me Forget my Dreams"~Let's all sing a song now..."School's almost over, yeah, school's almost over!" Okay, enough of that, lemme get down to business. I am really beginning to appreciate honesty more and more these days. And value it. Sometimes I feel so naive because I find out how people truly are way too late. Maybe I see them as I want to instead of how they are. Well, that's changing, as I have learned that alot of people have a real problem being themselves. There are people who can be open and honest to me, and those are the ones who are gonna stick around with me. I cannot take another soul telling me what they think I want to hear. You know what I want to hear? The damn truth, straight up. That's it and how hard can that be? So maybe being honest and opening up puts you at risk, but screw it and just be. I think it was Kurt Vonnegut who said "Do something everyday that scares you." I dare more people to make their daily adventure a jump into honesty.
