I Am Not Afraid
10.11.00~~"Something Vague"~I don't know what to say tonite. I'm so out of it today. When I talked to my girl Melissa on ICQ tonite, I had no idea that her day had sucked. The only way I knew was because I read her entry for the night. I just wanted to say it's sweater weather, baby, cheer up! Think about all those natural lite nights and "eau d'bedroom dancing." Besides that, I have decided that no one could ever love me and the more I give, the more I realize that I should just get a whole bunch of cats. I should really just be one of those people who is totally apathetic and goes around on automatic pilot. But, woe is me, I am too introspective and romantic and burdened by feelings. Too much of an artist, a creative thinker, a bundle of emotions. I just need someone to tell me that it's okay to ignore a good thing and pretending that you don't see sparks in the air is alright, too. My electric blanket is calling my name...nite. 10.6-7.00.~~"Riding Out on a Peace Train"~Well, I must say, I am so glad I don't have a life because otherwise if I would've gone out tonite, I would've missed two new Powerpuff Girl episodes. They made me laugh, smile, and forget it was Friday nite with nothing to do! But, I did help out promoting Coming Out Day a little bit tonite, so I guess I was semi-productive. I got to talk with my sister/best friend in the world tonite for awhile on msn messenger and that was very cool. She is the most beautiful thing in the world. Her happiness is always in jeopardy and I loathe that. She is my lucky star. I wish her loads and loads of tranquil dreams, good cure songs, and especially nice customers. "Your love, it takes me high..."*10.06.00~~"Slacker"~Tonite I'm spending time on my stupid, meager little ICQ page which has been neglected for a long time. So there.*10.04.00~~"Fever & Mirrors"~Okay, I apologize for the hiatus. I have no idea what happened, but this page screwed up somehow. And I've been so very sick for the past week I haven't even sat at the computer. For about seven days straight now, I've had fever and I've been completely out of the box. Still am, as a matter of fact. I'm so behind in school, but I'm trying not to get stressed out cos that'll only make me more sick. What else has been going on? Oh, I missed Modest Mouse the other night, which completely ruined my whole life. But, hey, I had a temp of 100, so I think I made a wise decision. I was looking forward to that show for 2 months. And I missed a job interview on Thursday. I suck. That's all for tonite; I feel the fever rising...~~
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