6-24 1:45 am

to you

from me

subject attn: future love of my life

To whom it may concern:

I thought it seemed fit that I write you a letter to introduce myself, seeing as how we are destined to be together. I feel this is valuable information about me for you to know.

I collect records. I'm small and jumpy and I love the smell of cherries. I love going to shows and I can go for hours, literally, without speaking to anyone. My favorite color is blue and I would die to meet Kathleen Hanna. I would prefer holding hands to intense PDA and my favorite movie is The Breakfast Club. Sometimes I Have the tendency to act like things are o.k. even if they aren't, to avoid ultimate confrontation and/or stress, among other things. My favorite subject in school is English and I am a real no-drama kind of girl when it comes to relationships. I love sentence fragments, making lists, and vintage dresses. My favorite ice cream is chocolate, I love curly hair, and I own 3 pairs of wingtips. (2 black and 1 red.) I make an attempt at playing guitar and have dreams of starting an all girl activist band, please don't make fun of me for it. My favorite cartoon is Pepper Ann and I am very sensitive about my body. The way to my heart is through a Yeah Yeah Yeah’s song. I will love you more than your last girlfriend did.

Sometimes I get in weird moods, but all you have to do is kiss me and I will most likely perk up. I am deathly afraid of elevators. Don’t take it personally if I don’t talk a lot sometimes, honestly I am probably thinking about more things than you can imagine. I tend to start projects and never finish them, sorry. I will try not to let myself get too confused by you, but I have to let you know it will be hard. I hate frosting, and the word eggs. I am a terrible over-analyzer. I speak French, but pas tres bien. I wear glasses and yes, they are real. I like some emo music but not too much so don’t worry. I hate long hair (on myself) but I love shoes, especially Chuck Taylors. (I have 9 pairs. Please don’t make fun of me.) The first thing I notice on members of the opposite sex is eyes, and then lips and teeth. I really like tall boys; I hope you are at least somewhat tall. I can correctly use a semi-colon. My talk is generally bigger than my walk. I like to freakout dance but don’t do it very much because a) I am self-conscious and b) I am a bad dancer. I work best under pressure. I plan on living in France for at least one year sometime after high school. My guilty pleasures include The White Stripes, notebooks, and cheese-its. I also really like chocolate milk and daisies. I like to be creative. I’m all for DIY. I don’t mind people staring at me or making a scene. I hate what money does to most people. I’m madly in love with my car.

I will be famous someday. I get jealous very easily, but I’m not too hard to calm down. When I get excited about something, there’s no stopping me. I like babies and plan on having some someday. I hate change. I love cuddling. I used to love blue eyes, but now I’m kind of thinking I like brown ones better. I’m really good at putting up fronts and tuning people out when I don’t care about what they have to say. I like MacDonalds, you can even take me there on a date sometime and I won’t mind. I will constantly try to buy you stuff. I really like boys who smell good. When I cry, please just hold me, and when you cry, I’ll hold you back. I’m not a very good cook, so I hope you like macaroni and cheese and toast. I can handle toast. I love orange flavored anything. My favorite candies are Whoppers and gummy worms. If I ever make you mad, please just let me know right away, don’t hold it in and hope it will go away, because I have found from past experiences that it won’t. I will play with your hair. A lot. I secretly like it a lot when you kiss my neck. Or nibble on my ear. whoa. I really like to be surprised. Don’t bother spending a lot of money on me, because I’m really not into material things. Buy my birthday presents at the dollar store please. I really like taking pictures, but somehow they always turn out blurry. The best concert I’ve gone to so far was Le Tigre, and then possibly the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, or Sonic Youth. I love to read. I spend too much money on clothes. I used to be painfully shy. I’m getting better though.

I love hand-written love notes. I secretly wish I had an English accent. My favorite books are Star Girl, Invisible Monsters, The Perks of Being A Wallflower, The Catcher In The Rye, 1984, and Girl. I also love the French movie Amelie; I really wish things happened to me the way they happen to her. I always seem to fall in love with the wrong person. I don’t have too many friends, and I like it that way. I hope you will love me the way that I am, please don’t try to change me too much. You can tell me you love me if you want, I don’t need constant reassurance but it is always nice to hear. I will miss you when you are gone. I like to color but I can’t draw to save my life. I’m a huge procrastinator. I collect zines. I have about 100 diaries. I love holding hands, almost as much as cuddling. Whenever you leave me, I will wait for you to come back. I don’t like to wear matching socks. I will love everything about you, including your faults, and I hope that you will love mine too. I love glasses, but only real ones. Pretend ones kind of make me mad. I dream about fairy tale romances. When I was little, I wore racing shorts and loved Care Bears. I have a tendency to avoid things. I get confused easily. I love freckles but I don’t really like red hair. I also hate lies. I like Dashboard Confessional, it’s just one of those things. I’m not demanding and I don’t ask for too much but when I know what I want I will tell you. I blush really easily. I will never stop loving you, whether or not that is a good thing is for you to decide.

I hope you will never stop loving me.

we will be so happy together...