My life

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	Never Mind The Broken Wing Talking..breathing.. I live..yet I've truly died Drinking dharma's mana Rejuvenates my spirit a small flame of courage a small deed done..yet well done another thinks of me fondly My spirit glows again I'm gaining rebirth amidst death..I saw white light Friendship When the world is nothing but a dark inertia ...friendly stars is the only beautiful thing to see ...it is small..but it is pretty. That little kindness over there. ..that little smile over here. ..an ear of listening over yonder. ..and a voice of wisdom like the north star. ..the brightest of all star. ..guiding you on your journey in life. [November,27][2004] signature: Mei L. Solitude, simplicity. This fleeting moment.. Life is full of passing phases. We see the wake of the day and the arrival of the night.... everyday We play out different roles and wear different mask and when we are away from the stages where life sets us and the drama ends. what's left ..memmories to look back to what treasures to keep...lessons what matters most in the end...kindness and peace Life's melody has always been the same as before. Nothing new. When something good happens...it is a happy tune When something bad happens...it is a sad tune. Some people sees it as a passing phase. So they never really becomes too sad or happy and carried away by their emotions. They understand...just another repeated tunes and melodies of life in a diffeent form. What tune are you listening to right now my friend? Is it the melody of impermanence and change? A new beginning? An end? the coming of togetherness? separation? Desire Dispassion Positive emotions Negative emotions restless thoughts still thoughts Feelings no feelings What tune are you listening now in this quiet moment of reflection? [April,8][2004] signature: Mei L. Praying for the wrong thing "Very often the reason we're uncomfortable is because we've not been praying for the right thing, and on some deep level we know it. We pray to meet our soul mate, instead of praying for the grace to become the woman our soul mate would be attracted to; we pray for worldly success when what we really long for is a sense of authentic accomplishment; we pray for more money, when what we need is a change in our relationship to money. We pray for a certain outcome in any given situation, when what we should be praying for is peace of mind, no matter which outcome occurs." --BY Sarah Ban Breathnach, in Simple Abundance (note...2004,November 18..I didn't know untill now that I'm actually reading Sarah Ban Breathnach's second book called Romanzing the Ordinary...what an amazing woman...and what a coincidence...I wasn't even aware of her name that is already in my homepage...) (Mei L.) Lover's touch Only you can touch and make me feel this way. Why? Because everything becomes meaningful and precious with you. Only you can stir the flames in my heart and unlock the passion asleep deep in my soul Only you can make me blind and steal away my heart Forever [Sept][2004] signature: Mei L. Afterthoughts: It isn't true..that only one person can make us blind. I had fallen in love with another after the relationship ends...and each time...a new beginning...I had loved with the same passion as I did in the past. Perhaps...we were all waiting to fall in love...and we were the one who decide whether we want to fall madly in love or not. It is a choice. Once you made a choice to fall in love and commit to this...it is hard to turn back...because...you wanted this madness..this blind passion...this feeling of nostalgia makes you feel you have a lover..makes you feel..you found him or her. [Nov 22][2004] signature: Mei L. Solitude, simplicity. This fleeting moment.. All passions and desires extinguished. Lighthearted my heart gentle my speech carefree my actions Letting go of all petty cares of this world Cool I am. [April,15][9:39 pm] signature: Mei L. Sorrows Grief...it is endless. The many rebirths...and more to be expected in the future. [April,12][1:24am] signature: Mei L. Short sighted The passionate love and games between men and women..so short-sighted a love compared to compassion. Personal grudge towards one person ...a short sighted emotion compared to loving kindness and wisdom The pleasure found in glory of fame and wealth...so short-sighted compared to the inner bliss found in the morning calm, listening to the chirping of birds outside the window, the sound of wind chimes The daily activities...the ambition....so short sighted compared to the vast open field of spirituality [March 27,03][1:25pm] signature: Mei L. So empty I feel so empty. Songs so enchanting...I used to enjoy Listening now...I feel so empty I don't know my direction in life Nothing seems fine Is it just for movies? That perfect picture everyday Will I make it to the end... Nothing push me anymore I'm only spending my days... Just going with the flow Don't feel like putting out any effort again Feeling it won't last It's strange how you can let go of everything with just one liberating thought Light hearted troubled not by anything suddenly joy springs forth out of nowhere why? When you sit quietly..joy will alight in you? How strange this world How strange life is How strange....living Changing emotions Changing..... signature: Mei L. Death It's just so crazy clinging to everything that changes... Beauty - old age, bones Love - hate, enstranged,pain I will perish. You too. So much effort put out...to maintain peace, security, love, friendship....and to loose everything on that one day....an appointment with death. signature: Sakura AFTER THOUGHTS: You found my mental dumpsite full of littering...also...perhaps you have discovered some memmories I've treasured...and still do.