Alex had just made it through the bedroom door when Kevin caught him, snaking an arm out around his waist and pulling him back against him. Alex shuddered when he felt Kevin's already forming erection against his ass. He struggled in his arms, partly trying to get away, partly trying to get Kevin even harder.

The former didn't work, Kevin just tightened his arm around him even more, but the latter worked perfectly. He could feel Kevin hard and straining against him and it made him harder than hell. Before he knew what was happening, Kevin had turned him around and released him long enough to back him against the wall before pressing himself into him.

Kevin stared into Alex's eyes for a second, noting the naked hunger shining in them. He brought his mouth down to Alex's and kissed him hard and fast. When he ground his hips into him, Alex opened his mouth on a moan and Kevin took advantage, thrusting his tongue inside, seeking Alex's out.

As they kissed violently, passionately, Kevin's hands snaked into Alex's hair and grabbed a hold as Alex's hands reached out and gripped Kevin's ass, pulling him against him even more tightly. Alex's brain was swimming with sensations, his body vibrating with them. He wasn't even sure why he'd run from him in the first place…maybe subconsciously it had been to get to this side of Kevin though. Hell he'd run all the time if it brought out hot, horny, out of control Kevin this way. He was close to cumming in his jeans already and Kevin hadn't even touched him yet…well, besides the forceful thrusts he was doing against him.

Just when Alex thought he might pass out from lack of oxygen, Kevin pulled his mouth away from his and started sucking and then biting at Alex's neck. Alex went nuts, moaning and panting Kevin's name over and over, unable to form any other word. His skin felt like it was on fire and his dick sure as hell was. He needed Kevin inside him…now.

"Kev…oh fuck…please…" Alex managed to pant out.

Kevin's brain was nearly as muttled with desire as Alex's was so all he did was growl low in his throat as he pulled back to rip off his clothes, watching with heat in his eyes as Alex did the same. When they were both naked, he stepped forward again, pressing Alex into the wall, groaning as he rubbed their erections against each other. Heat waves washed over him and he wanted to be inside him right then.

Alex moaned as Kevin's mouth once again covered his, possessing it. He wrapped his arms around Kevin's neck and pulled him closer still, wishing there was a way to physically become one person with him. When Kevin's hands slid down his chest, pinching his nipples hard, Alex shuddered and thrust into him.

Kevin's hands slid lower still, reaching around behind Alex and grabbing his ass in both hands, swiftly pulling him up and off his feet. Alex wasted no time wrapping his legs around Kevin's waist and grinding down against Kevin's erection as he tightened his hold around his shoulders.

Kevin positioned himself at Alex's entrance, but before he could thrust, a thought popped into his head, past the muttled haze of need. "Fuck, Alex…need lube…"

Alex groaned. He needed him in him and he didn't want to wait another second. "Screw the lube…Kev, just fuck me…please…"

Heat washed over Kevin's body and even more blood shot to his already hard cock, making him harder. He hoped the precum leaking out of the tip would be enough, because he couldn't wait anymore either. Sucking in a deep breath, he stared into Alex's eyes and he thrust up into him.

At the same time that Kevin thrust up into him, Alex lowered himself onto him, squeezing Kevin's broad shoulders tightly as searing pain and liquid pleasure shot through him at the same time. He closed his eyes and bit his lip, trying not to scream from one or both of the sensations.

For a minute, neither of them moved a muscle as Alex's body stretched to accommodate the intrusion. Tears formed at the corners of his eyes. Kevin reached up a hand and wiped them away.

"Shit, baby, I'm sorry…I should have…I didn't want to hurt you…God…I just needed you so much…you feel so damn good…"

Alex let out a breath he'd been holding as the white hot pain started to subside a little. He opened his eyes, trying to focus on what Kevin was mumbling to him. He picked up on some of it and leaned down to shut him up with a kiss.

He pulled back again and looked down into Kevin's face as he squeezed his ass muscles around his cock. "Fuck me, Kevin. Shut the fuck up and just fuck me."

Kevin growled, digging his fingers into the soft flesh of Alex's ass as he rotated his hips slightly, pulling partway out, then thrusting forward, slamming back into him.

Alex pushed his head and upper back against the wall as he arched his lower back away from it to give Kevin a better angle as he continued to thrust in and out of his ass, hitting his prostate every time. His ass still hurt, but with every thrust, every graze against his prostate, the pleasure was overriding the pain more and more. He was beyond speech, beyond thought, caught in a world of pleasure and need, fighting between wishing it would never end and needing it to because his cock was so hard trapped between his and Kevin's stomachs it felt like it was going to explode.

Kevin was having much the same problem. He wanted this to last forever. He loved being inside Alex, watching his facial expressions as he fucked him, loved how connected he felt to him when they were like this, but he was so close to the edge he was about to fall over and he wanted that too, knowing how good it would feel.

"Oh…fuck…Kev…so damn close…I need…" He couldn't even finish between pants and moans. He wanted it deeper, harder, faster, but he couldn't form the words to say it. He didn't need to though. As if Kevin sensed what he needed, he pressed him further into the wall, holding him under his ass and rotating his hips faster and harder, somehow managing to thrust deeper inside Alex.

Alex cried out as he hit his prostate over and over. He felt Kevin's lips against his neck and more heat shot through his body. He felt as if he was radiating heat from his sweat-slickened skin and then Kevin licked his way across his collar bone, out towards his shoulder and bit down hard.

Alex screamed and without either of them touching his dick, he came all over both their stomachs.

Kevin felt his hot cum hit his bare, sweaty skin and his ass spasm around his cock and that set off his own orgasm as he squeezed his eyes shut and thrust one last time, cumming deep inside him. His teeth sank deeper into Alex's shoulder as he tried not to scream out his name, nearly deep enough to break the skin and he felt Alex's whole body spasm against him.

Alex felt Kevin's teeth sink deeper and to his utter shock, that combined with one last thrust by Kevin that hit his prostate made Alex cum again. His eyes shot wide open at the same time that Kevin pulled his mouth away and they stared at each other as Alex cried out with the power of his second climax.

Nick glanced behind him as he ran back up the hall. Howie was still chasing him. He couldn't believe it. What was more he couldn't believe he was actually scared of him. The look in Howie's eyes said he meant business. Nick really felt bad about the gum thing, but this was ridiculous.

Seeing his door up ahead, he raced inside, trying to close it behind him, but Howie got there first and pushed his way in. Nick started backing up as Howie stalked him across the room.

"D, man, come on. I didn't do it on purpose. Honest. I'm so, so sorry. I really am. If there was something I could do about it, I would."

Howie caught sight of something out of the corner of his eye and stopped advancing on Nick. "Well, maybe there is."

Nick looked at him in confusion. "What? Anything! Just tell me."

Instead of answering, Howie walked over to Nick's collection of video games laying in a pile on the floor of his ever messy room and knelt down beside them. "What's your favorite game?"

Nick still didn't know where this was going. What did Howie want to do? Play a game against him? That made no sense at all. "Um, that one." He answered, pointing to one near Howie's knee.

Howie picked it up and stood, flipping it over and examining it. "You're sure? This is your absolute favorite? There aren't any others you like better? Even a little bit?"

Nick shook his head. "Nope. That's my favorite. I got it in Japan when we were there on that hundred hour thing. Can't find it in the states anywhere."

A slow smile spread across Howie's lips. 'Even better,' he thought to himself.

Nick was getting nervous. The gleam in Howie's eyes was something he hadn't seen before. "Ho…Howie?"

"Yeah?" Howie said, looking up at Nick.

"Why did you want to know?"

Howie smiled sadistically. "Because, I just thought of the perfect way you can make it up to me."

"How?"

Howie held out the game and waited for Nick to take it before answering. "Break it."

"What?!?!?!?!" Nick screeched.

Howie's smile dropped off his face, his eyes glaring at Nick, deadly serious. "You heard me. Because of you I'm going to have to cut my hair and you know how much I hate it short, how much my appearance means to me. Not to mention that we have the VMA's in two days and I'm going to have to go to that with short hair that's probably going to be all fucked up. It's only fair that you loose something that means a lot to you too."

Nick swallowed hard. He couldn't believe Howie was taking this so bad. He wished to God he hadn't set that piece of gum on the pillow. He could kick himself over doing such a…a…blond thing. He swore then and there that he was never chewing another piece of gum in Howie's presence again.

"Howie, come on…" Nick started, but Howie interrupted him.

"Do it Nick. That is, if you really meant it when you said you wanted to make it up to me…" Howie let the sentence trail off as he stared Nick down.

"I meant it!"

"Good."

Nick sighed, looking down at his beloved game. He was so close to beating it too. It had taken him a while to figure it out because it was in another language, but after he had, he'd gotten attached to it quickly. It was one of the most challenging games he'd ever had. Most games he beat inside of a week or two, but not this one. This one he'd been working on for months now, ever since he got it figured out and only yesterday had he finally come close to beating it. He'd planned on attacking it that night again, after their show, with the hopes of beating it. It would have been his greatest victory yet.

Would have been. Key words. Now he'd have to wait a couple months until they went to Japan to finish up their tour before he would be able to get a hold of it again.

He opened the case, intent on pulling it out and doing as Howie asked. Just then, he heard a loud scream from the room next door that was unmistakably Alex.

Howie's eyes widened. "Is that…"

Nick looked up at him and nodded, game in hand but completely forgotten.

Howie saw the pained look in Nick's eyes and suddenly all the anger washed away. He watched as Nick set down the game and turned away, heading over to the window to stare outside.

"It shouldn't hurt this much. I should be over it. He's happy. I'm happy for him. I really am. I just…"

Howie walked up next to him and stood by his side staring out at the city below. "Need some time?" He finished for Nick.

Nick nodded. "Yeah, I guess so."

They heard Alex scream again and Nick stiffened. Howie turned to Nick and put his hand on his shoulder. "Why don't you trade rooms with me. I'm all the way across and down the hall. Far away from both their rooms. You don't need to stay here and hear that all night."

Nick looked down at Howie and before either of them knew it, he'd wrapped his arms around the shorter man and was squeezing tight. "Oh God, thank you. That would be so great."

Howie hugged him back. "No problem Nicky. Let's get our stuff moved around, ok?"

Nick pulled away and nodded. "Yeah, ok."

He started across the room to his bedroom to grab his clothes, but his eye caught the video game on his way and he stopped, picking it up.

Howie saw what he was going to do and just had to stop him. What had happened to his hair seemed so trivial now with what Nick was obviously going through. He felt like an ass for even asking him to destroy his favorite game. "Nicky, don't."

Nick stopped in the middle of pulling the CD out of the case and looked over at Howie questioningly. "What? I thought…"

Howie shook his head, interrupting him. "I was being a jerk. I can't believe I let my temper get the best of me like that. I'm sorry. I don't want you to destroy the game."

Nick paused and looked at Howie again, trying to remember the last time he'd seen him in short hair. "I really am sorry, D."

Howie smiled at him. He was still upset that he had to cut his hair, but hey. Maybe it would be ok. After all, it had been years since it had been short, maybe if he kept getting it straightened so it wouldn't be all curly, it'd be all right. "I know, I forgive you. Just...next time find a better place than my pillow for you're gum, ok?"

Nick's nodded and smiled in relief. "Definitely. You know, I'm like, just an hour or two away from beating that game I think."

Howie laughed as a gleam of excitement lit Nick's eyes as he thought about beating the game. He walked over to him and threw his arm around him. "Come on, Nicky, let's get our stuff moved around."

After his second orgasm subsided, Alex leaned his head back against the wall again, closing his eyes, his chest heaving with the force of what his body had just been through. His throat was raw and parched from all the panting, his ass, with Kevin still buried deep inside, was on fire from the unlubricated sex and the cool air of the room was hitting his sweaty skin, making him break out in goosebumps, not to mention the throbbing in his shoulder from how hard Kevin had bitten him. At that moment though, that very instant, he'd never felt better in his life.

Kevin watched Alex for a moment, then leaned his head forward, resting his forehead on the shoulder he'd just bitten, trying to catch his breath. He had no energy left. He wasn't even sure how he was still standing. By all rights he should be laying on the floor, completely boneless. Somehow he stayed on his feet though and continued to hold Alex and himself up.

After a minute, Alex swallowed, wincing at the raw pain it shot through his throat. "Holy fuck Kev…that was…that was un-fucking-believable."

Kevin chuckled at the wonder in his lover's voice, pulling his head back to look in his love-filled eyes. The second their eyes met, the laughter died in his throat and they stood there staring at each other, rocked by the force of what they'd just experienced. Neither of them had ever come close to anything like that with anyone else.

Slowly pulling out of him, both of them groaning at the loss, Kevin set Alex down on his feet and reached up, cupping the side of Alex's face in one hand. "I love you so much, Alex. God, I can't believe it took us this long to get here."

Alex reached up and covered Kevin's hand with his own, squeezing lightly. "I know Kev. I love you too. So much that sometimes it…"

Kevin searched his eyes, trying to figure out what he'd been about to say. "So much that what?"

Alex swallowed and in a quiet voice finished, "So much that sometimes it scares me."

Kevin watched as Alex's eye started to shine with moisture. "It scares me too. You've got this…hold on me. You've got my heart and soul, Alex. It's all yours. With a word or an action you could break me if you wanted. That scares the shit out of me."

Alex swallowed, reaching out and cupping Kevin's face in his hands, bringing his head forward until their forehead's touched. "I'll never break you Kevin. God, now that I have you, I want to keep you and do everything I can to make you as happy as you've made me. Don't you know that?"

Without another word, Kevin closed the last few inches separating their lips and kissed Alex long and deep. Alex opened to Kevin's kiss, their tongues mating and he wondered if Kevin knew he had the same kind of power over him, maybe more.

With a single word or action he could break him. If he ever said goodbye and walked out on him, Alex had no doubt it'd be the end of him. Kevin was his life, his love, what he'd been waiting and praying for for nine years and had never thought he had a chance of getting and now that he had him, he knew he couldn't live without him.

He wished he could be sure Kevin felt the same way. He said he did, but Alex just wasn't sure how much of that Kevin meant literally and how much of it was just figuratively speaking. He'd said he loved someone with all his heart and soul once before. He'd pledged his heart and his life to someone else in front of God and his friends and family. Alex remembered it well. It was etched forever in his head. Kevin's wedding day had been the worst day of Alex's life and he was scared shitless that someday Kevin would discover he didn't love him anymore the way he'd discovered he didn't love Kristin anymore.

Alex tightened his arms around Kevin, trying to push that thought out of his head. He didn't want to think about that, or even consider it…no matter how many times it popped in his head over the last few days. For now he had him and he intended to enjoy every moment he could with him…especially because he knew it could all end tomorrow.


Chapter Six
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