-The machine

The machine rolls on
dragging me with it
on it's journey of torture.

I want it to stop
but I do know
I have no means to make it.

So it drags me along
on it's journey of torture
and I suffer.

All the way.




 
-(untitled)

I'm not a toy, I'm not a puppet
I am not for you to play with.
I'm not your doll, I'm not your teddy
I am not something you can put away.

Not a plaything, not a game
If you want to play with me-

Prove yourself.




-Cut

One drop, two drops
crimson vitea starts to flow
three drops, four drops
body's lifeforce letting go.
A drop becomes a trickle
A trickle becomes a stream
and I watch it pour away.
A child becomes a man
A man becomes a corpse
And there is nothing left to say.



-The theatre of life

Step upon the well-lit stage
and feel the worlds eyes upon you.
Put on your mask and lie to them
and in the end they will applaud you.

Give them drama, give them a show
always make them feel secure
Keep them fooled and entertained
And do not ask what they endured.

The stage is a world within a world
A place for them to run and hide.
And you are their guide for limited time
So play your part with pride.

The show begins, come one, come all
And for a moment forget realities beckoning call.



-Wasted lives

Light brings life, or so they say
And darkness takes it all away.
With the last breath of air and beat of heart
Life ends and see your soul depart.
T'is wise, they say, to see death is the end
T'is a fool, they say, to see it as godsend.
But none can say, they have no clue
if in afterlife, there is penance due.
They resist all of their deep desires
until they rot or die in funeral pyres.
T'is a sin, I say, to live this way
There will always be another day.



-(untitled...this ones a joke really)
I stagger and stumble
towards my goal
My head spins and swirls
with every step
I feel weak and weary
Knowing it's near.

I see shiny white salvation
Gleaming cold before me
The floor is stone and solid
as I fall to my knees.

I bend my head
And all that pains me leaves me.

No more Vodka martini for me.



-The padded Cell

I sit and writhe, I babble and
                              Twitch
Come see what you have done to me 
                                  Bitch
I'm all strapped in, I cannot
                              Move
My sanity, they cannot
                       Prove
The many screaming voices, in my
                                head
I know that they all want you
                                             Dead.



-Accursed torment of love

Control of Body, heart and mind,
once found, but now was lost.
My thoughts not mine, I seem to find
yet another, take control.
Try to think, and try to judge
the reason, why this is
But my affection, does not budge
Remains same and swelling on.
I contemplate, I wish, I try
to forget, and leave it far behind
but pain remains, unaltered strong
and I sense, I will break down.
Why me, why now, I do not need
to feel, all this again
It seems, when love's accursed seed
tokes hold, it cannot be removed.

I would gladly suffer in many ways
if only this torture would be over.


-(untitled)
It's my curse to love, my curse to care
I sleep, and dream, the same nightmare
All that I give is simply unrequited
And I look around, always seeing souls united.
Was this ever meant for me, I think, and so I wonder
Whomever I thought to be the one, all feelings torn assunder.
Feelings of bliss, I never knew
Mere shadows of that which was true
I turn my head and close my eyes
and try to sever all my ties 
with this world, where every one has one
I have no place, I will be gone.


-(untitled)
Alone she stood, stone cold alone
she believed this in her mind.
A lonely castaway, no where to turn
not a soul to treat her kind.

With eyes tight shut, she looks around
she sees just what she wants.
Not listening, so she cannot hear
the world, and how it taunts.

With open eyes, she just might see
a friend who's standing near.
If she would listen, she would hear,
He truly holds her dear.

Look and listen, that is all
No one is ever truly alone.
Bring down the walls and free yourself
A true friend is etched in stone.


-Oubliëtte 

You touch me while you cannot reach
Tucked away inside myself
Wishing to be forgotten by the world
Without you I have no cares anymore.

You touch me while you cannot reach
And I feel tears runs down my face
While I thought they would never flow
I don’t want to be hurt anymore.

You touch me while you cannot reach
I need to be left alone
With my own thoughts and feelings
And I won’t suffer anymore.

You teach me while you cannot reach
The way you have always done
But I know that I have failed
I cannot help you anymore

You teach me while you cannot reach
You touch deeper than anyone.



-(Untitled)

Gently, you have closed the door
Calmly, I now stand outside. 
Feeling at peace, more than before
With peace of mind I wander on.

But when I pass you, I will hold still
Maybe peek through the window
For a glimpse of you, for I care still
But I won’t knock on the door.

I will be on my way, enjoying life
Walking the familiar road
Looking onward, without stryfe
And when I see you, I will smile

And I will ask you, how are you?
And we will depart as friends.


-Wake of destruction

Standing in the wasteland
I have created 
Burning footsteps mark my trail.
I look onto your image
Carved from glass
True to life, beautifully frail.

Anger grows in my soul
Hatred of myself
I have destroyed what I cherished.
Burning my mind and heart
Schorching rage within
All I touched then now has perished.

One powerful destructive blow
Shatters your visage
Shards tear at my flesh and draw my blood.
I gladly take this suffering
All is destroyed
And slowly sinks into the mud.

And now I am free.
Maybe time will heal my wounds.
As it has always done.


-Your torture

I am chained to a wall, with shackles of gold
And see your torture from the corner of my eye
Now I see it's as bad as all the tales I've told
I try to think of the easiest way to take your pain away.

I want you to know that I am here
I scream and hope you hear a whisper
So you know I wish to share your fear
I'd take all the lashings meant for you.

In my heart you hold a place few ever found
I'd give up all if it would make you smile
I merely wish I hadn't been bound
I would protect you, you've been hurt enough.

You can take me as a shield
call upon me when youneed comfort
scream at me if it makes you feel better

To me, at least, If I can look you in the eye
from time to time
You're worth it.


-Sorceress

All that look upon you
Are enthralled by a visage of beauty
Whenever your name is spoken
Even the bravest men tremble.

Each gesture of your hand 
Is a symbol of your power.
Each word spoken from your mouth
Weaves an enchantment of untold strength.

Know all the secrets of arcane lore
You keep dark demons as your pets.
The way of magic is your life
And so your life is eternal.

You are unique, you know no equal
I adore thee, sorceress.


-Vampiress

The dead of night, this is your home
Woe to those who walk the streets alone.
Your kiss brings satin death to man
You prey on blood, because you can.

Beyond death, beyond humanity
You live eternal without uncertainty
And your powers grow with passing ages
Your story was told by ancient sages.

Inhuman beauty, bestial cruelty
To none you need swear fealty.
Predator of man, creature of the night
Whomever meets you is in for a fright.

You have the gift of immortality
But are you dream, or are you reality?


-Broken warrior

Mourn my existence, my dwelling upon this earth
Shed a tear when you see my face.
I follow my path, sword at my side
I take on all that lies ahead.

Do not my eyes fortell my rage?
Is it madness, coiled inside my heart?
Not even I can say for certain
What good is my heart to another?

And I see your eyes stare upon me
Why do you care for this wandering soul?
None can pull mefrom the abyss
Cannot pull me from my road.

A day will come, when I am gone
When you find my broken sword
Bury it beside my broken spirit
And smile, yet mourn no more
But celebrate my ascendance

-Puzzlebox

All the pieces of my heart
are here for me assebled.
This one fragment, I keep apart
It is the part where I keep you.

Over and over this puzzle was broken
and each time I put it together again.
Dark desires, dreams and fears unspoken
I never really missed one piece.

With you I have made the puzzle complete
it would break forever, should you be lost.
Now it is finally solved, this amazing feat
You are what keeps me together.

You have the power to undo me
You have the power to make me worthless.
You have the power to keep me
You are the key to what I am.


-Stare

I feel the burn of many eyes
turn away, and leave me be!
What is it that you want from me
what is it that you think you see?

Do you really think I care
for you, or what you feel?
Only one soul owns my heart
it is not you, you have no deal

My love is for one, I know for sure
Only one girl do I dare call mine.
I need no other, do not need you
so keep your eyes away from mine.