Wednesday June 20, 2007 5:18 P.M.
Well things are going on that I can't quite speak about at the moment. Suffice it to say that we're doing all we can to get everything back on track and to get our family stable after the damage done from Hurricane Jamie. So much for a "trusted" friend and family member. We should have all known better. She hasn't had the last laugh though. Ye shall reap what ye sows. I trust God to deal with that mess and work it out in his own way. Happy Birthday Mom!!! I guess that's all that needs to be said for now. Mike and I have our own place. He has a great job and other than that things are pretty crummy right now. That will change and God will work it all out for the best. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Friday June 8, 2007 5:34 P.M.
Let's see..... I finally got a car its a 98 Bonneville. I quit Home Depot to spend time with the kids, Michael and I are getting our own place. I'm freaking fantastically happy. I spent today at Rock City with my mom, Justin, and my two boys Jonathan and Sean. We had a good time but LORD it was HOT! I got Mike a hat and Jonathan got some pretty rocks and some candy of course. We also had Dippin Dots which I haven't had since I left Florida. We're doing well and we're all happy. I love you all and Blessed Be~Naaughty
Thursday April 19, 2007 11:49 P.M.
Real Quick... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY GIRL!!! On to other things, I can finally afford to take me and Mike out... to a bar, a restaurant, OUT of the house. I can't do it. No transportation. It sucks majorly. The only way we could go is if someone took us and dropped us off like we were 14 or something. It just sucks. So anyhow, other than that I suppose life is good. It just continues moving along like always. I found my happiness. It lies in Sean, Jonathan, and Michael's eyes. It's the way when Sean cries he says "Momma" or that Jonathan tells me he loves me before he goes to sleep or the way Mike smiles at me. So much love in my life. I still enjoy my job, even when it aggravates me or I come home bone-tired. I enjoy my life, even when I'm frustrated with the things that are lacking such as personal TRANSPORTATION. Other than that things are pretty damn close to perfection. As always, blessed be~Naaughty
Friday April 13, 2007 11:34 A.M.
We're doing alright I suppose. I am working at Home Depot and I enjoy my job a lot. The people I work with are fantastic and the job is challenging to say the least. Like I said, I enjoy it. Dad and Mom came by on Easter and picked up Sean for a week. Wednesday night we did the fun "if we didn't have any kids" thing and went to a late movie of our choice. We saw the Reaping and it was good. Twisted at the end, but that was kind of the best part. I have everything I want and need for nothing. I'm doing really good right now. A little frustrated with Mike but he knows why and now I'll explain to you why I'm frustrated. I have to be to work the past couple days at 1:30 and don't get home until about 11 p.m. Mike is asleep when I leave for work and gets to bed about the time that I would normally be getting up. What am I complaining about? There's no one to watch the kids cause Mike and Jason stay up till ALL hours of the morning, like 5 or 6 a.m. Jamie doesn't get home until about 7 a.m. so the both of us are tired and when I get up I like to relax a bit before I get ready and then I have to leave. I'm not good with people who sleep all day. I used to bitch at Steve about that when he would be out partying all night and then want to stay in bed till late the next afternoon. If I'm up and the kids are up, everyone else should be up. At least that's my thought process. Maybe I am being a little crabby about it, but if Mike would have gone to bed at 6 this morning like he was going to till we started watching the movie I would have gotten to spend a grand total of 2 hours with him tonight. Instead we watched the movie and I got an extra 2 hours with him. Which is really great, but if he would have come to bed with me last night, we would have had 8 hours to spend with eachother. Whatever, I'll get over it like I always do. So that's what is up in my life at the moment. As always Blessed Be~Naaughty
Friday March 30, 2007 8:07 A.M.
I should be ecstatic today. Mike is finally filing for his divorce. I am hoping its just PMS but I've just been in the strangest mood lately. I mean, there's a lot going on outside of mine and Mike's relationship. My mom might have cancer (breast or cysts) and she has to go in for a Biopsy to check on her cysts and I am stuck here in Georgia stressing about it because there is no way I can get to her. I don't know how I'm going to make it through the next two weeks until I get a paycheck. I'm beyond broke and need cigs and Sean will need diapers and milk if not wipes within the next two weeks not to mention Easter falls during that time so I need to get Sean and JonJon and Junior something for Easter. On top of that there seems to be some strain between me and Mike. I think its just in my head and I'm just being paranoid or stupid but I feel it just the same. Not to mention last night I neglected Sean Mike and JonJon because I crashed right after dinner and couldn't wake up. I was only going to lay back down until Mike brought Sean in the room but it seems that I just crashed when he left and he couldn't get me up. I feel really shitty about that and don't blame Mike for being a little upset with me over it. He should be. He worked for 12 hours yesterday on that job. I worked, but his is more difficult than mine and I neglected every one of my responsibilities last night. Horrible mother and girlfriend trophy goes to... me. I don't know if I can make it up to any of them. I'm pretty sure there isn't a way for me to make it up to Michael. I'll have to try and think of something. I work for Home Depot now as a Head Cashier. The money's right and so are the hours. Next step is to get a car. I suppose that's all for now and I will leave a message here when things change. For now though...Blessed Be~Naaughty
Tuesday March 13, 2007 2:09 P.M.
I ended up with 3 and a 1/2 hours sleep that night and did some research on easier ways to get Sean to sleep. Make a long story short, he now goes straight to sleep in his bed and gives me 6 solid hours of sleep. Michael and I are still happy and enjoying our relationship. Sean is healthy. Jamie and I are becoming better friends every day. Jason is still Jason. We joke around, beat on each other, and then go back to whatever we were doing. JonJon & Jr. are both happy and healthy. Whiny, but happy and healthy. I've got a second job interview with Home Depot on Wednesday. Decent pay, nice people, sounds like it'll be good even if it is just until I find another job. I guess that's it for now and I'll talk to everyone on another day. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Saturday March 10, 2007 4:02 A.M.
What the heck am I doing awake at 4 A.M.???? Well, I'm a little frustrated, but the fears I talked about in my last update have subsided because the situation no longer exists and a month from Tuesday they should be no more. We were watching Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest until 3:30 A.M. and Sean just went to sleep oh about 15 minutes ago. Mike is sleeping peacefully. We made it through our first rough patch and out the other side. That bridge, aye we found it. Took us long enough, just the day. I finally sat down and put my fears into my best outlet, poetry. I'll post it here eventually on a new page. It's been a long time since I've done that, added a page that is. I've written a little lately. I'm so happy except for the fact that I no longer work for ManPower/Pilgrim's Pride through no fault but my own. It was my own stupid butt that got into the mess I'm in with that. Makes me feel like a bit of a failure but I will prevail. The good Lord has never once let my family down in a crisis so I look to him and put my life in his hands as I have always done. Nea says not to depend on a man, but I can't help this one. I've always known the Lord would take care of me and always trusted him to do so and will continue to. I know I can depend on Michael. I won't... ever. Not because of him at all, it's a personal Cannon mantra. True Cannon Women know that the right man is down right dependable but also knows never to depend on that man in case the proverbial crap hits the fan. Regardless of the fact that they are our soulmates/one true love/prince charmings/anything else you want to call your perfect match. God bless Yahoo Personals!!! Only a precious few will understand why. I love you Sean, JonJon, and Michael. I'll update soon. As of now I'm just a little tired so I'm going to try to go to bed as soon as I take care of the Pics site. Check it out, there will be new ones added. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Tuesday March 6, 2007 11:03 A.M.
Michael
I'm scared. I felt you pull away from me last night in a time when I needed you most. At a time that I just needed you to tell me that it would all be okay no matter what happened. I worry about the future. I hope we make it through the bad times as a team like we have the good. I still feel that you aren't by my side anymore. There's a big rift between us and for some reason we are having trouble finding the bridge that brings us back. Did you need distance between us? Couldn't you have just said so? I've felt you pulling back for a couple days now but last night it was obvious... it was like a part of me had been ripped away and was barely holding on. I don't know what's going on and we didn't get a chance to talk. I don't like having discussions like this over the phone but if you happen across this what choice do we have? I'm going home to Nea's today. Although I honestly feel more at home with you than I do there. Sean said Daddy today for everyone to hear and it quite honestly broke my heart a little bit because of the distance I feel you have put between us. Maybe I'm wrong and I'm losing my mind. I've always been taught to hope for the best and expect the worst. That's why I play out every possible scenario in my head and look at every angle of the situation. Just so that if it should become a REAL worry it would be easier for me to handle than if I had just ignored the problem until it became reality. I love you and I don't doubt you love me too. You said something the other day and I said it too. "If we were to give this a REAL go" and then I thought well i thought that's what we were doing now Hopefully I'm just PMSing and have temporarily gone insane. I'm just scared right now. That's all I know to say. Blessed Be ~Naaughty
Sunday March 4, 2007 11:48 A.M.
Okay, well life has gotten interesting to say the least. Some things have gone to hell, and others have gotten much better. I lost my job, but life moves on and I am working on getting another one. Michael and I are doing awesome and he's teaching me about Dark Ages of Camelot. It's kind of like Asheron's Call which I always wanted to play but much better with un-freaking-believable graphics. I guess I'll let everyone go. I'm happy, I'm healthy. Nothing else truly matters. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Tuesday Feb 20, 2007 11:44 P.M.
Well, today started out like shit. It got worse and then it got worse. I didn't even get my morning five minutes with Mike, does that tell you anything? Then on top of that Sean had a fever spike today while I was at work. That was when it got worse the first time. I felt so completely and totally helpless, powerless, and useless. I have realized that I did manage to get Jamie the thermometer for him so I guess I had some use. Mike's soon to-be hopefully ex-wife was there when I came in so there was no chance in hell that I was going to go in there while she was here. I don't even want to open that can of beans. Did I tell you that Sean can go backwards in his walker?! He's such a smart little shit. Then my day got even worse when I spoke to Jamie about the crap that had happened here at the house. Needless to say it is all cleared up but I spent the last hour of my work day PISSED off. Like I said, its fine now. Can you believe Mike has never seen Pretty Woman?????? We watched that tonight. I think he enjoyed it. You can never be sure because even if I ask and he didn't he'll lie just so I'll feel better. Of course I love the movie, but what's not to love. Which reminds me I should download King of Wishful Thinking tonight but I'll save that for later. On a side note, my son is back home. Thank God for small miracles in this world. He's being a little hellion right now but that will pass in the next week or so. He's just feeling a little misplaced if you want my opinion. Sean is doing fine now. He had shots and I cut a little piece of his finger yesterday, way to make me feel like the worst possible mom in the whole world. I told him just that. I felt like the most terrible and mean mother ever for that hour when we were trying to make him feel better. Like I said before and will say again, I don't think Michael could be any better or perfect for me. It's completely insane the way he can anticipate most of my needs before they even occur. I'm in love and can't be happier than what I am. Maybe I can but I doubt it. I love you Michael. And JonJon, and of course Sean. Blessed be~Naaughty
Saturday Feb 17, 2007 12:21 P.M.
Well, I got to spend the night with Michael last night. He still hasn't seen the page yet, but that will come. So many times before I thought I had found "the" one. I've been hurt and trampled on. Led into one night stands by men who only wanted one thing. Steve was a mistake of enormous proportions, but without him I wouldn't have little Sean. My baby boy. Without Sean I may have never met Mike. I don't know that I would have given a man with children a chance because I may not have felt ready. On the other end of that, without Sean I may have never had the courage to move up here to Georgia so far away from everyone and everything that I know. Right now, I am sitting on Jason's computer, while Jamie and Junior eat lunch, and Sean is watching TV. I am thinking about the things that have come and gone. The people I have met and shared my heart with. The ones I believed were right for me and were not. I think I may just have found my forever. He is just as quiet and laid-back as me, but at the same time he'll go to the line for anyone he truly cares for. I shared a part of my past that I had been terrified to share with anyone before because it shames me. The knowledge of what I once did still gets me and makes me sick. Sick wih my own personal self. I pray no one ever has to know what I have told Michael and now Nea. Nea said we all do what we absolutely must to survive. Yet I am still shamed by the knowledge of what I have done. I question whether I needed to do such a thing to survive. I suppose I'll never know. Michael says I am not to blame, he puts the blame on my parents, but that gives them a bit more credit than they deserve. I learned how to keep large secrets. My largest has just now come to light. It took me seven years to utter the words I shared with him. I love you Michael for everything you are. I have never met a more compassionate man. You are the one I believe I'm supposed to spend my life with. I think I'm supposed to grow old with you and enjoy our children. I hope that this time I am right. To all of those who come across my page, enjoy life to the fullest, we may only get this one chance to do so. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Friday Feb 16, 2007 2:56 P.M.
Good Lord, it has been a long time since I have updated this website. What's going on now? A year and a half later? Well, me and Rich fell apart. That really never got too started. Shannan is happy and in college and baby girl is no longer a virgin. LOL :p. So what else is going on... Short version is Steve & I got back together by the end of November 2005, and I got pregnant. I now have a beautiful little boy named Sean. We also broke up in the beginning of January of this year. Since then he and I have been incommunicado, but I met a better man, I met a wonderful and incredible and amazing man who can always make me smile and hates to see me upset. Is that incredible, amazing, or wonderful? I certainly think so. Bonus: He adores my son just as much as I do. Better Bonus: He has a little boy named JonJon who is three years old and absolutely darling. Don't get me wrong, he knows how to get into trouble when he wants to, but what little boy doesn't? EVEN BETTER BONUS: I am deliriously happy and in love. That is the short version, imagine the long drawn out version. You just don't want to know. My life has finally come full circle and I am happy. I always said when I got out of high school I would go live with Nea for awhile. Here I am and happier than I've ever been. For once, my life makes sense and the puzzle pieces seem to just slip right into place. I suppose that's all for now and I'll talk at ya'll another time. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Friday Oct 21, 2005 12:02 A.M.
Anyone ever notice that I usually update this sometime in the wee hours of the morning? Anyways. So what's new in my life? I'm talking to a guy on-line that I like so far. We communicate well at least and he's cute. Matthew is happy with his girlfriend. I am, well I suppose I just am. Recently, and this may be due to my monthly visitor, I just miss being held. Is that a terrible thing for me to feel? I don't need sex or kisses or anything more than just to sit on the couch, watch a movie, and be held. Lately it seems that I am asking for too much with just that. I know somehow that I will find someone to be there for me again in that capacity, but I feel lonely now and that is such a useless emotion to me. I've been communicating well with Rich, my buddy. We gripe at eachother a lot but its all in good fun usually. In fact at my new job I flirt outrageously constantly and we all gripe at eachother about something but its usually laughed at right after we gripe. Its one of those hey fuck you, hey fuck you, naww I didn't really mean that, yea me neither type of things. Whatever, I'm happy. That just made me think of Rich. I'm all fucked up lately. Well that's life for now. I got two jobs, I'm having a party I guess tonight as of a few minutes ago, and I'm pretty darned happy despite the occasional feeling of loneliness. That's it for now folks. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Thursday Oct 6, 2005 3:58 A.M.
The world is in orbit as usual. I am doing absolutely wonderful. I am single and enjoying the life that I have. Its new and interesting. I can flirt and bat my eyelashes and smile coyly at anyone and not feel the least bit guilty. I can show off some of my assets and walk through a room and appreciate the fact that men are looking without feeling guilty. That's so freaking awesome! It has been too long since I've been able to do it. I love you Mattchew and thanks for showing me I had balls to be honest with anyone as long as I knew myself well enough to be honest with myself. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Tuesday, Oct 4, 2005 10:11 A.M.
Okay so Matt's not an asshole, I was just frustrated and upset. I apologize for being a brat at the same time. However, I do not apologize for being honest, but you know that. Okay well, life is good, Steve's an asshole but I knew that and not much has changed other than that. Okay well have fun and enjoy life. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Thursday, Sept 15, 2005 11:00 P.M.
Three strikes, three times you've made me cry. I don't need you in my life if all you are going to do is make feel like I am unworthy. You have no clue what a friend you have lost. You will never know. I wish you the best and all the happiness you can find wherever you go in life. ::For Matthew:: Blessed Be~Naaughty
Thursday, Sept 15, 2005 10:20 P.M.
You know, you would think with as many guy friends as I've hooked up lately I would be used to playing second fiddle by now. But the distance still hurts and the phone calls stopping and the conversations stopping is disconcerting. I tried to talk to him today when I was excited and all he did was bring me down about it. I don't understand him sometimes, I really don't. I know I'm not meant to understand the thoughts and ideas of a man but he was supposed to be my best friend even if he's dating my chic best friend. It just feels like she's more important than I am. "I owe you my life." Seems like you owe it to her more than to me today. It feels like you're pushing me away. If not, let me know somehow. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Thursday, Sept 15, 2005 3:17 A.M.
One more week and I'll be in Virginia. Yippee, skippee. I am so freaking happy. I proved to myself that I could stand up and be around Steve and now I am believing in my full strength, thank you Matthew for pushing me down so that I could stand on my own. You and Shannan are my best friends in and out of this black hole/ universe we live in. Thanks for everything. I love you both and am a very happy person. Matt's happy, Shan's happy, Barclay's happy, and I'm happy. This is so cool! Blessed Be~Naaughty
Tuesday, Sept 13, 2005 12:34 P.M.
I just alienated one of my best friends and that hurts me because I said some things in the heat of being so upset. I apologize a million times for being an asshole. I just added a new page to the site, so feel free to check it out. Its a page that's been missing for a while. Thanks for stopping by. I love you Shannan and Matthew. I'm sorry for venting. I know you both understand but its something that needs to be available to the world. For everyone to know that I can be a real jerk sometimes. Thanks for understanding me when I don't even understand myself. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Satuday, Sept 10, 2005 6:15 P.M.
I'm hurting, my best friends are hurting, is nothing in this world okay? I hurt over Matthew, and Shannan and Matthew are hurting over each other. It isn't fair! I know nothing in life is fair, but dammit this is a little extreme to put on us all after we've been through so much. No one understands. None but us three. The pain and torture of a heart trying to heal and finding someone to heal with but not knowing whether it is a safe place to be. Wanting with all of our hearts to love and be loved by someone in more than a platonic way is torturing us all. I want what I can't have and the two people I care for more than anything in this world were trying to find that safe place with each other but are unsure if they are going to hurt each other. It is the last thing any of us want to do to each other and still we seem unable to do anything else. We talk and enjoy each other all the time and yet the pain of knowing the love you want is out of reach keeps us from letting each other in. I let Matthew and Shannan into my life because I know that I need them more than anything. Without either of them I am lost and scared. My only hope is that they can push through their fears and hurts to find that safe place. Maybe not with each other but at least to give each other the chance to find out if what they might need is each other. Let go of the fear of a rebound and open yourselves up to the chance of love. For it may exist between you. Rebounds are fake. You should try. This is what I am asking of my two dearest friends. I will however understand if it is too much. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Saturday, Sept 10, 2005 3:41 A.M.
This feels so great and hurts so bad at the same time. The contradiction of feelings is leaving me somewhat numb. I hurt because I wanted Matthew for me. I feel great because the two people I love more than anything are finding happiness with eachother. Am I horrible for feeling so sad? I'm not quite sure of what to do in the situation I am caught in. Matt doesn't mean to hurt me, its the last thing he wants to do, and I know that but its not him hurting me. I'm hurting myself. I asked for this pain when I gave my heart away. I just wish I could lose this feeling. Some day that's all I have to hang on to right now. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Saturday, Sept 10, 2005 1:59 A.M.
I feel hurt. Its not something that can be changed or fixed in anyway. I just hurt. The guy that I want more than anything thinks we're no good for eachother and that he would hurt me and is getting interested in my friend and that just hurts. My eyes are filling up with tears and there's nothing I can do. I don't want to cry with him on the phone but it hurts so bad. He doesn't want to hurt me but he doesn't know how bad it does hurt. The tears are refusing to stop falling and I'm maintaining a normal voice on the phone and I don't know how I'm doing this. I just needed to voice this in some way Blessed Be~Naaughty
Friday, Sept 09, 2005 12:44 P.M.
My Life Has Changed Drastically in a matter of months. Steve and I took a dive into the worst and have split. Our child, Molly, who is our boxer puppy, resides with him to comfort and try to make him happy. I do not wish him any harm or any sadness. I suppose it's one of those things I am incapable of wishing upon another life. I have met a wonderful person named Matthew. He is an incredible friend and a true redneck. Despite the tragedies that have overcome his life lately, he has found a way to continue. I'm proud to know him and have him as a part of my life. I am going to visit him for my birthday in Virginia, where he moved about a week ago. I now work for Domino's delivering pizza. It's decent money except now I drive from St Cloud to Kissimmee to work. That bites but I should be transferring to a closer store in the coming months. I feel terribly heart broken over the tragedy that came with Hurricane Katrina. It is so devastating that a natural disaster has more power than anything man has ever thought to do with the exception of the nuclear bomb. I wonder if the end is near, and if it is, I welcome it. These are the new things in my life. Blessed Be ~ Naaughty
Thursday, May 19, 2005 4:39 P.M.
Well, life is pretty much the same and that's all I got for you folks. Thanx for dropping by. MUAH Byes Blessed Be ~Naaughty
Monday Feb 21, 2005 2:05 P.M.
Alright well, this is going to be pretty darn short. I moved in with Steve. I got a Chevy Cavalier. It's a 95 with a little over 103,000 miles on it. I guess that's all. Talk to everyone later! MUAH Byes Blessed Be ~Naaughty
Thursday Jan 20, 2005 4:48 P.M.
Okay so once again it has taken time to get back on here, but I'm also gonna leave this short and sweet again....
Steve~together almost 18 mos.
Nikki~we're talking again !YAY!
Kris~back in town and talking when time allows
Shan~talking when we get a chance
Luci~had a kid, we don't talk anymore
College~2nd term. going good
Work~Jackson-Hewitt
That's it! Blessed Be~Naaughty~
Tuesday Sept 21, 2004 5:48 P.M.
Okay so my life has not left me a lot of time to get to this, but here are the main points. Luci is supposedly not talking to me because I still communicate with Kristen, which by the way Kris, if you read this call me! Oh well life goes on. Steve and I have been together for over a year. Congratulations to us! My birthday is tomorrow. Happy birthday to me! I also started college. FINALLY! Shawn still wants to go to Cali, I don't work for Nike anymore, and Steve has been back from Kenfucky for over a month now. The hurricanes left us all okay. No damage to report. So that's my life. If you want to know more, you got to get in touch. Blessed Be~Naaughty~
Monday June 7, 2004 5:08 P.M.
Hey there everyone. Life is great. Steve & I are great and we spend more time together than before. Luci doesn't talk to me anymore but from what I've heard all is well with her. I missed the wedding due to a family crisis and she's still mad at me. Okay so other than that I guess I don't really have much else to say. Still working at Nike. Still in love with Steve. Shawn is moving to Cali and his brother Steve moved to Kenfucky but other than that it's all the same. I guess that's life in a nutshell. Blessed Be~ Naaughty~
Monday April 26, 2004 11:12 A.M.
Okay so not much has changed. Me & Steve are doing great. I got him a Metallica t-shirt but it turns out he already has it. (His mom got him the same shirt for Christmas, great minds think alike?) So now I have it. It's pretty cool. We talk as much as we can during the week, which isn't as often as it used to be due to our hectic work schedules. Luci and Sam get hitched this Sunday. I'm happy for her. The baby is due in late Sept. early Oct. I guess things are just going good right now. I turn in my application to Valencia this Friday. Can you believe it? I'm going to college! It's going to take up most of my free time between now and the next 4 years but in the end it'll be worth it all. Steve, my parents, & I all agree that if it comes between school and work, work has to go. It's just not really an option. Hopefully I will get the job at Republic Bank I just applied for. It's a lot closer to home and I'll make more money so there's not a downside to it. Plus, working in a bank pretty much guarantees that I'll have the time to see Steve Friday nights. My interview is Tue May 11th. Well that's it for now. Tell the people you love how you feel, you'll never know how long they've been waiting for those words. Don't let a day go by that you might regret. If something goes wrong, pick up the pieces and fix it. I think that's the best advice I know. And one more thing, Phoebe told Joey on Friends earlier this week....A promise between friends means you never need a reason. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Tuesday April 06, 2004 6:19 P.M.
Okay so I'm sorry I haven't updated in a month but things have been crazy. So I saw Steve for the first time in over a month that Friday in March and we got back together. That is the amazing news. Things have gotten much better. We still don't see eachother as much as we'd like to, but we talk every couple of days. He told me he loved me for the first time March 25th. It was the most incredible thing I'd ever heard in my life. To know he loves me is beyond amazing. I'm happier than ever. Easter is coming quickly and the family is going to Nea's for dinner. Luci is getting married the 2nd of May. She's beautiful and her gown is jaw dropping. I was going to be one of her Bridesmaids but couldn't afford it, so instead I helped to write their vows. Congrats to my best friend on landing such a great man. I no longer talk to Bonnie due to family issues, my own issues, and Steve letting me realize how much she's hurt me and my family by taking advantage of us. Shannan is supposed to be down in August and if she really does come I am going to freak! Steve's best friend Tom came down the week after we got back together and he's cool. I got a job at Nike but I'm applying to other places as well. I guess that's it for now. Blessed Be~Naaughty
Friday March 12, 2004 1:54 P.M.
Okay so here is the long story of my previous short story, Luci is finally prenant. I am so happy about it! I'm going to be an aunt and I can't wait. As for other things, Chip and I have been talking for a few weeks and I finally decided to go ahead and go on a date with him, he's really sweet and we enjoy each other's company. I miss Steve terribly still but I couldn't continue the way things were. We broke up on good terms and are still going to be friends. I'll be seeing him for the first time in over a month tonight. Justin will be nine on Monday. I can't believe how old he is already. Luci's wedding is May 2nd and she will be a beautiful bride and an even more beautiful mother. I'll let everybody get on with their lives, and thanks for taking a minute to check into mine. By The Way~ Kristen I'm sorry for calling you a Bitch MONTHS AGO and if your offended by it, I was angry at that time with you. As far as things go I do hope you are enjoying Massachusetts and you've found your place. Blessed Be ~Naaughty~
Wednesday March 10, 2004 6:54 P.M.
Sorry its been so long but life gets confussing even as we speak. So here's whats going on right now--> Luci's pregnant and getting married in a couple months. I am ecstatic about it. Me and Steve broke up because things were just too easy for him. Unfortunately it hurt a lot! Blessed Be ~Naaughty
Monday January 19, 2004 8:40 P.M.
Okay here I go again. Once again I am at work. It feels good to say that. I guess the only real updates on my life is the fact that the Patriots are going to the SuperBowl and they are going to kick butt! I can't wait to see it! Last year the Bucs won and I was a happy camper and now the Patriots are going and it will be amazing to watch the whole thing. As things are I have to say life is good. I am with a man who loves me and who I love. Which having one without the other is never worth it. To know he loves me too is a blessing and what more can I say about it? Stevie is going to come home for school and go to Dad's in the summers so that should be good for him. Shannan is doing good. Luci and I are doing fine. Bless Chucky where he is because we love him a lot. Heaven has got to be a beautiful place. I love you all and Blessed Be ~Naaughty~
Sunday January 18, 2004 2:54 P.M.
So what's going on? Steve loves me a little bit. He said he doesn't know if he really loves me but he does know he loves me a little. It's great and I'm happy. The van is up and working again. Thanks to a few mechanics and Tom for finishing the job. I went on a cruise for a week. It was my Christmas present from Steve along with a teddy bear, two bracelets, and some perfume. He makes me really happy all the time. The cruise was beautiful. We took the Disney Cruise which was absolutely amazing. 80 degrees the whole time. It was just perfect except for our minor 10 minute fight which was short-lived and we're better for it. Well kiddies I gots to leave you cause I'm at work and not supposed to be doing this :) Blessed Be~NaaughtyKitten~.
December 25, 2003 3:55 P.M.
First order of business....Christmas pretty much sucked. There's no other real way to describe it. I didn't get to see Steve, I haven't talked to Steve, and I miss him horribly. I mean that literally too. I get moody and irritated and pitch fits like I haven't done since I was proably 10 years old. This is almost a decade later so its pretty bad. I just needed to spend this time with him and I can't. On another issue, I miss Stevie fiercely. I want him home and Christmas is not the same without him. He's been my best friend for the better part of his near 16 years. He's 15 and will be 16 in April. God when did that happen? We've been at eachother's throats over the years, but we've also played cars and barbies, gotten into trouble together, he gave me my first cigarette, we just love eachother a bunch and sometimes its so crazy we have to fight about something stupid to balance it all out. He's so great! Anyways. Merry Christmas everyone. Life is full of surprises and I love them all. Blessed Be~Naaughty
December 10, 2003 11:54 P.M.
Okay so I still don't have a job but I'm working on it. Also I am still with Steve and doing great, we're planning to go on a cruise in January which sounds like lots of fun. He just wants to get me drunk so he can take advantage of me, but who says I don't want that either. I'm talking about moving in with Luci and Sam after the New Year and it sounds like a lot of fun, in fact that's where I am now and I love watching the two of them together. Yes I said some bad things but it was from a million miles away and I wasn't in the midst of their presence. Its funny to watch how in love they are with each other. Luci thinks its kind of cool to watch me falling in love with Steve because she felt all of the same things I'm feeling when she met Sam. Evan is gone, but still in Florida, never going to Arizona. Yay!!! for me!!! Other than not having a job my world is perfect Blessed Be~Naaughty~
November 21, 2003 4:02 P.M.
Well I don't work for Disney now either. I got fired for missing too many days of work. I know I should be more upset but I never really wanted the job anyways and would prefer to be doing something with the skills I worked hard to acquire. Still with Steve and happy as ever. He calls me now which is amazing. I never knew how happy I could be just because someone calls me. He called me today because he was having a bad day, and even though I felt bad for him, I was happy that he called me to talk to. I guess that's my life for now.
~As always~Naaughty~
November 8, 2003 2:51 P.M.
Okay so I am no long workinfg for the travel agency. It was one of those things where you worked purely on how many sales you made and I just wasn't going to be making enough money at all. So I finally got the job I've wanted for 3 years. I am working for Disney. I did turn 18 on the 22nd of Sept which was great. We spent the weekend in the hotel like planned but the concert was cancelled which sucked big time. I am still with Steve and he turned 28 on the 6th of Nov so we are partying this weekend for his birthday. I'm scared of losing him because we've been together three months tomorrow and after three months I worry about him getting tired of me. I'm positive he's not because he still wraps his arms around me and wants to undress me at any time we have a moment alone. Unfortunately our moments alone are usually in a parking lot so he can't do what he wants. I love him undeniably. He just makes me so happy all the time. Just thinking of him puts the biggest smile on my face. Kristen is a bitch and has moved back to Mass, Bonnie is a bitch and the guy who was "sposed" to marry her never showed up. I haven't had anything to do with her recently. Luci is my girl and is engaged now. I'm so happy for her. It was just a matter of time before they were engaged but it finally happened about a week ago. I guess that's it for now because I need to go do some stuff. Thanks for reading anybody who does. MUAH Byes~Naaughty~
September 9, 2003 3:28 P.M.
Guess who gots another job? That's right me. I work at a travel agency now. M-F 9-5:30 and Sat 9-3:30. I'm still with Steve and am very happy still. Our conversations are kind of lulled now, but its all okay because we watch football & baseball games on tv together while we're on the phone. We still see eachother every Fri and Sat nite, plus we're going to a David Lee Roth concert on the 26th of Sept. Kind of a b-day present, kind of a just cause its gonna be cool thing. Not to mention we're talking about getting a hotel for that weekend. I can't wait. We're both kind of hoping it won't turn out to be all about sex, but what can I say if it does? Thanks ~Naaughty
September 4, 2003 6:01 P.M.
Hmm? Let's start with my birthday is getting closer and closer by the day. Right now it is like 18 days away. Can't wait for it to get here. I feel like I've been 18 all year long, but my birthday makes me really 18. I've been doing all the things an 18 year old might do...clubbing, smoking, partying with friends, I just haven't really been 18. For my birthday, I am bringing my brother home from Kentucky with my puppy Max and my boyfriend is taking me to the David Lee Roth concert at the House of Blues. I can't wait. This weekend my best friend Bonnie has her fiancee coming down so they can get married. We're doing the whole Disney thing on Saturday. Me and Steve, her and David, and my baby brother Justin. It's going to be an adventure for sure. Probably going to do the whole Pleasure Island thing Friday and Saturday night like we do every week. Everyone is doing good I suppose, haven't heard otherwise. Guess that's all from me for now. Talk to ya'll laters. Bless you all ~Naaughty
August 28, 2003 3:06 P.M.
How life can change so quickly is beyond my knowledge. For anyone who reads this I am sorry to have left you hanging. I am back in Florida again. Thank the heavens. I missed it so much. I have a boyfriend who is ten years older than me but dammit he's hot and absolutely the sweetest guy I know. He and I are doing great. I haven't been this happy in the longest time. Just being with him puts a glow on my face. At least that's what he and his friend Lloyd say. It's good between us right now and I don't see how we couldn't work out which kind of scares me. He and I are both very laid back people and he doesn't get jealous like he has before because he knows I am his. I told him that the second time we met, which was our first date. Kristen is doing well, Luci is living her own life, and my friend Bonnie is getting married. It's pretty good right now in my life. I guess that's all I really have to say except that Evan is gone, gone, gone. No phone calls, no nothing, but I have Steve (the boyfriend) and that's all I need. Byes. ~Naaughty
June 25, 2003 2:36 A.M.
Me and Kristen have since made up. Luci went back to an asshole that I had gotten her away from. I really wish there was something I could do for her, but she has to make her own decisions in life. I feel its the wrong one right now, but I really hope I'm wrong. I wish I could be with Kristen right now and I could whack the shit out of Luci for being such a stupid moron. All the signs are there, and she knows what I'm talking about. I've gotten advice from the people I know I can and its just difficult to watch her do this to herself. Evan hasn't called but he probably had something to do. I found Ryan's dogtag and reattatched it to my neck. I know I say this a lot, but I just wanna be back home with my friends and family. Evan leaves to Colorado to do some work on the 19th of July and I get back by the 28th of July. We'll have missed each other by about a week and that really sucks. I wish he would be there to see me when I get home but he has to work and make a living. If he ever sees this I hope he knows how much I care about him. He's a big part of my life and heart. I'll catch up with everyone before I leave to come home to Florida. Thanks for reading this whoever does. Blessed Be~Naaughty
June 21, 2003 5:11 A.M.
Well I'm alright. I guess that's the best I can say right now. Luci needs me. I miss her so much now.
I feel bad for her because I understand to an extent what she's going through, but my mom
understands better than I could. She'll be okay though. It's just a matter of starting over. Kristen and
I aren't getting along because she's not getting along with Luci. I feel like she doesn't have time for
me, or just doesn't want to have time for me. Either way I'm through with it. I'm happy because
tomorrow night is time to call Evan. I am so happy he's a part of my life again. As much as he'll
never believe it, he's absolutely wonderful. He's very special to my heart. Katie is a great girl! We
talked for a long time tonight and told eachother things in confidence. She's a girl I met on-line at the
Palace and she just really is great. Nikki's on a cruise for 8 days. Hopefully some relaxation will
make her feel better. Shannan can't wait to see me. She sent me an icecream cone that was cool.
Meg is Meg. I hope she's okay. We haven't talked in too long. That's life right now in a nutshell.
Thanks for reading folks. As always, Blessed Be ~Naaughty
June 13, 2003 1:34 P.M.
So how bad is completely insane right? Well when you can't sleep because you miss someone so
much, that's pretty insane. When you cry yourself to sleep because you are so lonely, that's pretty
insane. Maybe those responses to things that are normal are actually okay, but I'm so depressed.
It has been about three years since I've been this depressed. I'm sick of feeling alone. I need my
friends, I need to be held by someone again, I need to be back home. I hate Kentucky. There is
nothing here for me. Maybe I'm supposed to just accept that, but it hurts too much to just accept.
I just don't feel good anymore. I'm trying to just disappear for the next month until I'm back home.
If you don't hear from me and you usually do, don't worry too much. I'll be back in Florida ASAP.
Thanks to anyone who reads this damn thing. Blessed Be~Naaughty~
June 10, 2003 10:02 P.M.
Things have gone insane within the past three days. I've learned the people I really thought were my
friends are just people trying to convince me others were to blame for the downfall of our
friendship. The truth is that the person who was telling me others were saying stuff is actually just
a liar and nothing more than that. She tries to create drama and chaos to make her feel better about
her life, and the truth of the whole damn thing is she needs to take a huge step back because she's
only hurting herself. So that's the end of the saga that has unfolded with all my friends. The newest
drama in my life is the return of someone I love dearly. He may have hurt me in the past, but I think
we could actually be okay together. Evan is back. He contacted me after we haven't spoken for
approximately six months. I'm not sure what exactly it means, but I do know that I can't wait to get
home and go to dinner. I think going on a date with him sounds like a good start to rebuilding the
bridge we burnt down a year ago. He is very much a part of my heart. The only thing I've really
done over the past year is try to forget about him. Like I told him, he just seems to pop back up into
my thoughts when I least expect him. I find myself thinking about the night almost a year ago and
replaying it in my mind. He hurt me really bad. I will go on the record to say he is the first person
who has really broken my heart. Times are changing and I'm getting older. He's done a lot of
maturing too. I guess that's it for now. Just thought I'd update this for the people who do read it.
Blessed Be. ~Naaughty
June 07, 2003 5:22 A.M.
So here's the biggest information I have since the last blog. I was angry when I wrote the last blog,
that's the only way I really know how to explain things. So I've come to some surprising new
conclusions. After spending at least an hour on the phone with Luci, I feel better about
our relationship. Before, I have to admit, I thought our entire relationship was completely over.
I was wrong to assume something like that. I see now that we let a small rip occur between us
after the whole G situation. For the first time in months since that occured, we understand how
the other person felt when it all went down. Anyways, it seems that since we let the rip start,
there's been someone who has decided it is their personal duty to keep pulling at the tear.
There is a person who keeps pushing to pull me and Luci apart. That person knows who they
are and what they are doing. Here is my official statement on my relationship with me and Luci:
I may have felt confused before, but that is over. Our relationship is stronger than it has ever been.
End of statement. Luci and I talked for a very long time to set things right between us. Seems we
were feeling the same thing when G happened to us. We also discovered an odd link between what
happened between us, and how things really are. Another thing we did, is we realized that what
we have now is more important than anything that happened before. Luci has Sam. It's a little hard
for her to give 100% because she has been hurt too many times before, but she is really trying. Her
fear is what's going to happen to make the ball drop. I have the same fears about Ryan, but my mom
is completely right about how special my love is for him. I carry a symbol of my love for him on me at
all times. Luci and some of my other friends know what that symbol is. It is something I keep close
to my heart at all times. I guess that's the information I have for the people who actually read this
thing. I'm glad me and Luci did talk today, I don't want to think about what could have happened if
we would have let things stay quiet between us much longer. I still have no clue what test she gave
Kristen and me. What I do know is I'm trusting her decision to wait till we can sit down and have a
discussion. Thanks for checking in on me ~Naaughty
June 05, 2003 2:57 A.M.
There is this really great website called imood.com. It let’s you tell your friends how
you’re feeling. I don’t think it gives enough options of standard feelings. There’s a hell
of a lot of them, but some just aren’t there. It also leaves a space to explain the
feeling, I haven't tested the full length, but I don't think there's enough. So for anyone
who cares at all, here it goes: Luci and Kristen have been two of my best friends and I
care a hell of a lot about them. For a while, it seems every time we talk, they are at
eachother’s throats. I finally got my mom’s opinion of the whole friggen thing. Luci told my
mom she gave me and Kristen a test to see who her true friends were. My mom’s opinion on that:
YOU DON’T TEST YOUR FRIENDS! If you don’t think you can trust somebody, don’t test
them, talk to each person individually. You keep saying you don’t want to deal with
petty high school bull shit, but what the hell do you think testing your friends is? I
don’t know what test you gave us but dammit it’s not right. I think it is extremely
childish of you to do so in the first place. On to another situation that doesn’t concern
Kristen. Luci please let the G situation go. Until you let go of it, I can’t let go. Stop
living in the past. It’s not healthy first of all, and second all it does is drudge up
feelings of hurt and resentment. For the people who read this just for kicks and
giggles, here’s what happened. I kissed him, I admit it, don’t know why he can’t. To
get more truth, we kissed each other. I am sorry it hurt you. Now I want you to think
a minute about this Luci. Why on God’s green earth would I say the same fucking
thing over and over, knowing it hurt my best friend, if it wasn’t the damn truth? I try to
tell the truth, and you say, "Well it’s over, so it doesn’t matter who is telling the truth."
You have serious trust issues. If you can’t trust me, then why do you continue to give
me tests? I really don’t understand how you can believe I would viciously hurt you like
that. I’m sorry it happened. It may have taken a while, but I know it was a mistake.
He got to go off and leave us with the damage and deny it from at least 50 miles away.
You have said on numerous occasions that you can’t trust him. Why are you
believing him over me constantly then? That’s how I feel about it Luci. Take it or leave
it, love me or hate me, trust me or just don’t. Kristen, you are such a sweet heart. I love you.
Nikki I am extremely sorry for what has happened in your life recently. You are absolutely
correct about something though, we don’t live forever. Just because we are teenagers,
we believe we are invincible and nothing could ever kill us now. Here’s proof right in
front of all of us that death doesn’t care how old you are. Do me a favor today. If you
haven’t talked to someone recently, speak up. When someone says I’m sorry, forgive
and forget. Don't say I'm sorry and then bring it up whenever it feels like the right time to
argue about it. We all think we have tomorrow to make things right, we don’t. I wish I
could hug my grandfathers one more time. I wish I could have met my grandparents
who died before I got to see them. Life is cold and fate is a bitch. That’s the facts of
life. You want my advice? Live today, don’t wait for tomorrow, forget the past. That’s
the whole kit and caboodle. I love you all so much. You are my best friends. Ryan I
love you. My mom told me today that love at first sight is rare and special. She
believes in it though. I knew I loved you before Eddie introduced us. When you
walked in that door I was afraid to talk to you. You were so gorgeous and I fell in love.
Maybe at first it was just infatuation, but within minutes of meeting you, listening to you,
I knew beyond any reason of a doubt that I loved you. Eventually, I got the courage to walk over
and for the most part of that night we were inseparable. You would think that not seeing
or hearing from a person you hardly know anything about would hurt a relationship,
six months would make you second guess your heart. I have, I won’t deny it.
The point is, after everything, I still love you. You make me smile at least once a
day. Maybe I question how you feel, but I know I love you. The love I have for you is
the heart stopping, jaw dropping, can’t sleep, can’t think kind. My mom is right, that
is very special and extremely rare. Well that’s it for now. God Bless and take care.
Life is too short to live for any other day than today. ~Naaughty
June 02, 2003 4:42 P.M.
Well it has been about a week since I wrote in my blog. I don't think many people
check this out, but for those who do, this is sort of like my diary. I just recently
learned that my sister Nikki's exboyfriend had an unfotunate accident over the
weekend or right around them. I feel very sorry for her because it isn't fair. We just
graduated and then all of a sudden life punches us in the gut. It is definetly a tricky
thing. I feel very sorry for anyone who is dealing with hardships right now. It seems
we are destined to deal with this. Not much else can happen but for us to go on with
our lives and let fate twist its way through. As for me, I get the news quite a few days
late in Kentucky. Have no choice until I get home, although even when I was there the
news usually passed into my hands last. What am I supposed to do? I still love
Ryan of which I have no doubt about that. He is very special to me. I get the feeling
that life and fate are going to pull a devil of a trick on me and keep us apart forever. If
that is the case, I will think of him often and will do what is required of me. I will keep
my wits about me and love him as well as someone who can show me the kind of love
that I need and feel that I know. I fear it very much. It's just not fair for me to have to
feel this love in my heart for someone, but have no one feel it for me. Thanks very
much for reading but I have to leave. Enjoy life my friends because it is all we
have~Naaughty
May 26, 2003 6:38 A.M.
So I guess the first question is what's going on? Well life pretty damn well sucks and I
have no idea what to do about it. My boyfriend is supposedly coming home next
week. That's just fucking perfect because I am in Kentucky and he is going back to
Florida from Iraq. I don't plan to be back in Florida till June, not just June but very late
June. Life is just fucking perfect. So how am I dealing with this wonderful piece of
information? Well for starters I have been crying myself to sleep almost every night
just thinking of the possibility of losing him just because I was too chicken to stay and
face my problems. Doesn't that just rank high on how shit sucks? We're not done
yet. My baby brother and mother need me, all my friends need me and they are all
pretty much still in bass ackwards St. Cloud, Florida and I'm stuck in even more bass
ackwards Louisville, Kentucky. Luci is dealing with life and her grandmas death,
Kristen is dealing with a million decisions and her grandmother's death and Bonnie is
just dealing with life and the shit of it all. What can I do, tell them I'm sorry I wish I
was there to help them through and continue on, hoping the entire time I will have the
guts to move back home in July. Not June but July. LIfe just fucking sucks it is so
fucking horrible I can't stand it. If I was brave enough I probably would have killed
myself by now but I keep thinking , maybe Ryan does love me and it's just not some
stupid idea I have in my head and he will actually come home to me. Dammit I miss
my soldier. I miss the love of my life and the one person I could wait forever for. Just
what happens when Ryan does come home and decides I must have given up on him
because I moved thousands of miles away? Is he going to run or try to find me. I love
him with every breath I have and I can't stand myself for feeling that way. It just
fucking sucks. I know I'm using the word fucking a lot but dammit it is just how I
fucking feel right now so give me some fucking space. I hate being me because I can't
make any decisions. Do I go home and start fresh with my friends standing beside
me right where I was a month ago or do I stay here and try to figure it out all on my
fucking own. I miss Ryan and need his help, I had decided that I was going to wait for
him to get home before I decided to move to Kentucky and now I've already gotten
here and he could be home any day and where am I, nowhere near where I promised
him I would be, I told him I would wait for him and I fucking left. What do I do now? I
need some help. If you read this and have an idea e-mail me... It is
naaughtykitten@yahoo.com I could really use some damn advice from someone else
cause I feel really really lost and life is really beginning to take a huge down-spiral.
~~Naaughty
May 14, 2003 3:10 A.M.
Hi everyone! Well here's life as it stands. We move into the house my Dad bought in
early June. I can't wait. We start the cleanup this weekend which is going to be
great. Or at least I hope it will be. Anways, life as I know it is quickly changing. My
best friends are all moving on with their lives. I will get to talk to Shannan's mom as
much as I want pretty much on a great game (Asheron's Call). Hopefully Shannan will
play too. Her mom has been great about the whole thing. My life is piecing together
pretty well if I do say. Kristen is moving to Rome, Georgia. It's a great move for her
and I hope she enjoys it. It is a chance to start all over again. I think that is exactly
what we both needed. Just a chance to begin new where no one really knows us and
we can make changes and become better people. Not that Kristen isn't the best, but
it's a chance to be who we want to be. Not what other people want us to be. Our
friends have really defined us and who we are. Kristen has made me become myself
again by letting me be myself. Luci was always my conscience, worrying about me
and letting me see the mistakes I could possibly make. Nikki showed me that love is
something we can wait for and it's time to live for the present and not what tomorrow
could be. Shawn showed me my flaws and was a great confidante. He always
listened when I needed him and talked when he needed to vent. Shannan showed me
that being a big sister is complicated and while life may seem to be the worst it isn't
what it seems. Meg showed me that to be real you have to be true to yourself and do
what you want. Stephanie showed me that at certain times you should really just
keep your mouth shut and that true friends always care, even when you aren't talking.
Steph if I haven't told you, I love you to death. These people are my family. They love
me despite my flaws. My mom did instill me with things that I could build on and they
helped me to build. They are really amazing people and that is worth more than
anything in this world. Shawn you were my first love and while you will never love me
like that, it's a good thing because I have worked with you and spent way too many
hours in the same area with you and have decided I never want to live with you. We
just aren't compatible. I was young when you came into my life and with you I have
grown. I am so proud of you for graduating. That is so awesome. You are awesome!
Nikki, Steph, Luci, & Kristen~they say the best time of your lives are in high school. If
that's true, I'm glad you were there to share it with. I can't imagine it without you.
Nikki we've shared Shawn stories since the beginning of high school. Each year has
changed that a little more, but I'm so glad you trusted me and I could trust you. You
are walking into the next step of our lives and will make it unforgettable for any who
meet you. Trust me! Steph I met you in 10th grade. You gave me unconditional
friendship, listened, gave advice, talked with me, loved my family as much as I do. We
have had our fights and arguments, but in the end you were still my friend, still my
sister. Luci you were next in high school. For a while we spent every waking moment
together and for about 3 months we even spent nights in the same room at my house.
G tore us apart. I don't know why we let him. You are my sister. Whatever
happened then was meant to happen. Maybe it was a way for us both to kind of let
him go. Like you I will love him forever because he is that one guy but he will never be
worth losing you. Kristen, wow! You are an incredible person, don't ever let some guy
run your life or step on you. He's not worth your tears. We are stronger than any
man. All of you girls are. In a way I guess this is my signature in your yearbooks.
This is what I would have written. Kristen we became inseparable in such short time.
You were there for me and I for you in ways I would never have believed possible. You
became someone I could never live without. We have all had our disagreements in our
friendships. I said this to Nikki 9th grade year when we had our disagreement. Every
friendship has one large fight, how you handle that fight is what determines your
friendship. We have all overcome those fights and become better friends because of it.
Some of them took longer to try to mend, but in the end you are my family, the
sisters I never had and the friends I could never deserve. Shannan and Meg shared my
middle school career with Nikki. Years I could never forget. Nikki I don't think we will
ever forget Mr.Boyd and the fact that we were all his "cheelldren". That man was so
gay and hilarious. He's a teacher I don't care to forget. Shannan and Meg you guys
helped me through the hardest time in my life. I pray for anyone in that situation.
Thank you for saving me. For forcing me to do something I never thought I had the
strength to do. I'm crying just thinking of it because if it weren't for you I might still be
in that situation or worse. You are my angels in this world. I thank God for you
everyday. Girls take care of yourselves. Take your next steps with smiles because
life may not always be easy, but it's the trials we are dealt that forms us into people
we become. I thank God for all of you. Prepare for tomorrow, live for today, remember
the past, but never look back. Tomorrow is much brighter than any day we lived
before. ~~Naaughty
