A Product Of A Broken Heart

As I view the picture portrayed on this page, I see the child finding security, and feeling a sense of safety within the arms of Jesus.

Jesus, as Scripture tells us, suffered much while He lived His short life upon this earth.

Those whom He thought were friends merely wanted Jesus around at various points and times when it was a convenient for them, or if they could get something from Him.

Today I think of the road leading toward the garden where Jesus went to pray with His {friends}. Parapharasing......Jesus shared with His disciples that His heart was heavy that He really needed them for support and for a sense of not feeling alone.

As He ask them to pray for Him Jesus went a little over away from them and knelt to talk to His Father. Upon returning Jesus found them sleeping. Could they not tarry even one hour? Could they not set themselves aside for a short time for Him and support and love Him and let Jesus know that they were there and were going to help Him through......

Just as actions spoke louder then, actions speak louder today in this place and time in the year 2000. I find it so sad to my heart that people today just as back when Jesus walked cannot pray, cannot be trusted and to be point blank cannot be a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.

It saddens my heart to think that people on prayer boards argue, judge, and pretend. Many times I have cried when I've gone to the boards and see prayers that had been posted there not even prayed for. As Christians we need to realize we are the only Jesus some see. For many we have given them the picture that we care, when deep down we don't.

I am big enough to let you know that my heart is sadden, but finally today I can say my heart has been broken.

I grew up in a disfunctional home full of heartbreak and place that many times I longed for security and someone to fell safe with. I don't know about my life anymore and I am not ashamed to tell anyone that. I have seen so much hurt, friendships destroyed, families that turn against each other,etc.

My heart is broken......Jesus did as recorded go to place called Calvary and upon Himself he took our sins and died a terrible death. For us He paid a debt He did not owe. But I feel within my heart, Jesus died of a broken heart.

God wants the best for you and me. That was the plan from the beginning. Just because you're a Christain doesn't mean you can't have a broken heart. More than anyone else Jesus knows what it means to have, and also die of one.

Remove yourself from the position of playing God and telling everyone it will be fine and it will pass - it's a fact, medically, that there are more people who die from a broken heart than a terminal illness.

I am having a terrible time, not with a brain tumor but with a broken heart. I am in the process if leaving a few days to a week and be able to feel safe, secure have someone to pray with me until we can really hear from God.......am I hurting this morning? yes.....why cause first of all there has been no sleep.........second, because I have prayed, and will continue, until God says stop praying, third, I will reach the place not only I feel God wants me but where I can hear from Him know that I am still worth something and feel like God can use me and that because I have a broken heart and a need that is to me worse than the cancer, I will get there or God will get them here. Which I don't know yet but it will happen for this is what I have prayed and there are even medical Docs who have told me that sometimes you have to feel safe and you need to be able to be in a state of security, and a place of love. For perfect love casteth out all fear.

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****I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. Matthew 18:3

SO, please know people have broken hearts...........it happens......for I am the product of one