26th of March
Dear Diary,

I´m still so ill and I feel so pissed but I´m tired of the whore in San Pedro... Ooops, I start to hallizunate and I can´t think clearly. In my dreams I see big skyscrapers and parks with threes and I dreamt about some ice-cream. But not all of my dreams where so peacefull: In one I was standing on a big rock on top of the Grand Canyon (eventhough I never been there) and I started to fall deeper and deeper till I suddenly became a hawk and was flying away and all of the time I was super-scared I might fall down. I saw people walking under me and I flew over houses and roads and the sun was burning on my bird-neck. I thought I might get roasted, until there was wind coming and it was getting so cold I couldn´t move my wings. And what happened? I froze and crashed down. Before I smashed on the ground I woke up and screamed.

Well, I went outside to wash myself at the big rain-ton which was standing infront of my house. I have heard about that chickens still run when you cut their head of, but after all it was the last thing I thought´bout when this "zombie-chicken" without a head jumped right on my arm. I was screaming like crazy and was totally panicked, so pniced that I smashed it right on my huts wall (which left an red bloodmark there hich was reall URGH! A girl came running over from the neighbour-hut. She picked up the chicken (or at leastwhich was left of it) and introduced herself to me as Mae and that she would be sorry her chicken had scared me so much and she invited me to come over tonight and have this "zombie-chicken" for dinner with her. Well, I didn´t really felt like eating this smashed chicken, which was still moving a bit, but since I was interested in getting some more friends beside Old Crazy Ann here I said yes.

The dinner was nice actually eventhough I seemed to have smashed every single bone of this little chicken. After the dinner she showed me her little baby. A cute little clean (!!!) boy. I have developed an theorie that the children probably stay clean till they learn to walk and find out how funny mud is. When I asked Mae who the father would be she said she wouldn´t knew cause "It had been a really crazy night." I didn´t dared to ask for any details, but after all I was kind of shocked. Mae invited me to go with me to the saloon tommorow and I said yes, but this time I surely would take care that I didn´t drink much

When I went to saloon with Mae I actually just drunk a "Maggie Moonshine Brew" which I got from Maggie for free cause I was a new citizen. She said anything about herbs from the McKenzies or something like that. I also saw Grandpa Zack how he was hanging over a chair throwing up like crazy and I promised myself that I wouldn´t get so far. But as I drunk my first bit of Maggies Moonshine Brew I was kind of freaking out. It was not like the next time when I drunk one and just felt asleep. I suddenly had the feeling that I got to run outside and so I did and Mae was running after me so she would catch me before I do something crazy. I runned much faster than she did and finally I runned in the swamp, Mae stopped at the border an yelled on me to come back immediatly. I was able to hear her hysteric screams while I fought myself through the mud and ruined my favourite leather-shoes which was very expensive by the way and I felt the md n my shos, but it didn´t matter. Suddenly I lost my way and didn´t knew where was left or right or front or backside, so I paniced a bit, but I just walked on shouting if anyone would be there.

I walked for a while when I came to a cave which was closed with stones and I sat down at one and waited if anyone would find me. It was like voices would whisper to me to open the cave, but I just thought it would be too weird here. I sat there watching in the dark and suddenly I felt a cold big hand on my shoulder. I turned aroung, willing to knock out whoever it would be, but it was only Herbie, the mental disabled son of the mayor and before I asked for an "how" or "why" he threw me over his shoulder and was running through the swamp with me like he devil would be after him. He runned till we got to tight ground where Mae was still waiting and screamed hysteric. They brought me to my hut, where Mae put off my shoes and laid me on my "hay-bed" and than she and Herbie locked the door from outside. I was falling asleep immediatly having strange dreams about there would be a monsters in the swamp which was trying to touch me with their long dirty fingers.

So now I woke up and I checked the door which was no more locked. I went over to Mae´s hut and wanted to say sorry about me running in the swamp alone and leaving her alone. I knocked at her door and after a while she opened. When I started to say sorry for the whole shit she said "What are you talking about?!" and shut the door again. Did I only dream about it? Than I saw Herbie observing me from some distance and I wanted to go over to him and ask him why Mae was behaving this strange way and thank him for rescueing me out of the swamp. But he wlaked away when I saw me coming. Was there something in the swamp which made the people so scared or where they so superstituos that they´d think there was something in the swamp for which they didn´t had an explaination?

That´s why I went to the swamp again. Actually it was very peacefull there with nice swamp-flowers and stuff like this. The frogs where sitting on stones and watched me curiously and the birds where singing in the sky. After a while I got to the cave which was closed with stones again, but this time I didn´t stayed, I walked on till I got to a big lake and I saw that there was someone sitting. When I got closer I saw this person was making me signs to come over, when I was close enough I realised it was Jimmy which was fishing there and I sat down on the ground next to him. "I heared you went in the swamp at night some days ago..." He said. "Yes and everyone is making a big noise about it like I had broken any law." I said. He watched me and than he said "Promise me never to go there again, at least not at night." Oh, I had promised him everything he wanted to, so I did anyway. Maybe he would tell me the truth?! I asked him why I wouldn´t be allowed to go there at night and when I asked I really saw how he was fighting with himself if he should tell me. Than he was watching if no one else would be around and put his arm sround me to pull me closer to him an I thought "Maybe he will kiss me now?!", but he didn´t. Instead he whispered in my ear "There are many dangerous thing that you don´t know about, like poisonous-snakes and stuff like this at night. Many people have went in the swamps that didn´t have a clue about it and didn´t came back alive." He stood up, got his fishing-hook and said to me it would be time to go. He brought me to town on a way which was around the swamp area. "What aout this cave?" I asked while we were walking. And he looked me surprised. "Don´t tell me you have been there!" he said and I told that I HAD been there. "Don´t go there!" he said and I had to swear by the blood in my vains that I wouldn´t go there as long as I lived. He didn´t gave me an explaination and left me when we got to town.

I think I got to search me a job... My money is getting less and less...