November 8,
2001
My dream
It is now the 9th; I got into reading last night. I was reading one of the stories I wrote a
long time ago. It was part of my
Madison series and I wish that I could finish it. I read the story of when she met Brett and I really enjoyed. I also know that I really enjoy the
Billy-Joe story so maybe I will get back into it. I also put first journal entries on my webpage, I started to put
my stories up too, and that’s why I got into reading the Madison stories.
I would really like to see how that
story would go. I would like to finish
it and especially finish Time of Your Life.
I’d like to get that title in their somewhere right at the end of the story. I would also like to do that stupid Jarred
story sometime and I have to re-do Daniel/Billy/Sarah story where Billy and
“Sarah” disappear. I’m also thinking
about making the time that Billy was away longer and adding more of when Sarah
gets back and her and Daniel’s relationship, actually it might not be bad the
way it is, I’ll have to re-read it sometime.
Actually yeah, I think I did like the ending. I would also like to bring in more of the other guys into the
Cody story and the other ones. (If they
don’t have enough). I also have to
figure out a way to take in the stories from when they are younger. Altogether this would make a really big book
as it is. (QUICK NOTE: I have that Cody and Billy-Joe aren’t
married in Time of Your Life, this has to be taken out.) So I was thinking about making each one a
little book and then adding all the little stories at the end as another
book. Or maybe the other way around but
I don’t really think it would be that exciting without knowing the character
first. Actually I could do the last
book as having the final story when they are altogether and then add the
stories from when they are younger, that would definitely make “Time of Your
Life” a perfect title. I think that is
what I will do for sure.
So now that I got that figured out I
can go back to the dream I had the other night. So that was the same night that I tried to figure out what to
do. I don’t remember what I decided on
but my dream helped me for sure. I was
with Andrew and by the way he was talking to his friends it was like we were
going out but I knew we weren’t really.
I don’t want to explain what happened because it is not the important
part but I will explain how I felt. I
remember thinking in my dream that he was young, he acted it but not once did
it annoy me at all. In fact I thought
it was cute and it made me feel happy.
I liked the feeling of being happy.
After reflecting on this dream I realised that he does make me happy in
real life. For this reason I will
continue talking to him and I don’t care what he thinks. So what if I am flirting with him when I
talk to him. Does it really matter to
anyone else? If I am happy doing it
then that is all that should matter and I am sure anyone who really knows me
would agree. So that’s that. I will continue to talk to him, flirt with
him, if that is what it is called and when I see him I am not going to be so
shy. In fact if I find a car for him I
will even call him this weekend. “NOTE
to self: bring his number home”. I hope
I can find him a car. Listen to
me. I am acting like an idiot now that
I have made this crucial decision of my life.
Alright enough. He’s a great
guy, I like to talk to him, even though I often lack things to say to him and
that’s it.
So I am done acting like an idiot
now. I am in class and I have to go
soon but wait I wanted to write down how cute he was. I asked him if he got my flower I gave him out of his car and he
said yeah it was in his room. So I ask
him if he totalled his car and then remembered to take it out or if he took it
out before that. He never
answered. Denise agrees with me that
means he totalled the car and then remembered to take it out. He also told me his mother put the card I
gave him on the wall. I thought that
was cute and funny. He has it in his
desk drawer now though.
Alright now I have had enough.
