Living With Anxiety
Living with anxiety can be hell. Ask me, I know, I've been through it. I suffered from GAD since 1995, but after a little over a year of being on the medication Xanax I was starting to feel so much better that I asked my doctor if I could cut down my dosage so that I could slowly go off. I did, and I was the one to do it. I was so proud of myself and so was everyone that knew about it. But recently, my anxiety disorder returned and with it I had to go back on my meds. I was discouraged with myself, but I had no choice. That monster anxiety had come back to haunt me. I hated the feeling-that nervous, anxious feeling. I had it all day long and deep breathing did not help. Sometimes I would have those all-too-familiar panic attacks. My heart would race, my body would tingle, I felt like I was choking, and I felt I had to get out of wherever I was. If I was alone it was awful and I had to pop one of my pills and try to think about anything else to get my mind off of it. Most of the time though, I had someone with me. My boyfriend or one night it happened. I woke up to take some Tylenol cause I had a headache and all of a sudden-PANIC!! What could I do? I couldn't take a pill cause I had just taken Tylenol, so I tried to sit in my rocking chair to come myself down and it just got worse. I ran to my parent's room and woke my mom up and told her that I was having a panic attack. She immediately understood since she has been thru these before and we sat in the living room and talked-sometimes about interesting things sometimes about stuff that I wouldn't care to talk about at other times, but during a panic attack I need someone to talk to me. Just keep talking to me and help me keep my mind off of this thing and I'll get through. I do, I get through, but it's the most terrifying experience, you feel as though you are going to die. Anxiety is a disease to me. Sometimes I feel as though I no longer control my life that the anxiety controls it. But I must remind myself that it is only anxiety and
that no one has ever died from anxiety or a panic attack although I might feel it could happen at the time. Anxiety is a normal part of life, but when it interferes and leads you to avoid certain situations, then it isn't normal. I won't lie to you, living with anxiety can be hell, but you can live through it and eventually learn to control it rather than letting it control you. Good luck!
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