11/10/04
was gonna continue my search for a new job, but i'm too lazy. i really dont like the whole process of looking for a job. i like my job right now, but it's just a little far and people are a bit mean. the distance i can deal with, but mean people suck.

11/08/04
i got the coolest pea coat tonight from express. it's hot pink and it fits! i've wanted a pea coat for the longest time but could never find one that fit me. i love that store but i could never fit into anything there. usually their xs is big on me, but for some reasons the coat fitted great. must be destiny. ^_^ anyway it's so expensive ($148), but i figured i really need a nice coat and it'll last me a long time, plus i dont have to pay it off till january. but i kinda feel bad 'cause i shouldn't be spending all that much on it (expecially when i just bought those boots yesterday). i'm sooooooooooooooo poor. *sniff sniff

11/07/04
got up this morning and decided to go to the outlets to look for a new job; the only problem was, i didn't know exactly how to get there. there were times when i thought i was going the wrong way and wanted to go back. it took forever, but i made it there alright. instead of finding a job i found myself shopping. sigh. i got the coolest pair of boots ever! they look kinda like the shoes that eskimos wear. i had no idea nine west made shoes like that. i was soooo excited because i've been wanting them for a long time but could never find my size (5½).
i got my brothers new coats. although the shoes i bought cost me an arm and a leg, the coats were so cozy and adorable i couldn't resist. i wanted them to have nice coats for the winter. after my little shopping spree, i went to see them. all 5 of us sad down and had dinner. it was nice. after that i took my brothers to see "the Incredibles". great movie! they really like it.

11/06/04
"If I never knew you
I'd be safe, but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true
I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever If I never knew you"

11/01/04
you are not for me. it took a lot of time, and thinking, but i've finally realized that we were not meant to be. beeing with you for so many years yet i really dont know who you are. it's funny how a stranger would know you more than I. sad really. sure you talked, but you dont really talk to me. you never once told me how you felt... about anything. when something bothered you, i wanted to help, but you never tell me. you made me feel helpless. if i can't share your sadness and worries, why do you need me there? why did you put up your glass walls on me? maybe that's why we failed. i was not able to break down your walls. and also because i didn't know how to share you. you never had a lot of free time and when you do, i want to spend it together. was that so wrong? i dont think so. it's amazing that we lasted that long though...us being so different. opposite in every way. thank you for the memories. i wish you happiness. someday, i'll fine "the one just for me".

10/25/04
i've come to realize that i am alone by my own choice. i didn't want to admit it, i am lonely because i choose to be. i dont like change. i dread new things. i am afraid to go places and meet people; I am scared that they wont like me for who I truely am. I fear that they'd find me boring. although i hate being lonely, i'd rather be alone than be rejected.

10/21/04
day 5 of my vacation. still sitting at home doing nothing. not that i'd want to do anything in this weather anyway... rain and cold. makes me want to just crawl back into bed. I might go visit Kellie at her school tomorrow. don't know yet. sigh.
I miss my brothers. yesterday was Hung's birthday. I think he turned 11. Wish i could've seen him to say happy birthday. why does life have to be so complicated?

10/19/04
every time i thought i had it all figured out, you came back and made me doubt myself. even though i knew i'd end up getting hurt, i wanted to see you still. i dont think it is because i love you, it's just my loneliness. i need someone to be with. i want to be held. I know it is not LOVE. i have to believe that.

8/13/04
i wanna see "Hero" it looked sooooooooo good!!! coming out august 27th. cant wait!

8/03/04
silly me went to work on my day off. i didn't look at the schedule. so when i came to work, they're like what are you doing here? i'm like, "working". they're like "you dont work today". so i said "shut up". then they said, "no really look at the schedule". so i did, and sure enough, i have off. sigh. anyway, i spent my day shopping for stuff for my house. i'm gonna redecorate it. i'm so excited. it's going to look great! i found this really cool bed set, but they didn't have it at my mall, so i had to drive all the way to another mall. i almost got lost getting there. i got a bunch of stuff for my bathroom and bedroom. went the wrong way trying to get home. sigh. why am i so bad with directions?! took me forever to clean my bathroom and bedroom. and i didn't eat anything since yesterday. so i decided to get a break. maybe i'll continue on Sunday.

7/19/04
back from my vacation. it was wonderful!
1st day: got to Los Angeles. checked into hotel, and went shopping!!!
2nd day: Disneyland!!!!! it was great we spent 10 hrs there. bought lots of stuff. went on a bunch of rides. oh and i went on my first roller coaster ride (thought i was gonna die)lol. we saw a live Aladin show. it was great!
3rd day: went to Santa Monica beach. got sun burn (ouch! still hurts). went back to hotel and swam in the swimming pool. in the evening we went to Venice Beach for a nice dinner (yummy)! after dinner we went for a nice walk. the houses there were gorgeous!
4th day: Hollywood! got a tour of some nice sites.
i took about 5 rolls of pictures. i'll post them up as soon as they're developed. i tried to do the one hour photo thing, but stupid me filled out the wrong thing, so they sent it to Marryland to be developed. sigh. why cant i ever do anything right? anyway, it wont be ready till Wed.

7/11/04
went out with Kellie today. i got a manicure and pedicure and she got a pedicure. then we went to diner. after that we went shopping. went to 3 different stores, but didn't find what i was looking for. :( after we hung out, i had to go to our store for inventory. *sigh. took sooooooooo long. didn't get home till 11:30 PM. going to CA on thursday! wont be back till the 19th.

7/07/04
went to dinner with my ex and his nephew today. after that we went to the mall and got me a new phone. yay!!!!!! i love my phone. dont know how to use all the features yet and too lazy to read the thick manual. heehee.

6/23/04
saw "Day After Tomorrow". it was a good movie. filled with compassion. i was touched by the love a father had for his son and the dedication of a doctor to her patient. i was moved that a man inlove would put his safety in jeopardy for the woman that he loves.

6/18/04
bought plane tickets to CA 2 days ago. it wasn't what i wanted, but i bought it anyway, because i didn't think i could find a better deal. now i'm so stressed out by it. the departure time is at 6:00 AM... that means i have to be at the airport by 4... which means i have to leave my house by 2. as if that's not bad enough, we'll get to LAX at 10:30 AM. we wont be able to check into our hotel until 3:00 PM!!! what are we going to do till then? sigh.
our return flight is even worse. flight is at 11:15 PM. we have to check out at the hotel at 12 in the afternoon. what will we do for 11 hours?! we'll arrive at the phl airport at 9:26 AM... which means i have a few hours before i have to be a work.
i tried calling the airline to see if i could change the times, but they said it'd cost like 100 something dollars PER ticket! i'm so..... so... i don't even know what i am, but i know i want to go jump off a bridge.

6/01/04
i came to work and found out that the korean guy that's been calling me stopped by an hour before i got there. he came and talked to one of our associate and told her to tell me that he said "hi". About an hour later, he and his friend walked pass our store, and the girls were like "go out there and talk to him". i'm like, "no way. i don't wanna talk to him". being such good friends that they are they told Ashley to run out there and get him. i begged her not to go. but she went anyway (to get back at me for doing the same thing to her a few months ago). he came in and talked to me for like 10 minutes (while everyone was standing around pretending to do something) needless to say, i was soooo embarassed. to make the long story short, he asked me out.

5/21/04
going to be 23 on Wednesday. gosh i feel so amazingly old. i thought i'd accomplish so much by that age: be married (or at least engaged), have a great job, a nice car, and a beautiful house. but like every other goals/dreams/wishes i had, they always turn out to be disappointments.

5/20/04
went to my brothers graduation ceremony (sp?). it was the longest and most boring 3 hours of my life. oh did i mentioned uncomfortable? there were no seats left. all of us (my mom, 3 brothers, and I) had to stand the whole time. we listen to people (after people after people) ramble on about junk. old people talk too much! made me almost fall asleep. anyway, that's not the worst part. getting out of a tiny parking lot took us more than half an hour!!! i got home a few minuted ago at 12:30 AM. i'm so exhausted. almost sleepy time for me. i thought i was gonna die driving home tonight. i could barely keep my eyes open.

5/10/04
you made me laugh
you made me smile
you made me lonely
you made me cry

you made me promises you could not keep
you made me frown
you made me weep

4/18/04
i got a manicure and a pedicure today (for the first time in my life). my hands and feet looks so pretty. ^_^ and i LOVE the polish she put on my nails. i forgot my wallet at home so i couldn't tip her. i felt sooooooo bad. i didn't have to pay for the manicure and pedicure because i had a gift certicate. anyway, when i go get my massage i'll tip her extra to make up for it.
when i got home, i had to do some cleaning. after that i went to a car wash and i washed my car (all by myself) for the first time. like everything i do for the first time, i did it wrong. sigh. i was supposed to start from the bigining of the thing. i start at the middle. i rinse, they used the foam brush, then rinse, then foam brush, then rinse (again!) then wax, then rinse, then spot free rinse. sigh. it took so long. and i dont even know how much i spent.
anyway, after the car wash, i went back home and cleaned some more. i was exhausted and feel asleep on my couch.
i saw "Kill Bill". it was really good! i love how they spoke japanese in the movie. it's such a beautiful language. wish the whole thing was in japanese. lol

4/13/04
love is such sweet sorrow
"it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" or is it? i'd rather never to have loved.

4/4/04
why do things have to be so complicated? i wish to find happiness and peace;instead i found loneliness and pain.

4/1/04
i got up early this morning to go to the dentist. got there, and they told me they couldn't clean my teeth because i had heart surgery in the past and they don't know if that will cause any problems. they said i'd have to see my medical doctor and ask them whether or not it was ok, and to release my medical files to them. sigh. so i had to sit there and wait for them to clean my honey's teeth.

3/31/04
it's only 1:41 AM and i'm already exhausted. i think i'll go to bed early tonight. i have a dentist appointment tomorrow @ 11 AM. eekkkk.

3/15/04
i've been so busy these past few days cleaning and redecorating my house. it took me three days to clean 4 rooms, now what does that tell you? heehee. yes i'm THAT messy. and i'm still not done with the laundry. think i have too much clothes? naahhhhhhh. lols anyway, my house is spotless now. and i'm exhausted. i need a maid. ^_^
oh good news! i've decided to go back to college. yayyyyy i'm so excited. my major is going to be....can you guess??? Web design! i can't wait to start. but i haven't actually applied yet. i need to find out how to pay for it first. i'm looking into some grants and scholarships, but they all require you to write essays. and i suck at writing. :( anyone know of any good grants or scholarships?

3/06/04
just got off the phone with my mom. i haven't talked to her for a while. i miss her and my brothers. we talked for like an hour. i don't remember the last time we talked that long. we talked about a lot of things, mostly about my dad, how terrible he is. not fit to be a father, nor a husband. i know it sounds harsh, but then again you don't know the kind of person that he is. now and then, i feel guilty for leaving my mom and my brothers. i wish i could be there for them every day... care for them,to protect them,talk to them,listen to them,and teach them. but all i can do now is love them and pray for them.

3/03/04
got up at 2 this afternoon. we were both starving so we went to the usual place (outback steak house). i needed some socks, so we went shopping. i got a lot of stuff, but i forgot the socks. heehee. after the mall, we saw "Passion of the Christ". it was..... well it wasn't what i thought it was. very graphic and sad. we felt all weird after the movie. anyway, we were hungry again so went to "denny's".

2/28/04
what a long day at work. it was soooo busy. and everything was a mess. sigh. one of my associates made me mad, so i ignored her the whole night. i can't talk to people whom i'm mad at. because if i do, i'm just gonna end up saying mean things which i'll probably regret later on. i need a new job. a grown up job. one that can support my expensive habbits. lolss. working with teenagers is so stressful. i don't want to do this for the rest of my life.
i think i'm getting sick. sigh. my throat hurt. :(

8/8/03
Some people at work made me so mad tonight. I was busy with merchandizing the whole day, and because we were under staff, there were 3 racks of "put backs". At the end of the night a couple of people asked me to help put the clothes back, although it is not part of my job I do it anyway. But one sales associate was being mean about it and made me feel as though I was slacking off. So I told her that that was not part of my job discription. She went on and lecture me about how it's every body's job. She was saying how it wasn't her job either; I told her that it was her job. I wanted to say that it got out of hands because she didn't do her job (but I didn't). Anyway that really pissed me off. I gave them the silent treatment till the end of the night. They tried to make me laugh and apologize, but I was still angry with them. I hate it when people tell me what to do. I work hard for the store but I always feel like i'm not appreciated. And I feel like they take me for granted. I sometimes but my responsiblities aside to help them with their jobs so now they expect me to do their job for them. When I don't do their jobs they make me feel like $#!%

8/3/03
We went to get our dresses today, the moment I saw it I was saying to myself, " I'm gonna HAVE to wear THAT?!". I was rather upset that I didn't get a say in it what-so-ever. I mean I understand it's her wedding and all, but for me to have to spend that much money on a dress like that ( which I'll only wear once) is totally ridiculous. What makes it even worse is that the smallest size they have is a 2; it was HUGE on me. I'd have to go and get it altered which cost more money and time ( and the wedding is next month)! I know she's my friend and that it's her wedding and I should suck it up and do whatever she wants; but I can't help but feel resentful towards the situation. I thought that we should have spent more time on looking for them. We spent a few hours in one store, most of which was waiting and trying them on. I still feel upset about being forced to buy that.

8/1/03
This month is gonna be a busy one for me. Since one of the assistant managers quit, I'll have to do her job for a month. Oh, on top of that I have to do my job. Wish they'll pay me extra for doing so much ( but they wont). That's not even the bad part, on the second week of August I'd have to rearrange the WHOLE store. We have thousands of merchandises. It'd take FOREVER. sigh. By the way, I keep hearing that the Vice President of the company likes my work. My store manager told me he really likes the walls that I did. That made me so happy that people appreciate all my hard work. Hopefully I'll move up to the corporate later in the near future. On Sunday (8/3/03) I have to go shopping for the bride's maid dress. Next Sunday, I'd have to go to the bridal shower which I haven't a clue as to what I should bring. Sigh. But After this month, Mr. Oanh ( that's what the girls at work call my BF) and I are gonna go on a cruise. YAYYYY Can't wait. I've never been on one before. I'm so excited. It's a five day cruise. And right after the cruise We'd have to go to the wedding. Should I catch the bouquet?

7/7/03
There was bad news at work today.Although it didn't affect me, i felt bad for the rest of my co-workers. A lot of them were demoted (mainly management). They don't know why or how much of a pay cut it's gonna be, but regardless, it SUCKS for them. I feel so bad and I wish I could help.

6/28/03
Dear Dolly,
The pics are AWESOME! The costumes are sooo cool. I LOVE the one with the wings. is that from Final Fantasy? Oh look you've got the whole Fushigi Yuugi team on there (including my beloved Hotohori). Is that for me? lol.Too bad he doesn't look half as good as the real one (I'm not sure REAL is the proper choice of word for him though). Hehe. What's that pic to the left of FY? is that from Bakuretsu Hunter? The two girls look like Chocolate and Tira Misu. Oh look you even have Devil Hunter Yohko in there. Kawaii desu ne? One question though: the pic with the two guys that looked like they came out of Star Wars, what anime was that from? Awww don't we look cute at the end? heehee. So sweet and innocent. Anyway, I'm so glad that you shared your experience with everyone. I wish I could've gone to one. I missed going to them. No doubt you had lots of fun. Did you buy anything?

6/25/03
Nothing new here except that I'm gonna be all alone for 3 days. My honey has left me to go visit his mistress down in Louisiana. J/k. But seriously, he went to LA to see his relatives. It's gonna be a long not to mention lonely 3 days. We've lived together for about 9 months now and it's the first time we've been apart. I miss him already. What am I gonna do without him? I can't function on my own. *sniff sniff* Oh I gotta go. You-know-who decided to call me. lol.

5/12/03
Today was Quoc's six Birthday. For those of you who don't know who he is, he is my baby brother. Although he is not a baby anymore, in my eyes,he will always be my baby brother. He is the one person that I love the most in the whole world. I also love Hung (10),and Dung (11). They are all very precious to me. Anyway, my honey and I went to visit Quoc at his school. We went to the office and asked the secretary to page him there. We sat down on one of the chairs and waited for him eagerly. I haven't seen him since Christmas eve. Minutes later,I saw him walking slowly in front of the door, he had this look in his face; He looked confused. I felt like a total stranger. It made me feel so sad that the one person that I love so much didn't recognize me. I came closer and hugged him. Holding him in my arms felt so good. I missed him so much. We went inside,and he sat on my laps. We talked a little ( mostly me; he hardly said a word). My honey showed him what we got him for his B-day. After that I told him to go back to his class. It was so hard. I didn't want to let him go,because I didn't know when the next time I'll be seeing him again. I wish I could've taken him with us. I just got off the phone with my mom. It's been a while since she's called. I was surprised. When I picked up the phone,it was Quoc. We talked a little. He asked if I wanted to come visit him tomorrow. I've been waiting to hear those words for a very long time. I wanted so much to say "yes",but unfortunately, I have to go away on a "business trip" for a few days. I told him that I'd come on Sunday. My mom got on the phone, and we talked for a while. I don't think we've ever talked that long before. She told me what they've been up to... how Dung was in a concert at his school the other day. It made me feel guilty and sad at the same time. I wish I could've seen him played his flute. I want to be there for them,and when I couldn't it made me feel like I'm a bad sister. But I'm going to try harder starting Sunday. My mom's going to take all three of them and we're going to hang out. I can't wait.

3/15/03
Yesterday I went to my honey's restaurant to help out for a couple of hours. I don't mind helping, but I sure didn't like working there. It was so crowded and lots of people smoking (I hate that)! Anyway, I got home at 8 o'clock and went online (surprised?). heehee. It was pretty boring untill I went into a chat room and someone said my name. I didn't know who it was till he told me. It turned out he deleted his old screen name without tell me his new one. Needless to say, we talked for hours. Then my honey called at 2:30 AM and asked me to come to the restaurant to help him clean up. After we were all finished, we went to Wal-Mart (nothing else was opened at that hour). We bought some frozen food and snacks. And every time he goes to there I always say "NO DVDS!!!" Guess what he did? He wondered into the DVD section and was looking at them. I quickly pulled him away and we went to the check out place. All of a sudden, he say "can you go get me a mango?" I was like "What?! What do you want a mango for?" But being a loving gf that I am, I went and got it for him. When we got home, I regret what I did. Let me tell you why. That boyfriend of mine is the sneakiest boy in the world. While I was going to get the mango, he paid for some DVDS. I can't believe he tricked me. GRRRRRR!!!! I was pretty steamed at him for a while. But since he's so cute and loveable, I forgave him. heehee

March 06,03
It's 11:51 AM and I can't go back to sleep. I usually sleep until 5:00 PM (so what if I'm lazy?),but today someone called my cell phone and woke me up. It turned out to be the lady from the bank. Unfortunately, I didn't get the job I wanted. They had an internal person who was also interested in that position, so they gave it to that person. She did however,offered me another position. Everything sounded great until the "you'll be working from 8-5. Ahhhhhhh!!!! too early!!! There is no way I can possibly get up that early. I usually don't go to bed until 4 AM. That mean I would have to get up by 7 every morning ( I'd be a walking zombie)!!!! Sigh. Why can't it start at 6 PM? That would be perfect.
Anywayz, I finally talked to my japanese friend last night. I met her through a japanese website. I read a note saying that she's looking for someone to teach her English in exchange, she will teach them Japanese. We've been E-mailing each other for like a week now. Last night I saw her on AIM, and we talked for a while. It was kinda hard since I don't know Japanese and she doesn't know a lot of English.

February 18,03
Nothing new going on here. I'm so bored. There is absolutely nothing to do in Ephrata. Good news about my job search though, I've got an interview on Monday. I'm so nervous. I hate interviews. I'm worry that I'll mess up. *Ahhhh*. Wish me luck! I'll need it. I have to have this job. I can't stand staying home anymore. Plus I feel bad that my honey has to take care of me. What a sweet man!

February 15, 03
I was still sleeping when my mom called me ( at 11:30 AM ). I got to talk to my three little brothers. They all sounded sooooo cute ( especially Quoc ). He's so adorable. I miss them so much. I dreamt about them EVERY time I close my eyes. Remember that song that Cinderella sang at the begining of the movie? I don't know what it's called but it has a line in it that I like " A dream is a wish your heart makes..." I guess that's why I've been dream about my brothers. Because I love them THAT much. sigh. Wish I could see them.

February 10,03
Many things has happened, since I last wrote in my journal. I am currently unemployed. I loved my job, but it was getting too stressful for me, therefore, I had to get away. Honestly, I do miss it, especially my co-workers. We had so much fun together. One thing I don't miss... the customers. I saw a bumper sticker the other day, it read, "I've been to hell. I work in retail." I laughed and said to my honey "that is so true". Do you know what makes it "hell"? The customers. You will never know unless you've been there.

June 18,02
Work was OK today. Wasn't really busy, so the store looks nice and neat. We hired a new girl named Thuy. This was her second day working. and my first time meeting her. She was doing fitting room when I got there. I don't know who trained her (probably no one). She wasn't good at it. It was only her second day so guess it was OK, so I didn't yell at her. Oh yeah! We got new walkie-talkies today. Only managers and the person in fitting oom were allowed to have them. We were playing around with it. It was so funny. I wish they'd send us head sets so that the customers wont hear our conversations. Anyways, enough about work. I don't have to go to school anymore. Yay!!!!!! It was horrible having to get up at 5:30 in the morning and commute to school. And I hate that stupid school. I'm never gonna go back there again. I'm not sure if I want to go back to college at all. I think I will, but not anytime soon. I know I want to make something of myself. I'm just too lazy right now. My honey and I are going on vacation soon. We don't know where we're gonna go or what we're gonna do though. It really doesn't matter where we're going anyway. The most important thing is that we get to spend 5 who days together. Yay!!!!!!! Can't wait. Susie called me yesterday to ask if I wanted to go play pool and stuff. I was soooooooo tired and didn't want to do anything, so I said I didn't want to go out. Then I felt bad 'cause I didn't want her to think that I didn't want to hang out with her, so I told her that she could come over and we could watch anime. We spent the whole night watching Princess Miyu. She left at around 11pm. She lend me her dvds (Ceres) . It was soooooooooo good. Ceres was created by the same person who created Fushigi Yuugi, so naturally it was great. Can't wait to see the rest of it.

April 14,02
My honey called me at 9:00 this morning to let me know he's gonna be at my house in an hour. He was supposed to be here at 9:00, but I over sleep and he got his time wrong.lol He came an hour later, and we exchanged gifts. He got me a beautiful bracelet made of platinium and diamonds. I love it sooooooooooo much. I'm never gonna take it off. Can't wait to show it to the girls at work. They're gonna be so jealous. heehee. I got him 2 DVDs that he likes (Fast& Fearious and Rounders) and a kitty (no, not a live one!) I kinda feel bad that he always buy me stuff. I mean I really like it an all, but it's not good that he spends most of his pay check on me. He spoils me so bad. Anyway, we went back to Lancaster and came to his church. It was too crowded so we left. We went to McDonald and got something to eat. We went back to his house. His dad came home like 10 minutes later. We (honey,me,his older sister & her husband,his younger sis & her boyfriend) left for Philly. We got to Dave and Buster and played games for a few hours. After that, we ate dinner at a vietnamese restaurant (Vietnamese Palace). It was yuuummmmyyyy. ^_^

April 7,02
I saw my honey today for a few hours. Since he had to work at 3 o'clock, he had to come pick me up at 9:00. I didn't want him to come at first because we would have to get up really early (especially him 'cause he went to bed late last night). Furthermore, he would miss church and his dad will yell at him. Anyway, he got to my house at 9:30. We went and got some things to eat and stuff. He dropped me off at 1 o'clock. I called him about 15 minutes later to talk to him and keep him company. We talked for a while, then I had to go take a nap. I was a bit tired (You'd think I'd be used to getting up early by now since I get up at 5:30 AM everyday.) I had a bad dream and was luckily woken up by my sweet honey. When I answered the phone the first thing I said was "what day is it?" lol. I thought I'd slept for a day or something and had missed school. I was so scared. He thought I was joking so he didn't answer me. I kept repeating "what day is it?" heehee. I was relieved to find out that it's still Sunday. Then he dropped the bad news on me. He told me that they wouldn't give him off next Sunday. They said that they're giving him his going-away party that day. So, he has to go to work. What a disappointment. I HATE his restaurant!!!!! It's always over working him and keep him from me. Sigh. I was schedule to work next Sunday too, but I was trying to find people to cover for me, I finally found one yesterday, and today ... it's kinda pointless. Oops I didn't tell you why we needed to be off next Sunday did I? Well, next Sunday (April 14) will be our one year anniversary. I can't believe it's gonna be a year since our first date. On the one day that we both really need off, our work wont allow it. Why are there always things that's trying to keep us apart? Sigh. Oh well. Nothing we can do about it.

April 4,02
I was at school today and class was going so slow. Since it was the first class of the quarter, we didn't do anything. Mostly intro stuff. The teacher went over the syllabus and told use what to expect in the class. Then he showed us a video about the designer ... oh what's her name? I can't remember. Anyway, I had the teacher 2 days ago (but for a different class) so I already know about him and saw the video. Class ended at 11 o'clock. My honey was waiting outside my school to take me home. One the way home I fell asleep. I didn't get much sleep the pass couple days. We got to my house and rested for a while. Then he took me to work. Work wasn't busy when I got there, which makes the time go slower. About an hour after my honey dropped me off at work, I was talking to one of the girls at work, and I saw this old guy walked into the store with a dozen beautiful roses. I immediately knew it was for me from my beloved. I knew that it had to be from him because none of the girls who work there has boyfriends as sweet and romantic as mine. Anyway, They were all so jealous. They made little comments about it throughout the day. I was so embarrassed. Every one was saying "awww". Even the customers thought it was nice of him. They were all telling me how sweet my boyfriend was and that I'm really lucky to have him. I told them "I know!"

April 3,02
The alarms went off at 8:00 this morning. I didn't want to get out of bed. I did not go to bed until around 3 o'clock last night (was busy chatting with some friends). I had to force myself out of bed and got ready to go to work. Before we went to the mall, we made a quick stop at the bank so that I could deposit my check. I was gonna do it later, but I'd written a few checks to my school the day before, and didn't want them to cash it, and found that there's no money in my account. So anyway, I got work an hour early (had to be at work at 9:30). I was gonna leave later, but my mom has a doctor's appointment, and couldn't take later. I spent my time at the mall trying to find a bathroom, then put on my make up. After that, I called my honey. He was still in bed. Lucky guy. Wish I could be in bed then. Anyway, work wasn't busy at all which makes it soooooooooooo long and boring. My honey picked me up at 6 o'clock. By then I was so exhausted I was gonna pass out. Anyway, we drove to Philly for dinner. We went to his fave restuarant (we got the usual stuff). It was yummy. I had such a wonderful time with him. I've missed him all week. I'm missing him right now (he dropped me off ½ hr ago). You know what? I think I'm gonna give him a call right now before I go to bed. *yawn* soooooooooooooo sleepy. I have to wake up at 5:30 tomorrow morning too! Stupid morning class! sigh.

March 29, 02
I got up at around 12:30 this afternoon. Didn't have anything to do, so I decided to do my laundry. I did a few loads, then I got a call from my friend, Susie. She wanted to hang out. She got to my house a few minutes later. I made her wait a little, while I was getting ready (her fault for giving me such short notice). We went to play pool(I won by the way). Of course I cheated a little. I kept hitting the eight ball in, but that's ok 'cause I just take it out and put it back on the table. Heehee. We don't play by the rules ('cause we suck so bad). Following the rules will just make it more difficult for us and we'd never get anywhere or have any fun. Anyway, after pool we went to DQ and got ice cream (I believe it's called Brownie Earthquake). It was YUMMY!!!. We went to visite Susie's sister, but she wasn't home, so we decided to go see a movie. We saw Panic Room. It was pretty good (a bit scary though). I didn't really like the ending. After the movie, we went back to my house and watched anime. Well, she watched anime while I finish cleaning my room. I can finally see the floor now! heehee. The question is how long is it gonna stay like that? Susie left at 10:30 PM. I went online to see if my honey's sent me any e-mail. I couldn't talk to him on the phone 'cause my cell phone was cut off ('cause I didn't pay the bill). But I paid it this morning so it's back on. I got a letter that he sent me last night after our date. He was just saying goodnight. I got a call from him a while ago. It's so good to hear his voice again. ^_^ School isn't going that well for me. I got my report card today. I got A's in all my classes except for my pattern making class (I got an F) on it. I was doing great in that class at the beginning, but then I got a job and didn't have time to do my homework (which takes up an unreasonable amount of time). I just couldn't find the time to do it all. I'm so mad at myself for failing that class. What a waist of money and time. It dragged my GPA down so much. I went from 3.9 to 3.1 now. Arghhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! I'm so stressed right now. Now I have to go and drop the pattern making 2 class. Since I didn't pass the first part, I wouldn't be allow to take the 2nd part. sigh. On top off all that, I still haven't paid my school bill and I haven't gotten my schedule for next quarter (which starts on monday). Susie said I should consider going to school as part time. I don't know. I want to get out of there as soon as I can. But then again, I'm gonna be working full time now, and I don't know if I can handle being a full time student too. I don't want work to get in the way of my school, but if I don't work, I wouldn't be able to afford school. Sigh. It's so hard. I don't know what to do.

February 23, 02
I just got a letter from my Art History teacher, and guess what? I got an "A" on my midterm essay! Yay!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooooooo happy right now. That just made my day, no wait my WEEK!!!! I've been really worried about it the last few weeks. I didn't hand it in on it's due date(about two weeks ago) and was afraid that I'd get a "F" for it. But luckily he let me hand it in late. He's such a wonderful teacher! Wish ALL my teachers were like that. Anyway I'm really glad that I got an "A" on it. I don't know if I deserved it or not, but I'm still happy. I stayed up till 1:30 this morning to do it. Yay!!!!! I got home from work about 15 minutes ago. Work was okay today. It went by really fast. The only thing was that it was so hot in the store and they couldn't turn the heat down till the store manager got there ('cause she got the key to open that thingie that controlls the temperature). She didn't get there till like 4 hrs later. I was sweating like a pig. Heehee. not really but it was pretty hot. Anyway, she got there and changed the temp. Then it got cold! Brrrr. You know what's funny? I was working when my assistant manager called me up to the check out counter. As I walk up there, I was thinking, "oh gosh what did I do now?" heehee. I don't know why I thought that since I never did anything wrong. Anyway, I got up there and she's like, "Stop working. You're working too hard. Help me play this game". lol. She was playing solitary. I didn't like that game, but I hung around anyway. There were like 6 of us in the front of the store and we were just standing there talking, looking at the accessories and stuff. Man, if my store manager were there, we'd be in trouble. heehee. Anyway that was it.

February 22, 02
I had such a bad day today it's not even funny. I got up at 10 and got ready for school. I don't know what I was doing, but I didn't get out the door till 10:59. My bus comes at 11:05 (sometimes earlier). My mom drove me to the bus stop. The second I got out the car. It hit me. I forgot my course selection sheets! And this is the last day to sign up for classes. I think I might've said a bad word. But I mad a quick decision and told my mom to take me back home. I raced upstairs, got my stuff and ran back out the door. We got to the bus stop. And I BARELY made it in time. Whew! I almost got run over by cars while trying to cross the street on a green light though. I got off the bus 45 minutes later, and got on the train. And I got off at the WRONG station! argh!!!!!!!!! sigh. I had to wait till for the next train. I thought I was gonna be late for class. I don't want to be late 'cause they take off a letter grade if you're late two times. You also loose a letter grade if you skip class. So anyway, I got to class on time. We took notes for like 2 hrs, then we had a 15 minute break . I decided to go register for my classes. There were a few people waiting in line, but it went by pretty fast. My turn came and the lady told me that I did it all wrong. I was supposed to follow this sheet that tells me what I should take, but I didn't. I went back to class and had to do the whole thing again. Class ended an hour early, so I went to register agian. I had to wait so long. There was only on girl infront of me. I thougth it was gonna be fast, but noooooooo. She had to sit there and chat. I got really impatient and annoyed at her. Here I am in a hurry and she's just sitting there with the fashion director chatting about stuff and laughing. grrrrrr. Finally it was my turn and I got there to talk to the director. She told me that 2 of the classes that I wanted( pattern making II and computer pattern making I) are closed. She said she's thinking about openning another class for pattern making II. The other one, comp. pattern making I, she's not going to. I had to substitute it with another class (fashion sketching II). I finally got it all worked out. I went upstairs and asked student accounting if they've received my payment for February. I sent it a while ago, but I forgot to put a stamp on it and I didn't put a return address on it (stupid me). Anyway, they didn't. So I had to write another check. Now that I've taken care of those two important things, I only have to go and print out my english essay(that I didn't hand in last week). After priting it, I had to walk all the way to the other building (seven blocks away). I didn't get lost this time! yay. heehee. I put it in my teacher's mail box, and headed toward the 30th street station. I was so tired of walking; I thought my legs were gonna fall off. Got home at 6:00. Got a phone call from my friend. She wanted to hang out but I had to be at work at 7:00. :( Went to work and got my pay check. It was way less than I'd expected it to be. But oh well. Better than nothing. It's enough to pay for college.

February 21, 02
Wow. February is almost over already. This month is flying by so fast. Time flies when you're having fun huh? NOT! It's flying 'cause I'm so busy I don't even know what day it is. As if being a full time student hasn't taken enough of my time already, I have to go and get a job. Now I have no time to sleep. Sigh. Before I used to get like 12 hrs of sleep a day; now, I'd be lucky if I get six. The things I have to give up for my education. My sleep, my computer, my friends, etc. Anyway, here's what's new. I just got a job at my absolute fave store. It has the cutest clothes, and get this... I can actually fit in them! YAY!!! I'm doing great in school. I found out that I got As on my midterm for four of my classes. My other class, fashion history, I forgot to hand in my essay. So, I don't know what I'm gonna get on it. Sniff sniff. I'm so worry that I'll get an F on it. I'm so close to making straight As again. I'm hoping/wishing/praying that my teacher will be super nice and let me hand it in late. waaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh. :( I saw my honey yesterday. He came to take me out to lunch before I have to go to work. He brought me a dozen red roses. It's so beautiful and smells wonderful: just like my honey. Now whenever I come into my room, I can immediately smell it and it makes me think about my wonderfuly thoughtful boyfriend. ^_^ Anyway, we went to this really nice restaurant near my work and ate there. The food was delicious. After lunch, he took me to work. I really didn't want to go. I wanted to spend more time with him. I hadn't seen him for a week, and I only get to see him for a few hours. Besides, I had a really bad headache and felt like I was gonna throw up. When work was over( eight LONG hours later), he came and picked me up. We went to get something to eat. And spent some quiet time together.

February 05, 02
My day started out slow and long, and I was very tired due to lack of sleep. But it all changed when class ended when a certain someone surprised me.
I was in english. We had to do a lot of work. I was counting the minutes till class was over. I was struggling to stay awake. Finally class ended at 11:30. I walked back to the train station. The walk felt longer than usual today because of the cold and windy weather. I slept most of the time on the bus. Then I felt my phone went off. I looked at the number; it was my honey. He said he was on his way to work and was calling to see how my day went. We talked for a while. We were still talking when I got off the bus. He told me to hold on 'cause he had to talk to someone. I was walking when I heard from behind me, "Can I buy you a fifth sandwitch?" I SCREAMED!!! I screamed really loud. Guess who it was? My sneaky honey. He was lying to me the whole time making me believe that he was in Lancaster. I can't believe he surprised me again (for the 100th time). I sort of knew that he was going to do something like that today. I thought he'd come to my school though, not at the bus stop. Anyway, we went back to my house. I got ready so we could go out. We went to the mall. We walked around, played at the arcade, and ate lunch. He spent $101 on CDs!!! Crazy boy!. I bought a really cute necklace and a matching pair of earrings. ^_^ We left the mall and went to play pool. We played for a while. He won (of course). He always win. After pool, we decided to see "A Beautiful Mind" (which starts at 7:15). We had an hour, so went to eat dinner. The movie was alright. At time it was confusing and scary, but over all, it wasn't that bad.

January 14, 02
I was going on here so that I could yell at my "loving boyfriend" for what he wrote in his journal(see below). Then I saw there's no need for that because at the end of his journal he said that everything is "fictional". lol. I wish he would put that all the way at the TOP and in large prints.heehee. Anyway, since I can't yell, I figured I should at least write something to ___ you. (I'll let you fill in the blank) Class was boring today (all my classes are). I had my "industrial equipment"(I have no idea what that is) class today. I'd miss the first day so I didn't know that I had to bring for that class. So, while everybody was laying out their patterns and cutting their fabrics, I sat there and talked to the girl that was in my clothing construction class last quarter. We made fun of this one girl in our class. She's soooooo annoying. She's the kind of girl that acts stupid and stuff to get attention. Anyway, I was in the class for a while. The teacher said that I can leave as soon as I show him that I can thread the overlock machine. I hate that darn thing! It takes forever to thread 'cause there are 3 needles. So many holed to put the thread through. It took me like 10 minutes (if not more). Sigh. I left class at around 2:30. I was gonna go to the school store and buy a book for my other class. But, I was lazy, I didn't feeling walking 7 blocks in the cold.

January 03, 02
It's 3:46AM. I can't sleep, and I have one thing to thank for that... Mountain Dew. I couldn't sleep, so I decided to work on my other webpage (one of the hundreds of webpages that I have). I uploaded some of my drawings that I did over the years. I don't draw anymore though. No time to draw, besides, I think I've lost my "talent". Unfortunately I don't have a scanner so my drawings didn't come out so well. *sniff sniff*. Oh well. They don't look that good anyway. Anywho, my day was ok (in other word... BORING). I didn't do much today (so what else is new huh?). I got up at 2:00PM (yes, I'm a lazy @$$ so sue me!), ate, called my school to ask when they're gonna send me my schedule. They said that they don't send it out and that I have to go pick it up (how inconvenient). sigh. After that, I figured I should clean this dump I called my room. It took me forever, and it almost killed me. I had used up all my energy moving my junk around, that I almost passed out. After all that hard work, I decided to spend some quality time with my computer

December 16, 01
My friend Susie came to my house at 10:00 that morning. She stoped by to give me my Christmas presents, and to pick up a present that I got for our other friend (Allison). I was gonna go with Susie to visit Allison and give her the present myself, but since the "get-together" was on Sunday...I couldn't. Because my Sundays belong to my BF.^_^ Anyway, while I wait for my honey(who was late)to show up, Susie and I watched the anime video that she gave me. It was pretty good (even though most of the parts were really violent). I can't wait to find out what happens next. A while after the movie ended, my honey showed up. YAY!!! And he brought presents.^_^ He reached inside his bag and brought out a really cute white bear with wings. It's adorable and really soft! He has such good taste in stuff animals. heehee. Anyway, when I walked over to hold the bear, I noticed she's (the bear is a girl by the way) wearing a gold locket in the shape of a heart. I was sooo surprised. That boy is so sneaky!!! A while ago he asked me what I wanted for Christmas, and I said a locket. A few days later he said he couldn't get it. And now...I still can't belive he got it. Isn't he the sweetest? I'm never gonna take that locket off.^_^ Anyway, after I got my gifts, I gave him his. Then, Susie left (to go to the mall) and my honey and I went out to dinner. We spent the rest of the evening together. And I had a wonderful time. Too bad it had to end. Oh well, back to counting the days until I get see him again.

December 06, 01
Today was an okay day. I woke up at 10:30. Got on the bus at 11:00. After a few minutes, I saw my friend Tammy came on the bus. Then our other friend came up from the back of the bus and we had a little "reunion".lol. We talked for a while, then I had to study for my final exam so I didn't talk much. Class was okay today. We didn't do anything except work on our power point project. I'd finished it already so I just sat there and study for my exam. I was so nervous. I thought I was gonna fail it for sure, because I kept reading stuff, but I just wouldn't sink in. I did my power point presentation near the end of class. You don't have to show it today, but you get extra credit if you do. A few people went. They were either cute or boring. There was one that was really GROSS! Not to sound conceited or anything, but I thought mine was the best. Anyway, when lab was over, we had to go to our lecture classroom and take our final exam. I was sooo scared. I kept thinking to myself "Oh my God, I'm gonna fail". But when she handed out the test, I'm like "yay. I'm not gonna fail". lol I don't know how I did on it, but one thing is for sure, I DIDN'T fail. ^_^

November 16, 01
It's been such a long day. I went to school an hour early because today was the last day to register for classes for next quarter. And before I could do that I had to go see a few people and take care of some problems. So, I decided to go see my financial advisor before my Art history class at. I got there at 11:00 and guess what? She wasn't there. They told me that she'd just step out to lunch( just my luck)! my honey just called me, so i gotta go and give him a call. I'll continue this later. Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, she wasn't there so I decided to go to the main building and surf the net till I have to go to class. I stayed in the library for like an hour, then I went to class. We had a quiz in class. I think (I hope)I did well. We took notes for the rest of the class. After class, I decided to go back to the Culinaru art building ( which was 8 blocks away) to see my financial adviser. On the way there I got lost. I was in some alley way where there's nobody there except some homeless people of something. sigh. I managed to find it though. I saw her, and it turned out they made a mistake. They said I didn't turn in some forms when I did. So she signed my paper, and I was off to the main building again. This time I didn't get lost. lol. Lots of walking today! Anyway, I finally registered. Yay. ^_^

October 17, 01
I was in my clothing construction class today when my honey called me. I was sitting there trying to do my project when I heard something beeped(softly). At first I didn't think it was from my cell phone because I'd put it in silent mode before class. The phone beeped then stopped and started again a few minutes later. I was thinking to myself that maybe it is my phone, so I decided to check my book bag, and sure enough it was. My honey was calling me. I couldn't answer the phone 'cause I was in class, so I decided to go to the bathroom so that I could call him back. Besides, I needed to take a break. That class was stressing me out. I talked to him for a while and it made me feel better. We talked for about 15 minutes, then I went back to class. Class ended ½ hour later. I packed my stuff and left. I got out of the building for 3 seconds, and I heard a voice behind me asked something that sounded like "can I buy you a sandwich?" lol. I recognize his voice, but didn't turn around I kept on walking. I couldn't believe he came to my school. I was really glad that he came cause I missed him soooooooooooo much. But I was kinda embarrassed that he saw me without my make up on. I really don't like it when he sees me with my natural looks. Anyway, we went to Chinatown for lunch. Then we went back to my school so that I could type my homework that was due earlier today. It didn't take long only about 15 minutes. I got home at around 4:30 PM. I wish I could've spent more time with him. I've missed him terribly. Well, I'll get to see him on Sunday. Can't wait. ^_^

October 15, 01
I dragged myself out of bed at 5:35AM. I was so tired 'cause I didn't get much sleep the night before. I left the house at 6:20. Went on the bus and I think I feel asleep on the bus for a bit. I got off the train and since I had a little time I decided to go get coffee. 'Cause I knew there's no way I'd make it through my first class without falling asleep in it. I drank half the cup of coffee, but it didn't do me any good. I was struggling to stay awake in that class. But it was impossible to keep my eyes open any longer. I feel asleep for less than a minute when I heard my teacher yelled, "Oanh wake up!". It scared me. Then it turned into embarrassment, and then guilt. sigh. The good thing was that I was totally awake after that. Heehee. I was surprised that he knew my name. I guess my name was strange and I had to fix his pronunciation so many times that he remembered it. The goodness that no one in there knew who he was talking to. lolz otherwise my face would be so red that I'd never be able to go back to that class again. Anyway, the class was over at 11:00 (an hour early), so I decided to go to the library and do my homework (that I didn't do on the weekend). I went to my color theory class. We had to paint our drawings today. In the middle of painting, the fire alarm went off. The teacher weren't there, so every one sat there and stared at one another for a few minutes. We didn't know what to do. We finally left the room and got out the building. If that was an actual fire, I think we'd be dead. We had to stand outside the street for like 5 minutes and went back to class. I continued with my painting. Good thing my paint didn't dry out or I'd be in trouble. It's hard to mix the same color again. When I finished my one picture I decided to leave and do the other one for homework.

October 14, 01
I woke up when I heard my honey's father tell him to get up. I didn't get up though. Noises from upstairs woke me up again. But I went back to sleep. My honey came down and cover me with the blanket. He came down again a while later and kissed me on the cheek (he had no idea I was awake). Isn't he the sweetest?.^_^ Anyway, I got up at around 11:00 (I think). I went to take a shower upstairs, but I couldn't get the hot water to work. So I decided just to wash my hair. Then went downstairs and helped his mother cook. Heehee yeah you heard it right. Me, the girl who couldn't make anything but fried eggs helped with the cooking.lol. We all get ready and went to the church at 2:30PM. The wedding was BEAUTIFUL!!! I almost cried at one point when one of the priest read something about Love. I was thinking about my honey when he was reading it. By the way, my honey looked soooooooooooooooooooooo handsome in his tux. My mouth dropped when I saw him. lolz I couldn't stop staring at him. He was adorable. The reception was at the bride's restaurant and it was beautifully decorated. I played with the kids most of the evening. Then my honey dragged me to the dance floor. Heehee. It was a lot of fun. Later that night he disappeared to who knows where. His mother told me to go look for him. I even went outside to check if he's there. But he wasn't. Then I got frustrated and upset. No one knew where he was. His dad even asked me where he was. sigh. He showed up 'bout half hour later. I wanted to yell at him. Anyway, he took me home a while later.

October 13, 01
Saturday was my honey's sister's wedding rehearsal. The wedding is on Sunday. So we decided that it was a good idea for me to sleep over his house. My honey came and picked me up at 8:00 that morning. I didn't pack the night before, so I was running around my room trying to get everything I need for the weekend. We got to Lancaster, and since it was still early, we (actually HE) decided to go to the outlets and shop. Then we went to his house. I wasn't nervous up to that point. When we parked in his drive way, I panicked. I didn't want to go in there cause his parents are there. I've never met them before. To make the long story short I met his parents and relatives that day. It wasn't as bad as I thought. We went to the rehearsal. His parents, the others, and I left at about 10:00PM. My honey had to stay there and help clean up and prepare for the wedding the next day. When we got home I went to my room. I tried to do my homework but it was hard to concentrate, so I decided to go to bed. I couldn't go to bed either. I couldn't stop thinking about him. I was wondering what he's doing or if he's tired. I missed him so much. I wish he was there next to me. I finally fell asleep a few hours later. Then I felt someone's kiss. I opened my eyes and my honey was standing there. *Blushing* It made me feel... I don't know how to describe it but, when I saw him, this indescribable feeling overflows through my body. I knew that everything's gonna be okay. I felt safe when he's beside me. I was able to fall asleep faster.

October 1, 01
Today was my first day of school. I got up at 5AM. I was so tired 'cause I went to bed at 3AM. Anyway I got up got ready. It was raining and I was gonna wake my Mom up to take me to the bus stop, but I didn't want to bother her. The bus stop is only 10 minutes away anyway I didn't want to drag her out of bed just for that. The walk to the bus stop was so scary. It was raining, very dark, and quiet. There were no cars on the streets. I was gonna stop by the store to get school suplies(like papers) before I go to the bus stop, but the store wasn't open. The bus came sooner than I'd expected. That's good I guess 'cause I didn't want to wait there. I was so amazingly sleepy on the bus. I finally got to 69th street 45 minutes later, got on the El and got off at 15th street. I was lost a little bit when I got on to 15th street. I didn't know which way to go. So I turn right and kept on walking. Luckily it took me to Chestnut Street. Then I knew where I was. I was there an hour early so I decided to go to Staples and got my supplies. I was gonna go get something to eat, but I didn't feel like eating. It was way too early to eat and I was so tired. I got in the class room half an hour early, so I just sat there and waited for class to start. The class was called Fashion History. The teacher lectured about the Egyptian style of clothing for like 3 hrs. It was sorta interesting but it's hard to learn when all you can think about is your bed. The class ended an hour and a half early so I went across to Liberty Place to eat. Then I went into some stores and got shoes. ^_^ Went to my next class which was Color Theory at 12PM( I was half hour early again). It was OK. Class ended an hour early. By then I was exhausted and my pack hurt (from carrying that super heavy book bag) I just wanted to race to the El and then take the bus and go home to my soft and comfy bed. I got home at 5PM. I was kinda hungry but I was more sleepy than anything so food can wait. I went upstairs changed clothes, got into my bed and I was out like a light. I got up at 8PM cause my bro woke me up. I went downstairs and got food and watched t.v. Then I heard my phone ring and raced upstairs It was my honey!!!!!!!!!!!! yay!! We told each other how our day went. I talked most of it 'cause all he did was work all day( nothing interesting about that) heehee. It was so great to hear from him after a really long day. I thought about him the whole time I was there. Well, maybe some of it. I spent most of the day trying not to fall asleep. It's so nice to go home and have someone ask you "honey how was your day?" ^_^
Thank God I have tomorrow off so I can spend all day sleeping to make up for my lack of sleep. I have to get up at 5 again on Wednesday though. sigh. That suck! I will definitely not get use to that. There's just no way.

September 27, 01
I went to my orientation today. I got there at 11:00 but they told me to come back at 2:30. I said what am I suppose to do till then? My brother already left so I couldn't go home. So I decided to go shopping.^_^ heehee. I came back to the school, filled out some forms and took a test. Then I went and got my supplies. When I saw it my jaw dropped. lol. There were six text books in the book bag. It probably weights more then me. I could barely lift it with both hands. There were 3 other bags full of supplies. I called my brother to pick me up, cause there's no way I could've carry all those and take the bus. I waited for an hour and a half. My feet were killing me and I was hungry, tired, and my back and shoulders hurt from carrying those heavy bags of clothes. Anyway he finally came and we went home.
My first class starts this Monday(8 till 4:30). Sigh. So long and far. I don't think I'm gonna make it through the first week. Since I'm so used to doing nothing except eat and sleep. heehee. But seriously I think this is gonna be really hard on me. There's no way I can get use to that.

September 26, 01
Another date with my honey. Yay!!! He came to my house at about 10:30(early as usual). I tell ya, that boy has no sense of time what-so-ever.lol. He always wants to surprise me(and always succeeded)for some odd reasons. I wasn't ready, so I made him wait for me.heehee. Oh and guess what?! He got me coconut juice. I'm drinking one of them right now. heehee.Yummmmmmyyyyyyyy!!!^_^ He knows I *LOVE* it so he got me a bunch. Isn't he the sweetest? Anyway, we went to Long Wood Gardens today. It was soooo pretty. I love that place. I've always wanted to go there with someone I really like. And I finally got to go. Oh! and when I got home, I got the cards that he sent to me a few days earlier. It said the sweetest things and it melted my heart. He's made so many of my wishes come true.^_^ He's the most caring person I've ever met. He spoils me. There's nothing I want that he wouldn't give or do for me. He treats me like I'm a princess. ^_^ I'm so very lucky to have a boyfriend like him. I love you honey.

August 26, 2001
Today my honey took me to Lancaster to his sister's party. We got there at 3PM and stayed till 'bout 7:30. It went all right. I mean I'm not a very social person, so even if it was the coolest party in the world, it'll be okay for me. Besides I didn't know a single person there. I met his older sis and her fiance for the first time. I wasn't nervous at all(at first), but when we're there it finally hit me. But I must say it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I guess that's because they(my bf's sis and her fiance) were both very nice. Sigh. The only ones left to meet are his parents. Maybe that can wait till next year. heehee.I wish. But I guess I can't put it off forever. Maybe I should get it done and over with as soon as possible. I don't know. We'll see what happens.

August 19, 2001
Hi ya'll. It's Lovely Angel's special person again. Just wanted to say hi to you guys. Nothing much happening these days. It's Sunday again and I'm not with my honey. Well at least I can see her next weekend. I miss that girl sooo much. She means everything to me. It may seem kinda rash that I have developed these feelings for her in such a short time but it's different in this case. Everything about her is perfect. ( in my eyes) She really does complete me in every way. All my faults she excepts and somehow makes them lesser of faults and more quirky idiosyncracies. She makes me laugh even in my darkest hours. She is always there to comfort me and make me look at the brighter side of things. Life now is just more......umm.... worth living (i guess that's the way to put it) I don't remember when I actually fell in love with her, because I can't imagine life without her love. Well I've rambled enuff for tonight. I'll talk to you guys later. Bai Bai.

August 14, 2001
It's me again! Lovely Angel's awesome BF. lol. I got to spend time with my honey this past Sunday. It was, to say the least, a rather weird day. Well to start the day off we went out to eat. (It seems like that's all we do!) lol. On the way back to her house my stupid car broke down. It seems that my thermostat broke and my car overheated. I had to walk like 5 miles for a gas station. (It was more like a couple blocks. I'm kinda lazy) hehehe. Things just went down hill from there. I had to have the car towed to a service station in the worst part of town. We decided to stay in a hotel for the night. After a long drawn out battle with her, I finally convinced Lovely Angel to call her parents to let them know where she was. Next thing I know her Papa wants to come pick her up. (They didn't trust they're only daughter with a deranged psycho like me ^_^) Anyways her Papa picked her up a little later on. I thought he was gonna give me the 3rd degree about trying funny stuff with his little girl. But he was cool about it though. Well she went home and i was stuck at this little crappy motel all by little lonesome self. sniff sniff. The next day was a whole ordeal in it self but I digress. All in all it was a good day, at least I got to spend time with my honey. I so appreciate how patient she was when I was freaking out. I couldn't ask for a more wonderful, caring, lovely girlfriend. Well gotta go now. Bai bai.

August 11, 2001
Hey there! It's me, Lovely Angel's favorite honey! I just wanted to let you know what happened last Sunday on our last date. It was so fun. (Well it always is when we're together) ^_^ Anyways, we went out to dinner at a Viet restaurant. I like the food there and my honey LOVES the coconut drink there. (Sowwie honey, I had to tell them) Afterwards we spent some quality time together. Needless to say we had a wonderful time. It's really nice to be with someone you really love. And I DO love her!!! We spent the majority of the day together. I took my baby home about 2 in the morning! I was afraid she would get into trouble for being out so late. Gotta go now. Bai

July 29 , 2001
My BF took me to Dorney park that day. We went on a bunch of water rides. After every rides we'd be freezing cause we were all wet and it was windy. It wasn't a good day to go there, but I had a lot of fun. We left a few hours later. We went to Philly for dinner. Then went to see a movie(America's Sweetheart). I did not like it at all. It was a terrible movie in my opinion. Anyway that was my Sunday.

July 23, 2001
My friend came over today. We went to the mall. I got a bunch of clothes. I was looking for bathing suit but didn't find any that I like. I needed to get sunglasses(I lost mine yesterday at the lake). It took a while but we finally found it. Then we had to find new shoes for me. Cause the shoes that I have are killing my feet. However,I didn't find any that look or feel good. Anyway, we got home and my parents and bros weren't home. And I had forgotten my keys. So I had to climb through the window(I knew my bros would leave it open).lol

July 22, 2001
VR picnic was today.My bf and I got there a couple hours after it started. Cause he had to go to church in the morning,plus we couldn't find the way there. When we finally got to the park,we didn't know where they were. So we looked for large group of asian.heehee. We saw a bunch of asians and was walking pass then and checking them out at the same time. But it wasn't them. So we went to another parking lot. Saw some more asian people and started walking toward them. We didn't see anyone and was gonna turn back. But then Nat called out my name.hehehe. We knew it was them. We talked for a while then went to the lake and got a canoe. We were paddling(minding our own business)when we were viciously attacked by some guys.Heehee j/k. But seriously they splashed a ton of water on me and my honey. We were both soaked from head to toe. As if that weren't bad enough our canoe fliped over! Good thing I knew how to swim a little. Then the guy who worked at the lake came and helped us. I was a bit embarrassed. But it was fun in the end and I had a good time. After the picnic we(honey,me,and Nat)went to dinner. Then we went home. It was a good Sunday.

July 16, 2001
Saw my bf today. We went to see a movie, Kiss of the Dragon. It was sooooo gross. Very bloody and violent. Really nasty. I saw like less then half of the movie. I closed my eyes for most of it. Didn't like it very much (as if you can't tell already). Anyway, after the movie we went to dinner at this Italian restuarant. That place is so pretty. Food is pretty good too. ^_^ I had a good time with my honey(dispite the horror movie).

July 11, 2001
I went out with my honey today. We went to see a movie(The Fast and The Fearious). It was ok. Some of the cars were pretty cool.But I didn't like the ending. After the movie, we went to Habachi. It's a japanese steak house. The food wasn't that great, but I like seeing the cheef prepare the meal.They do neat tricks and stuff.^_^Then we played some pool. He's so good at it(and everything else).heehee. Kicks my ass everytime.lol.

July 8, 2001
My honey came over today. Yay!!!! ^_^ But he was an hour early. Almost gave me a heart attack. Whenever he surprises me, I get so nervous and stuff, and my mind goes completely blank. I don't remember what I was gonna do. And I get all shaky. heehee. Anyway, we went to Philly for diner. Then saw a movie( A.I.). It was okay I guess. I didn't like the ending and some parts were kinda nasty. But it wasn't all that bad. I just got home about an hour ago. He's still on his way home. I hope he's okay. 'Cause it's such a long drive. I get so worried. Sigh. I miss you already honey. I had a wonderful time tonight. I always have a fun when I'm with you.^_~ Can't wait to see you again. I love you

July 6, 2001
My mommy woke me up at 9 this morning. I was tired and I didn't want to fall asleep('cause I had to babysit). So I made coffee. Drank the whole cup. yuck! heehee I don't like coffee. Anyway, I just watched t.v. till my mom came home. Then I went to my room to play on my keyboard. Then my friend called. She wanted to hang out, so we went and played pool. We both suck! heehee It was fun though. But I was really hungry plus I miss my honey, so we went home. Not long after we got home, my honey came online. we talked for a while, then he wanted to call me, so we talked on the phone.^_^ Sigh. Miss you sooooo much darling!!!

July 4, 2001
Today my bf drove me to Lancaster to meet our friend NT(for the first time). We hung out for a while playing pool and bowling. It was so much fun!!!!!!!! My honey kicked both our asses in the games. heehee. But we all had a great time right? ^_^ After the games, we went to a party and stayed there for a little while. We couldn't figure out what to do next so NT went home. Honey and I went to dinner. Then he took me home. It was really nice meeting you NT! Can't wait to see you again at the picnic. Lets gang up on *someone* and push him in the lake. ^_~ lolz

July 3, 2001
Didn't do much today. Got up and wrote a letter to my friend. Then went online. But noone up was on. So I downloaded some music. I found one of my fave songs. yay!!!! I've been looking for it for a while. Anyway, got bored and went dowstairs to watch T.V. Then my honey called. ^_^ Love talking to that boy. hehehe. We talked for a while then his phone was dying, so we had to hang up. So we talked online. Oh Nat was online too so we all went to a private chat room and party.^_~ hehehe. Those two were wild. I was an angel. lolz. Anyway, it was so funny. It was great talking to you Nat. Hope we do it again sometimes.^_^

July 1, 2001
This afternoon, my family and I went to Philly so that I could get my hair cut. ^_^ It hasn't been cut for a long time. So I figured I should do something about it. When we got there, it was so crowded. I had to wait for a long time. sigh. But it was worth it I guess. I like it(except it's a little longer than I want). Oh well. Oh, and my bf came over a few hours later.^_~ I was so glad to see him. I missed him terribly. Anyway I just got home. Now i'm waiting for him to get home and get online. It's 11PM he should be home in half hour.^_^ sigh. miss him already.

June 30, 2001
It's 3:48Am. I can't sleep 'cause it's so hot plus i'm sick. Nothing much happened today. All I did was slept most of the day. Went online and play games, and worked on my homepage. I was gonna go to bed at around 3 o'clock, but my bf got online. I was surprised. I thought he'd still be in VA. Anyway we chat a little, then he told me to get offline so he could call me. He's so sweet.^_^ We taked for a while. I missed him so much. sigh.

June 27, 2001
It's soooooooooo hot today!!!! 90 degrees and humid. sigh. I'm so bored. Wish I were at the beach.^_^ Anyway, I got up at 12:30 today. I was planing on sleeping till 2PM but the phone rang so I had to go answer it, and guess what?! The person hang up. Grrrrrr some people! Unfortunately I couldn't go back to sleep... so I went online to check my e-mail to see if someone ( ahem! you know who you are!)wrote to me. But noooooooooooooo no letter.sigh. heehee. Just kidding honey. ^_^ Hope to talk to you later. Miss you so much. *Muahhhhhhhhhhh*
Oops sorry got carried away there.heehee. So anyway, no letters....but I saw my friend (anh Duc) online, and we talked for a while. Then played some games.By the way he won most of them. 'Cause he cheated!!! I don't know how but he did!heehee. It was fun. Thank you anh Duc. Anyway that's my day so far. Did I mentioned it's really hot?!!!! hehehehe