COLD AS ICE

Thank you for visiting my page at Angelfire.

If you are visiting this page in V.P.Thank you for coming. This is a page for those who, need a friend, need someone to listen.

I hope you all find the Joy, Hope and Love, that I thought have found. In my eyes there are very few people that make a big difference in our lives.

I have been through alot in life but make no mistake there have been people who have been through more and I am sure that, I will go through more I only hope that I have an angel watching over me, I pray For this.

Me well it seems I had found this someone that showed me the things I know I have lost...

My Hope...

I had all but given up on ever finding someone who would be there when I needed them the most.I have learned that just because I feel there is nothing left doesnt mean that I am right.

My Joy...

I got up this morning with a smile on my face.It seemed new to me along with the people I work with they all think I am up to no good. And me being me just let them ponder it for awhile.

My Love...

Now there is a topic I am not sure about.I do know that if you were to take all Roses in the world and give them to you it would not even come close to what I feel.The material things people put so much time into dont mean nothing.I know that my heart beats again and it doesnt really hurt.

I will have to admitt I once had a picture here of someone. That someone one didnt really understand what life was all about. So they lied the became someone different. They tried to force things to happen. We all know that will never work that way. Alone again yes I am and am going to stay that way. There is no hope anymore. The lies and the mistrust has pushed me to far. I hope those who are taking the time to read this also take the time to remember that there are things that love just cant see through. There are things that you will regret and then it will be to late.

C.AS.I

Well I have been wrong before and I am getting used to it, I once though there was a chance in this world for love and a place for it as well.

Boy was I wrong, Life is not about love it is about how bad we can hurt each other.

It is the pain that makes us strong right? Wrong again. Pain doesnt make you strong it pulls all the caring, hope and Love out of you. And then all that is left is a shell of a person you once were.

I would rather live my life alone then live my life lonley,,

This page my seem dark and lonely but it is not about that at all it is about those who need love and need to find that one person who will hear them,,not just listen.

This spot is for that special someone who I am sure I will find. Someone who will stand beside me not in front of or behind me,,,but beside.

Rememebre you were here long ago, I still remember the things we did and the places we went. But that was long ago and I am sure time has changed everything, your heart is no longer mine. I miss that...

I miss your love and I miss your heart that at one time was mine for the taking and I am sorry for not having taken it when I had the chance......I STILL DO..

I just figured it all out. It has never been about me, ever. It was a means to a end. A way for a person to get where they needed to be in life. Do I miss it anymore,, Hell No!!

So I ask myself where do I go now? What do I do? >

So PEACE

I believe that the true test of love is time, I also beleive that someone can only indure so much pain before they say goodbye,,so here is the words no one wants to say and hear,,Goodbye

God I miss You

Hey all I have to write something here.

Jax

You listen to me,, you hear me, and you make no judgement. You dont pick sides and you stay clear of all the wrong that everyone in this cold world does. For this I thank you. Your friendship means the world to me as it does to so many, they just dont tell you. We all need to find a person like you to watch out for us and perhaps even be there when things are there worst..my Dear Friend Till the End..

So to all of my friends and you all know who you are Thank you, for all the things you have done for me. All of it was great.

I have to really thank "D.A.S.M", You tried I thank you for that from the bottom of my cold heart, It just didnt work, as much as I wanted it to. It takes two to make it work.

I would like to pass on something I learned, If you find that someone that you feel you cant live without, do yourself a favor,, dont ever walk away and dont ever let go, I mean Hold on as long as you can, And kiss her once more before you go to bed and hug her one more time before you leave for the day,, cause you can never get back what you lost. And you might miss, No you WILL miss it.

NOAH & JESSIE

You my little ones mean more to me than anything in this world and, you are growing so fast.

Noah the little boy who never likes to get dirty but likes to be the first one starting trouble.You will be alright.

Jessie my little princess,you on the other had we are going to have to watch,always dressed for the moment,dresses and such..and what are you doing Daddy underthe hood of that car,,as you but your hands in a bucket of oil..

I am not real good at poetry, or saying thank you, but here is a little note to those who I feel have made me the way I am today.

My mom,,I have to admit I have done some really stupid things in my time,,but you have always been there..you never get the credit you deserve...THANK YOU.

My dear friends at Ravens net, it has been so long, and I miss you all so, Sir Dark Raven, Cindy, and those who I have not mentioned, You all mean a great deal to me...Thank You.

Kelly and Kat,when all the things in this world have got me down you have been there to make me smile, friends till the end

Putz you my friend are ok even though I keep wondering what I am thinking, besides your mom is a great cook and your dad has helped me out alot.

D.A.S.M, Thank you very much you have been there for me when I needed you the most and "WE" Thank you for that...

Well everyone has been asking me about Tiny and who she is and what she is, well here she is. This is my 7'4" boa constrictor, Who is looking for a mate, She dont like to be lonely, but she is a very good little girl,,soon I will have pictures of Sable, Cinderella and Rain here for you all to see.

Hey all here is a couple of pics,this is what the jungles look like and they are very Pretty,Rain is mild manoured,Cinderella is a bitch,,she dun like anyone,,But they are my babies,too..

Personal Quote"Never look to where you have been in life, Only where you are going. Though the past may have got us to where we are doesn't mean we have to stay there."