"Girl, what's wrong with you?"  Sarah snaps.
        "Yeah, I mean...he just poured his heart out to you.  What's your deal?" Brian asks.
        I turn around, tears are flowing from my eyes, and I yell, "Do you think I wanted to do that?  Do you think I like doing that or something?  I feel bad enough, I DON'T need any lip from you guys!" I walk out the side door and start running.
        Sarah looks at Brian and says, "I better go talk to her, I don't want her to do something she'll regret.  She's not thinking clearly."

        When Sarah caught up to me I was getting into a cab.  She comes running up to me and grabs my arm.
        "Where do you think you're going?"  she asks me.
        "I'm going home, I'm only causing trouble here."  I say as I sit in the cab.
        "No you're not.  I'm sure all of them want you here."  She says
        I close the door and say to the cab driver, "Take me to Hampton Square please."
        Then I look at Sarah and say, "See you at the apartment."

        I reach up to turn off the alarm, I look at the clock.  7 o'clock.  I set up and slowly get out of bed.   As I do my cat Cougar jumps off the bed.  I walk into the hall and look in Sarah's door.  She's laying in bed, with my other cat, Meshach,  laying next to her.  I quietly call him.  As he runs out of the room, I close her door so I don't wake her up.  I walk into the kitchen and feed the cats.  As they eat I go into the bathroom and take a shower. When I'm done I walk into my room and change.  When I'm done with this I walk into the kitchen and start cooking some breakfast.  Just as I set the food on the table, Sarah comes walking in.
        "How can you get up so early."  Sarah asks me
        "I wasn't very sleepy."  I say  "Then I point to the table and say,
        "Hurry and eat.  We need to get to the studio in an hour."
        She sets down at the table and says, "I know I know.  Hey I wanted to know if we could talk about last night.  Can we?"
        "I don't think I really have a choice."  I say
        "Why did you do that last night.  I mean, I'm not trying to tell you what to do.  But he poured his heart out to you.  And you hurt him by turning your back on him."  she says
        "I didn't hurt him that bad."  I say as I pour her some orange juice.
       "Suzanna Lynn, he was crying."  Sarah says
        I set the bottle down and just set there.  Then I say, "I made him cry? Oh my gosh.  I've been so worried about getting myself hurt, I didn't even realize I was hurting others."
        I walk over to the couch and sit down.  Sarah gets up and sits next to me.  She sits there for a minute then says, "I know you're think you're a horrible person, but your not.  But you can't go your whole life worrying that every person you meet will someday let you down."
        "I'm scared Sarah.  I'm so scared.  Because I know, no matter how much I fight it; I love him too."  I say
        Sarah throws a strange look at me and says, "You really do love him don't  you?  Well, you've got a few choices.  One, you can go for it, and forget about your fears.  Two, you can go on hurting him and yourself, because I know you're dying inside right now.  Or three, you can just tell him you'll only like him as a friend and go your whole life wondering what would have happened if you would have went for it."
        "You make them all sound so inviting"  I say sarcastically
        "I think you know what you should do.  But it's up to you, and you only." Sarah says as she gets up and walks down the hall.  Then she says, "I'm gonna get dressed, be out in a while."
        "OK"  I say.