"Oh gosh AJ.  I miss you."  I say nearly crying.
"I miss you too love." AJ says "How was your flight?"
"It was OK, I slept most of the way."  I say.
"I always sleep when I fly." AJ says. "Donna and Johnny asked me to ask you if you got their present that they left in your purse."
"Umm...no, I didn't even really look in my purse; I'll look now."  I say picking up my purse.
I open my purse and see a box wrapped in blue and silver wrapping paper.  I open it up to see an All Access Pass to the guys concerts; it's even signed by Johnny Wright.  There's a note in the box.  I pick it up and read it; it says, 'Suzanna, you are very precious to us all.  We know that you'll be coming back to us; so whenever you come back, just meet us at their concert.  This pass will get you, and whomever else, in the gate, and directly backstage.  We love you.'
"Tell her that I said thank you, it's very sweet."  I tell AJ.
"OK I will.  May I ask what it is?"  AJ asks.
"It's an All Access Pass to all our your concerts."  I say, then I read AJ the letter.
I can tell that AJ is almost going to cry; just like I know he can tell I'm about to.  In a way I just want to go back and be with him, but I know that I have to stay with Sammy.
"Well, babe, I just wanted to make sure you're OK.  The guys told me to tell you to expect to get a couple calls a day, and I'll call you everyday."  AJ says.
"OK, I'm looking forward to it."  I say.  "I love you baby."
"I love you too."  He says. "Bye."
"Bye."  I say.
After hanging up the phone, I fall on the bed crying.  Tiffany runs over to me to give me a hug.

(with AJ)

After hanging up the phone, AJ just sits there with his face in his hands.
Howie walks over to him and asks, "Man are you OK?"
AJ snaps, "No, I'm not OK.  I can't even hold the love of my life, do you think I'm OK?"
Howie starts to walk away and says, "Sorry man, I'm just worried about you."
Howie starts to walk out of the room when AJ says, "Man, I'm so sorry.  I shouldn't be snapping at you.  I'm just so upset right now; it's like I don't know what to do."

(a couple weeks later)

 Sammy's condition is starting to get worse; she has less energy and sleeps a lot.  Tiffany and I can tell that her end is nearing.  I'm starting to feel better about the idea of AJ and me being apart.  I don't like it, but I'm not as upset as I was before.  He and the guys have been faithful to call me at least twice a day.  Even though AJ's talked to me less and less.  Howie has spoken to Tiffany on the phone a couple of times, they seem to like to talk with each other.  Sarah always keeps me informed on all of the gossip.