Title: 45 Repent 1996
Size: 30" x 40"
Description: Mixed Media Collage on canvas
Comments: This was the fifth in a series of the next group of paintings I used my own face. Now that my own face was on the canvas it was if I were spilling my “guts” on the canvas so that everyone would know who I am. It was unnerving to me painting myself in the same way I painted the generic pictures from magazines. By the fifth painting I was a little more comfortable on how to alter my face. Still experimenting and stretching myself on how far I would go. Making sure that at least my eyes and mouth are still exposed and unaltered while having the freedom to do what I want with the rest of my face. As if God exposed my sin the natural next step became repentance. For me repentance or turning from the evils like pornography is what my Christian life is all about. It is interesting to me how in this series of paintings continued to break the surface of who I was and started to get to the core of my dark past. My last painting entitled “Wicked Men” began exposing what was truly in my heart and my true emotional and spiritual state was beginning to be revealed. Than with this next piece called “Repent”, showing me in the painful state of seeing how God sees my heart. And that I need to turn from my wicked ways and ask Jesus for forgiveness. No longer looking at the church in America but becoming very aware of my own sin.