4/26/05--Wow the drama president race is bad, really really really bad. It's tearing people to pieces, friendships are dying, the world is going crazy! DO NOT ASK WHO I AM VOTING FOR! Garh well anyway I am super busy and super brain dead so I don't have much, well actually I have more to talk about, but eh. That's all for now. Goodbye.


4/20/05--Blogging is just something I have not had the will power to do lately. I guess it is just because I've been so busy, it's crazy really. I find that I have more to say when I am bored out of my mind then when my mind is full of everything I should be accomplishing at the moment. The play has been so crazy this time around with all of the scene changes. I mean there are only seven completely different sets, that's not much at all is it? Uh right. Bailey's been going crazy which is understandable... it's just so hard to get things on and off stage. This is the worst it's ever been. But hey it always turns out alright, this is my eight play here (and my last, tear) and it never falls apart or anything. Sure there are little mistakes but that is just part of life, you move on and learn from them, usually they don't even matter. Like using an owl instead of a rat as a prop, no one notices except for you and the other actors onstage. So yeah, hopefully I will get to go to Borders this weekend to finally pick up the last volume of CCS Master of the Clow. That'd be nice, right now I just want the play to end but then again at the end I'll probably be crying inside. I highly doubt I'll actually do it on the outside. But eh, onward I will march (no idea). Well yeah, I forgot what I was just going to say on this blog, I'll remember as soon as I click save here and post it but that's how it goes... Ugh I could say so much more but the bell is ringing in two minutes so I best be going! Tschus!


4/17/05--So yeah I haven't blogged for over ten days, I've just been uber busy with everything. This weekend we've been playing so much cube and sitting around, etc... Dude Mortal Kombat Deception is so bloody but it's freakin awesome. WE played it last night and I stayed in five times in a row. That was pretty sweet. Sure I was "cheap" by using the same move over and over but it worked. Then Rachael came in later though and started doing the same thing, I knew how they felt. I spent over five hours writing my second draft yesterday for English. If anyone tells me that the essay needs to be re-written I'll go crazy. But it's all right because I laid back and played cube afterward. I've checked out so many books for the library, if only I weren't so lazy and read them. Wow electronics take up too much of time... well that and school. I need time to read. Well that's all for now! Tschus!


4/6/05--Due to the tremendous amount of work that I have today, and will have tomorrow, I highly doubt that I will have time to blog much. Therefore, this blog is very very short. Stress galore! I am thinking about getting a different layout though, if I every have the time! Well that's really all there is to say now, I'll blog sometime this weekend or next week if I make it thru this one!


4/4/05--Lately I've been regretting a lot of things that I did or did not do in life, none involving anything highly immoral or illegal mind you. Just run of the mill, oh I wish I would have done that, or I wish I wouldn't have done that, then maybe things would've turned out differently things. But then I realized that if I could mess with my past like that, I don't think it would be a good idea. Sure if someone gave me the opprotunity to jump back into my past and change a few things I'd probably do it, but at what cost? I mean the temptation would probably be too strong but then again I'd be messing with everyone else's lives to. I mean personally I do not believe that everything is predetermined. I believe that we control over our own lives. But if I went back into time and changed things for my own personal gain, I'd probably end up screwing with everything. Think of the movie "The Butterfly Effect." What did the dude try to do? Fix everything and it went horribly wrong. I'm only human, I mean I doubt I could fix everything to make it better. I guess I've just been thinking about this since I only have around 6 weeks left until my journey after high school, which scares the living daylights out of me. I realized this while washing my hands in school today, well after overhearing a conversation about how everyone wants to get out of this freakin place. Why does everyone want to leave so badly? Don't they realize the memories they're making, the things that they'll have to leave behind. Everyone keeps telling me how much I'll love college but I'm not so sure. Not that I adore the freakin' social system in high school, or how everyone stabs one another in the back but I'm sure that's life. I just keep wondering, if I have this many regrets now how many will I have when I'm 30? 40? 50? 60? Will I ever get that far? No regrets, ha I have tons of them and I'm just wondering if I'll ever be content. I mean I'm not sad right now, just really confused about the rode ahead. Just had to get this out I guess, the WWW probably wasn't the best place but eh what can I say?


4/1/05--"After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music." The quote from the top of my blog section. You know that has held very true for me lately, although I have to disagree on the silence portion of the quote. Personally, I believe that music is one of the few things that can truly express the inexpressible. Music just seems like this tool for emotion, you can plug all of this inexpressible feeling into an orchestra and that orchestra can play out its heart... Joy, Sadness, Pain, Truth, every possible emotion. So I guess this is all coming from the fact that I've fallen in love with classical and instrumental music all over again, not that I ever fell out of love with it, I just lost it I guess. You know how that is? No one listens to it, you get wrapped up in other things, but then it comes back. My attempt at learning the clarinet has also returned with this sudden rush! YES! I have willpower!!! I have gotten much further this time, past jingle bells! Which might not sound like a great accomplishment, but for me it is the first step on truly learning. Although I believe that I am going to have to resort to asking Steph if I'm even playing the thing correctly. Sure she plays sax, but eh she knows how I should play clarinet also. I keep squeaking and I believe that I am bitting on the reed to much or something. Eh I need to buy new reeds most likely, the old ones have been sitting in the case since the summer. Yuck. So yeah, today was another pointless half day, although I did get a whole page of my Organic Paper finished! I'm also pysched because I already wrote my first draft of my English paper, sure it's not very good but eh that's what drafts are for, right? Yeah McDermott gave us a fairly difficult quiz in Trig today, everyone was sweating. Few people had figured most of it out, and then she said that only three minutes were left in the period! We all started freaking out but then she said "OOPS! I forgot the last question... "What is today?" Then she says "April Fools!" and starts laughing. Whew was I relieved. Although I guess I normally don't fair well on quizzes anyway. Eh I am thinking about buying Double Dash for gamecube since we have been playing it a lot lately, and it's also my favorite video game. I just refuse to pay more than $30 for it, sheesh. I cannot comprehend why a video game costs so much! Anyway this blog is EXTREMELEY LONG, I guess it makes up for a my days of not blogging! I am going to sign off and read or something (Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norell that is, great book btw, rather lengthy but I WILL finish it) so Good Night, or Good Bye depending on when you read this, whoever you are!! Hi Steph and Drew, you are the only two who read this anyway!


3/27/05--So yeah, I've been looking on Ebay and I've determined that Ebay is not so good for those of us who want to sell our junk! Sure Ebay's great for those who want to buy stuff cheaply, but the stuff I want to sell? I am finding out that there are zero bidders for most of the listings. I went thru my cd and video game collections and found numerous items that I would like to get rid of, preferably to make some cash. Yet eh, I cannot find anywhere where I can get money for it all. Anyone have any suggestions? I have two dreamcast games, a few Genesis games, numerous cds, and a dreamcast keyboard. If anyone's interested in purchasing it just let me know! I know gamestop takes used games, but I also know they pay nothing for them. My brother and I were going to sell them a used gamecube but they'd only give us $40 for it. You can get at least $10 for it on ebay. Eh though, Easter Sunday! I was going to work on my prescription drug paper for Organic but I lost my rubric for it, go figure. OH yeah! I updated my DA like a madwoman, four new postings! So go check it all out! Good Bye and Happy Easter!


3/24/05--Battle of the Bands rocked.. sure the music wasn't good (sorry, not my type of music) but I ended up playing several card games in the lobby. Viel Spass!! Today I also traveled to the City Museum with German Club. No one I knew well was there, and I felt a tad bit out of place, but I just asked to walk around with some people and it all turned out all right. We climed through several small caves, and playground type things I suppose. For those of you who have not been there, it's indescriable really.. but it's SO MUCH FUN! When we were in the Enchanted Caves the fire alarm went off and the whole building had to be evacuated. Needless to say, the German students (exchange students from Minden that is) were very confused... but I saw a few of them snacthing photos lol. I am hooked on classical music again, not that I ever stopped being hooked... I just went thru a month phase of not listening. I really really really really want to learn how to play the clarinet that has been sitting around in my house. It's like I have this great desire to play this music, I want ot become the music. When I listen to this songs of love, of pain, of joy, of every imaginable emotion I can get lost in it.. I just wish I could create some of this beauty myself. I know I sound crazy there but seriously, there is just something about classical music, instrumental music, it's just different somehow. More beautiful I guess. I mean I've listened to the other stuff, nothing compares... I'm like that in a lot of aspects I guess, I have this great will to learn so much about science, about the world, about music, but I just do not know how to grasp it, how to understand... you know? Well you probably think that I am crazy by now.. Good Night...


3/22/05--I just finished "The Tempest." We are watching it in a very shortened version tomorrow. I love Shakespeare, I can finish a play in less than an hour and a half. Of course I just skimmed this, since I am watching it tomorrow! I am so tired, I do not even know why but tomorrow is basically Friday! Good because I need a break. Although I am going to try my best to get work accomplished and read Slaughter House Five. Well I'm extremely tired and unable to think, so good night!


3/17/05--I'm leaving for the GI State trip today! I am so excited, as everyone is! I am also going to Wash U for German Day today with German III and IV here. So that means my school day is almost over at... 7:24 a.m.! I'm currently in the H.S. library blogging since I will not get to at home. I also got news yesterday that people actually read this! Well uh two that I know of at least, Steph and Drew! HA! Yeah this blog is incredibly boring, not much to say really besides I am heading off to state! I find that when I have a lot going on I tend to have less to say on here! That is probably a good thing!


3/14/05--It's Pi Day! The magical number that helped out mathmatics so greatly, I am not really sure how but it's in a lot of formulas so I'd say it's pretty important! Plus they donated a whole day to it! Anyway so the whole yearbook/GI conflict is resolved I think. Bailey talked to Miller, and then to Harres and they have resolved a period of time in which I can work on yearbook this week. That is super because I know that yearbook needs to be finished and I thought that there was no way I could do it with GI, but eh it's great that it's resolved. I felt sooo horrible about it, note to the world: do not get overinvolved in high school activites (or in anything for that matter)! You WILL drive yourself crazy. I believe that I am going to be in three organizations TOPS in college. I serioulsy do not believe that I could do this whole thing again! It would drive me crazy, and if I could I would do things differently. But I guess that is what everyone says.. thinking about it though if I changed my past, it would probably change other people's pasts, which would in turn cause absolutle chaos and that probably wouldn't be so good. But yeah the play is coming up and I am going to work on yearbook, because yeah I have to. Although this play is super, my role's not that big but eh I love the script! It's pi day! weeehoo! I only wish I would have made a t-shirt, wow I am a nerd. I love math! I just cannot understand it for the life of me... why is that? I think I have an ability to love things I cannot understand, although I do love history and politics and I understand them, I think... not sure on that one though but eh. Life is SO confusing, whoever said it was not lied. Nothing is simple, everything is complicated and just being a live is so risky, but eh in the end everything works out for the best I suppose! I'm in Honors Study Hall and pretty bored, still bored from the no homework! Well that's all for now... tschus!


3/12/05--GI gets to go to state! Weehoo! I do not think that any of us expected this to happen, when they announcd it at the awards ceremony we all just sat there, confused... So this might mean that I miss school Friday, which would be kind of cool. LoL. Well yeah I'm uber excited about that! Eh no homework this weekend really, but nothing to do now... I hate how that happens! Well that's really it for now!


3/10/05--Ok so problems midterm? It was much easier than I anticipated. I should have deticated more time to study for Organic and Trig considering I stared blanky at the paper during my test in Organic and quiz in Trig. I serioulsy think that I am going to start studying for my next organic test NOW! Sure it's probably 2-3 weeks away, but eh? Why not? Can you fail a test and still keep the same grade in that class if it's in the middle of the range? I dunno.. so college update, you think I've chosen? HA! HA! That's funny! Although I am leaning toward one school... I do not know for sure yet though. It's such a HUGE decision, and by golly I blog about the same thing each day! So all of the Extemp magazines, with the exception of The Economist, were thrown into the recycle bin yet I ended up snagging at least half of them... They are currnetly in the back of my car, I am crazy yes. I need to look thorugh them, sure the editions of Business Week are outdated but eh, still interesting. My new mission is to find a pair of shoes manufactured in the United States, I want to see how long this takes me... anyway enough of my nerdy life for today! That's all folks!


3/7/05--I think school hates me. Ok so the quarter ends Friday right? Well all quarter I've had things pretty easy, with the exception of German bah. Well this week all of my teachers decide to load me full of tests and quizzes that can change the course of all of my grades, therefore also lowering my GPA. I guess I'm already accepted into college so I should not be concerned, but I still am. I want good grades, I just cannot wait until this week is over and I can breathe once again. Group Interp practice was pretty fun today. Numerous scences exist in which we have to ad-lib, so Steph and I just started dicussing random subjects that were pretty funny. We started acting out lines from an HI, dancing the Irish potato dance so to speak, and saying "dude..." You'd have to see the HI to get it I suppose. I also had to go to the bathroom at one point, so I was crossing my legs. Everyone was looking at me and said "uh I do not think that's part of the scence, we don't stand that way..." I finally muttered, I have to go to the bathroom! Ms. Miller just said, then go! I ran so fast, Steph was cracking up. I also burped throughout the practice, due to Drew brining Code Red Soda again. Prior to GI I rarely drank soda but Code Red tastes so good... I'm back to drinking a can full of sugar at least once a week! I need to read over the script for the play and decide what parts to put down, not that it matters. I don't have to try out! Weehoo! Only because I have GI of course, but ah well. Wow I was looking thru old pictures of my first freshman play, and I almost had a heart attack. Those pictures made me realize how much I had forgotten, and how long ago that was. Also that I'll be graduating. I almost couldn't take it. I mean yeah I've been talking about college non-stop, and yeah techincally I know it's coming to an end, but it just had not hit me yet... I mean it's going to end, I'm going to college. It was almost like, crap what the heck? What am I doing with my life? I mean right now I'm pretty content, I'm finally at a place where I am sure of who I am, and now I have to go onto the next stage. The whole premsis of the thing scares me, being on my own, alone, in a world full of strange new things. I serioulsy am scared to death. But eh, it's something I have to do... So I'll just learn to deal with it I guess. Well Good Bye for now.


3/6/05--Yeah so I am very very very very lazy today. I've decided not to study at all, risky I know. Well for Drama that is. I'll probably go over my Organic reactions or something. I think I've caught spring fever, it's not soo good. My attitude right now is seriously: I'm accepted into college and I need to focus on picking the right place. I seroiusly cannot see myself in college in general, the whole thing scares the heck out of me. I really just want to stay here right now, in high school. Well nah that's not true, I just do not want to have to face the whole college thing. I do not understand senioritis (sp). I mean yeah I want to get out of high school, but I really don't want to face college. I dunno though. Another college spiel, fun eh?


3/4/05--Ok so campus visits are supposed to help you decide what college you want to attend right? Well in my case they have not helped at all... So I visited U of I last night/today and loved it, but at the same time I loved ISU. So basically I'm just as confused as before. Who knew that deciding on a college could be this difficult? This weekend was also some beer festival at U of I so that did not help me much either. But my cousin Chris swore that this is not an indication of what the school is like, I just came on a really bad weekend. Basically I'm uber torn between two different universities and the tours did not help much really, at all actually. Either way I'm going to be thrown into a whole new world and will have to make friends, either way I could possibly do speech. Sure ISU's team is better, but U of I's academics are slightly better. I guess ISU's a tad bit smaller, but quite honestly the size of the school doesn't matter to me. Any unbiased advice at this point (becaue all I have been getting is biased advice from people attending both schools) would be much apperciated because I still have NO IDEA! Why can I not just attend both?


3/2/05--I am going to sound like a total nerd saying this but molecule kits are so much fun! I was studying for Organic earlier using one. The ones from school are so much nicer than my cheapo $19 kit. The bonds on the molecules from my kit always seem to break. So I feel bad, but I think that I know all of the organic molecules so I stopped studying. Hopefully I do not screw up on the test tomorrow and prove myself wrong. I have been watching movies this week while doing my homework on the computer, with the exception of tonight. I've watched Minority Report and Monsters Inc. thus far. Although I did not watch one tonight due ot my test tomorrow. I basically sit here in this computer chair while the movie is playing. I guess it's kind of like a TV deal or something. It works out really well actually, the picture on here is better than the picture on the living room tv. GI practice was cancelled today so I worked on moving stuff from the trailer into the drama shed instead. It was interesting, I learned how weak I actually am. I dropped one flat, almost falling thru it, and came close to dropping numerous others. Tomomorrow night I will be leaving for U of I, I am fairly excited. I hope that the visit gives me a good feel for the campus. I'm also hoping to get all of my homework finished in the hotel room thursday night, considering I will have nothing else to do. Then maybe I will be home free for the weekend. Well that's all for now. Good Night.


2/27/05--S.C.O.T.I.E. went fairly well. I recieved a keychain for IDA, so that's good. Although it confused me even more about college, U of I? ISU? ISU? U of I? I still cannot figure out how to choose between the two. Once it seems like I have nailed down one, then I start moving toward the other. Yeah I will not be doing regional science fair. Retesting never worked out and it's a bit too late now considering the fair is Saturday. Oh well, life moves on. Really not much to say about today, I just sat around trying to figure out Trig and got nowhere. Good Bye for now.


2/24/05--S.C.O.T.I.E. tomorrow! I am uber excited about it! I cannot believe that it's almost here already though, it seems so crazy. It seemed so far away when I qualified for it. I'm still trying to rope Steph into doing IDA with me, hopefully she will agree. I have a lot of Organic hw to make up when I get back, but eh. I am currently trying to look for a good messenger bag to replace my big, bulky purse. I have to take a pink purse with me to S.C.O.T.I.E. tomorrow bah. But eh, it's efficient despite it's great coloring... but what can you do? I am all packed for tomorrow, hopefully I do not forget anything. I'm good at doing that. I do not think that I have been on a single vacation yet where I have not left something behind lol. Well I am going to type up my back up Original Prose for tomorrow. Oh and I also got a digital camera so hopefully I will be able to get pictures on here! Well Good Night and Good Bye for a few days!


2/23/05--Watching a movie while doing homework on the computer, or by it rather, can actually be very efficient. I actually finished everything that I wrote down in my agenda today. Sure it was a rather crappy job, but eh it was accomplished. I think I might try to redo my Organic and Trig though, I really do not need another bad grade in either of those classes. So yup, U of I has a speech team and I am more confused than ever. Although I've heard a lot of good things about ISU and a lot of bad things about U of I... odd eh? SCOTIE is friday, I cannot wait! Only one more day! Ein mehr Tag! Spitze! There's German in the Bourne Supremacy which is super, I actually understood it. Eh in Am Problems today Stellhorn was hilarous. We had to do this group assignment on reducing the trade defecit and we pretended to be presidential advisors. So Stellhorn started laughing and said "I don't know how that would ever happen, hahaha.." LOL! It was so hilarous, he was joking of course. I guess you have to know Stellhorn, and you had to be there to get it. Ah well, I'm going to get off for now. Good Night.


2/22/05--Wow I haven't blogged for a few days. So my weekend was pretty good, many interesting stories. I visited ISU yesterday and it was very nice. I went there expecting to hate it, but it turned out well. I still need to visit U of I though. So yeah, SCOTIE is friday! WEEEHOOO! I cannot wait. I think I ask Steph everday if it's Friday yet... I need to finish my yearbook pages also. I'm concerened (sp) because I want to get a SCOTIE picture for the page. Everything does not seem to fit... Speech has too many things to squeeze onto one tiny little page... I also need to start the graduation templates, and make some other template. So hopefully I'll finish it all. Too much to do in too little time! Well I better stop wasting it! Good Night!


2/17/05--So isn't sleep deprivation fun?! Nah not really, not enough time in the day, or not enough willpower. So I was given a lesson in the field of Calculus today. Drew Bates randomly decided to teach me some of it, and boy was it fascinating. Literally, I'm dead serious here. I mean I ACTUALLY understood some of what he was teaching me. It was crazy really. So yeah, I spend two hours trying to figure out three trig problems, and I still do not understand them. I keep going in circles, round and round. Even when I ask for help it does not help because my brain has to grasp it on its own... Well this weekend I plan on doing a bunch of stuff. NO friends home really and I get to sleep in! Plus I might actually get to buy some jeans, which would be nice considering my lack of jeans so far. Well I have maybe two pairs, the rest have fallen apart. I mean slacks are alright, but not with t-shirts. But anyway. SCOTIE NEXT WEEKEND! WAHOO! Well G'Night then.


2/16/05--Two tests today, sheesh. Of course I really should not complain, it is my own fault for not studying more. Well about the whole regional science fair thing, yeah I do not believe that it will work. I just do not have sufficient time for re-testing, thus not being able to get new data. I missed the Mars lecture with Science Club tonight, I'm pretty sad about that actually. I should have went despite the fact that I had no idea who was going. OH well, things happen for a reason I suppose. I finished my English paper and my Trig homework! I'm uber proud of myself. I ACTUALLY finished my Trig hw, did every problem, not making stuff up as I went along. I haven't really known how to do a math assignment in ages. Of course it was proofs and I'm pretty good at those... I love proofs! I love it when I can finally weave my way through the complex web of mathmatics and finally arrive at a logical solution. Maybe life really is simple, we just cannot see past all of the fuzz in our way... Anyway though, That's all for now. Good Night.


2/13/05--So yeah, sectionals did go as well as planned. Although PIR did very well, sure we didn't advance but we beat five other ones. This weekend has gone by pretty fast thus far, I cannot believe that it is Noon on Sunday already. I really do not have much homework today, which kind of scares me... this week I have loads of tests though. Go figure. I talk about school way too much. I'm visiting ISU soon, so that's good. I really hope that I am not dissapointed. I've heard so many good things about it. Well anyway, there really is not that much to say today. I dunno why I'm blogging. G'bye then.


2/10/05--I made a quiz, click here Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard! to take it!


2/7/05--I'm currently at school, waiting for us to practice PIR, or just for everyone else to leave. The mole song is currently blarring. So that word that no one knew what it meant: topoi, means range of topics. I find it funny that absoultley no one on the speech team knew what that word meant... well now we all know. I offered to give steph my plethora of notecards that I will not be using, but she did not accept them. I have no homework, no meetings, nothing really tonight. Isn't that friggin' crazy? The one evening when I have literally no hw, I have nothing to do.... life is so weird. Well maybe I'll try to reform my science fair project or something... I don't know. I really do not know if I have time to go thru with it, but hopefully I can. Steph mentioned some science teacher she knows that maybe could help me, I'll ask her more about it. I've done nothing for this site lately, except for blog. I'm working on getting another link up, but eh who visits it anyway? Well tschus for now!


2/6/05--Wow it's been a long weekend, or short depending on how you look at it. Friday was a half day but I spent half of it visiting SLU and did not get home until 6pm. Then I went to Border's to pick up the 6th volume of CCS. I have yet to read it, I'm saving it for later. Yesterday I had a speech meet at Benton. We left around 5:30am and got home around 8:30, although I wasn't home until 9 or so because I hang around the speech room. It was my last bus ride with the team Saturday night, I'm really going to miss all of them. I started giving people random hugs because of it. They probably thought I was crazy but I couldn't help it, speech is my family and I love them all! Today I went to my cousin's confirmation. Mass was pretty long and I zoned during some of it. I felt horrible about that. I brought my homework along, which sounds odd but I didn't have time to complete it at any other point this weekend. I talked to one of my cousin's about U of I and he told me that they have a small student led speech team, which is pretty cool. I am going to try to find out more about it, since I didn't even know that it existed... Well after leaving their house around 4:30 we went to borders which took about 20 minutes or so. Then we had to go by my grandmother's home to get some homemade chocolate covered pretzels.... so I didn't get home until 7 or so tonight. I'm not watching the super bowl either... suprising eh? I thought weekends were supposed to be relaxing, this one just seemed non-stop. I also have a Trig quiz tommorrow (I've noticted that's the only subject I mention on this blog...) and I do not seem to understand anything. I probably SHOULD study but I've found that when I study it doesn't help at all.... go figure. Well that's all I will ramble about for now. Good Bye.


2/1/05--I cannot believe that it is Feb. already! Where have the months gone? I swear it was just Jan. 1st! Anyway, so I'm going to Germany for 4-6 weeks this summer... I am excited but also a bit nervous. I cannot really speak German that well so I'm going to do my best to combat that in the states. Is it weird that I refer to the U.S. (the country I live in) as the states? I dunno. Anyway.... I have a drama test tomorrow. I doubt it will be difficult. IF it is I think I'll fall out of my chair. I really like the PIR we are doing this year. For all of you non speech people (I dunno who's not on speech who reads this) it's basically a play in a circle. I love the script this year, I hated it the past two years. It would be nice to get to sectionals... so I hope that we advance. I need to work on getting my lines down pat though. I'm still up in the air about college also, I'm accepted into U of I, ISU, and SLU, now it's just a matter of choosing which one to attend. They all are about equal in terms of almost everything.... well some are bigger than others, some are closer, some are further, some cost more, they all have their pros and cons so I'm having a very difficult time deciding which to attend. I'm also working on talking, or trying to find, teachers to help me redo my science fair project in a month! Well everything'll be fine I'm sure. I better shush now. Good Bye.


1/30/05--Don't you just love Wal-Mart? Ok so I set off to Wal-Mart with the intention of looking for a pair of headphones, which I did. It took me ages to compare two different pairs, probably defeating Wal-Mart's scheme of making people buy things without reason. After much contemplation I finally picked out the perfect pair, well not perfect but as close as you can get at Wal-Mart. I was basking in my ability to go to Wal-Mart and end up only buying what I set out for. I decided to dispose of most of my change at the self-check out lane, good considering how much change had built up in my purse. When I am $.02 away from inserting all of my chage into the register, the change slot jams and I am forced to use a $5 bill, thus recieveing $.98 in change. Ok so that's not so bad right? But when I was ready to go home and enjoy the headphones that I had contemplated buying for a week, the alarm goes off as I am walking out of the store. I was with Nick and Steph so this made it worse. Nick had to walk through a few times and so did I but it was not our bags setting it off, it was my purse. The guy made me walk through the thing four or five times, I was panicking while Nick, Steph, and the Wal-Mart employee by the carts were laughing their butts off. I finally decided to tell the alarm guy that he could search my purse, I hadn't stollen anything. Then he finally let me go. So there goes my great trip to Wal-Mart. I had set off trying to defeat their scheme by buying only what I needed, but in the end Wal-Mart punished me by giving me change and putting the alarm on me. Great story eh?


1/29/05--So science fair was today. I cannot believe that I actully finished my project. I was up until 1:30 last night finishing my board. There were so many flaws in my work though, I couldn't believe it. Espically in my presentation. I ended up winning $100 becuase no one is in the fair really. I am just proud of myself for finishing it though. Last year I was sitting in those bleachers thinking how awesome it would be to just do a project, so I did it. I get to go to regionals but I need to fix a lot of things, in a REALLY short time, i.e. less than a month. I'm so insanely tired, I cannot believe it. Running on five hours of sleep obviously does not bode well for me. I really really hope I can fix my project, going to state in science fair would be freakin' awesome, but eh if I don't get there at least I did this. So I'm doing absoultey nothing tonight... fun eh? Nick's with his mother, Steph's busy... I need more friends. NO actually I just need a less overworked schedule... I need time to breathe. Maybe I'll finish my Trig portfolio while hoping that someone gets on.... eh I guess so... Aren't I such an exciting person? Goodbye for now!


1/23/05--The whole family lunch thing, which I was forced to attend today, was incredibly long and boring. I really do not know if this whole science fair thing is going to work out... While I would love to do science fair, the fair is next saturday and I have no idea how I can possibly finish my paper and create a display board, plus find a lot of research, by saturday. Well I would actually have to have it all finished by Thursday or Friday. MSN messenger is currently not working and it is starting to drive me insane, I do not understand why... It goes on and off and I dunno why. I should be doing my homework anyway but now I am determined to get it working! Gah I cannot figure out why and it is driving me crazy. Anyway I guess I'll just do my homework then...


1/19/05--You cannot even guess how incredibly boring my day has been. I hate being sick. Luckily I'm only 24 hour sick, so I'll be back tomorrow. After finishing my Trig portfolio, and then deciding that there was no way I could possibly figure out one Trig problem, I had absolutley nothing to do besides study for Drama. I just typed out my notes because I'm that bored. If I do not get a 100% on my drama test I think that I'll scream. I heard that speech was included in the pep rally at school, which I missed today. That is friggin' awesome and I missed it! Go figure. The one pep rally where something BESIDES sports is actually recoginzed, I miss! Bah! OH well... I am just hoping that I will have time to make up everything I missed today. It does not seem like I missed a whole lot, but any day of school missed always makes me crazy. I have to practice speech tomorrow though, so I'll just have to deal with make-up work. Well I'm bored out of my mind right now... I wish I could just head up to school and practice, but that's not really o.k. with school policy. Anyway. Goodbye for now!


1/18/05--Being sick sucks, duh statement. But I figure it's better sick now then uh saturday. I'm hoping that I'll actually use my sick time tomorrow to do Trig, since I'm really not understanding it all... but eh life's not so bad right now. I did pretty well first semester in school, suprised myself actually. Long hours of studying paid off. I got accepted to U of I and SLU also, so that's good. My future is not falling apart. I've applied to ISU and am about to submit my Webster application so hopefully everything will work out. I just need to figure out what I want to do so I can decide where to go!


1/12/05--This evening has been pretty interesting because it was filled with numerous computer problems. I wrote my journalism story last evening but found myself unable to type it tonight, much less send it, becuase the internet and word both decided to collapse at the same point in time. So I called up a friend and thanked him endlessly for letting me use his computer and internet to send the story. To say the least, the story isn't of the greatest journalist quality but eh, better than nothing. It's Wednesday! Yeehoo. No school Friday, so I just have to get through tomorrow. Actually though, the past two weeks have been going by pretty darn fast. I finally watched 60 minutes tonight. I always forget on Wednesday, and sometimes on Sunday. There are numerous great things I could use for various things on it. This edition was pretty darn good, unlike some of the last few. They had on a great story about this girl who got out of Uganda because of the Heifer Organization, and another about Thomas Gusthoff (sp). The guy at the end was actully funny too, talking about the ridiciouls (sp) devices that people thought would exist in the future but don't, although things turned out for the better. I am proud of myself for actually accomplising much tonight: lab report, impromptu examples, watching 60 minutes, journalism story, and studying for Trig. I feel like I have a really good grasp on Trig right now, hopefully my quiz tomorrow does not prove otherwise. I hate it whe I think I have it all down pat and then a quiz blows me to pieces. I'll just attempt to run thru some problems in study hall tomorrow I guess. Well wish me luck, or don't, whatever you want. Tschus.


1/7/05--Well I ended up getting a one-hundred on the Drama test that I was freaking out about. Go figure. I really believe that if I calmed down about everything in life I wouldn't be so crazy. Duh statement. I cannot spell worth crud. Anyway I dunno why I'm blogging today. Not much to say. Corndogs in the cafeteria, I actually had something to eat and it's friday. Weehoo. I also got to give an impromptu speech because there was a slot open. Also very cool. Anyway I'm currently attempting to win a game of checkers so I'll stop boring you all with my boring day. Tschus!


1/6/05--Speech workshop tonight. It was very benefical actually. I want to give six impormptu speeches everday now. It was nice to have various people point out the same flaws in my speaking ability. I just need to figure out how to fix them so that I can do much better. I ended up doing my OO twice, and my impromptu speech six times. Eight speeches in one night, I actually enjoy it. In fact I would do it every day if I could. I really wish I could have done my Oratory again but you know. Anyway though. I am about to tell you about something tragic: my science fair project has turned into a complete disaster. The disaster is so large that I do not even know if I will be able to enter the project. I really really need to find the science fair sponsor and sit down with her but everytime I go by I seem to miss her. Hopefully I will end up finding her, and soon because science fair is January 29th and I'd have to find her like tomorrow... well anyway hopefully it all works out. School is so stressful, I just need to breathe I suppose. Goodbye for now.


1/2/05--Happy New Year I suppose. School tomorrow again, I have mixed feelings about it really. I mean on one hand it's good because I get to practice speech and learn more information but on the other hand I it's bad because I have to turn back into study like crazy mode if I want good grades. I have a new schedule too so that's good. Hopefully I'll find some random person to talk to in Trig... I dunno if I will but you know. Break was pretty cool I suppose, I wish I would have done more though. Oh well so goes life. I guess for science fair I will just have to talk with Acock or Black about whether or not my research is good enough to enter. Well I guess that's all for now. Goodbye then.


12/31/04--It's New Year's Eve, well 3:13 am on the holiday anyway! I really stay up late these days and don't sleep enough. I have NO idea what I'm going to do when school comes back, eeeek going to bed at 9:30? It's 3:14 am now and I don't plan on going to bed until 4 or so. I'm kind of looking foward to tomorrow. Hopefully Steph, Nick, and I will get a chance to hang out and celebrate New Year's. I also hope to finally memorize a poem for German and watch some episodes of Friends. Maybe I'll finish college applications, go grocery shopping at Wal-Mart, just get some things accomplished in general. Maybe I'll read the Obama biography and try to finish it. I wonder if I'll be able to sleep in until 12:45 or so. I don't like getting up late but I love staying up late, go figure. ON the other hand I hate being sleep deprived. Well I'm going to finish my chicken noodle soup (yum) and then finish up some things. Goodbye then.


12/29/04--Stupid Christmas break. Why is it almost over already? Sheesh I've waited for this break since school began! Anyway I really hope my schedule is changed when I get back. I had a nightmare that it was not, go figure that's my nightmare. I just do NOT want to get stuck in fashion merchandising. Can you picture me in that class honestly? I didn't think so. Instead I'm taking drama, which isn't my first choice but it's better than fashion merch for sure. I should get out of school early but I really like my current Organic class and do not want to switch to seventh hour. Eh science fair? oh yeah I'm still doing that I think... stupid flies mass reproduce like crazy! I think the judges are going to laugh at my project because of so many generations intrebreeding. I need a lab or a science classroom! I need one gah! These experiments are so hard to do at home gah! When I get my own home I am turning my basement into a friggin lab/library. Screw television and a living room, who needs that? Anyway that's all for now folks, Goodbye then!


12/26/04--I think I blog too much on Christmas break. My cousins that I never see came over today and it was radical. I finally found a board game I'm good at: Cranium! It was so funny, Thersea would draw some random blob and I would figure out what it was right away! i.e. "Don't Cry over Spilled Milk!" I also finally finished my personal statement for ISU and my personal statement for my Germany application. Don't fret I'm only applying for a 4-6 week trip. I tried memorizing a poem for German but I cannot remember what stanza is which. I keep mixing up random lines... go figure! I've decided that if my science fair project doesn't work out so be it... I mean I tried and that's what counts. I really really need to count four vials tomorrow but I cannot seeing that I am on break and don't have a lab. I do not trust counting the flies at home because I might lose them while they're under the weather and that would be utter disaster. I'll just pray that they decide to not have offspring because those four vials are in the perfect counting stage right now! Sheesh this stinks! Well it'll be alright. I'm in a really good mood tonight and I dunno why. It's pretty nice. I went fanlisting crazy again and joined six more. I also changed the blinky on the front page. So check that out. Well Good Night then.


12/25/04--Christmas Eve was actually pretty awesome. I played Uno Attack and Spoons with my many cousins. Both games ended up turning pretty violent, espically spoons. I guess my family just has a weird spoons frenzy, it's the greatest card game ever though, really it is. I think Christmas vacation has made me extremely lazy or something. I told myself I was going to finish the applications for ISU and Webster but of course I haven't yet. I also have to memorize a poem for German... I've only memorized two stanzas eeek. I really need to get off my lazy butt and accomplish things if I want to go to college and get an A in German. Eh I had a nightmare that I didn't get my schedule change when I went back to school and was tardy to all of my classes. It was pretty freaky, well for me anyway. I recieved the newest Relient K cd for Christmas and I actually like it, it's really suprising. I mean I used to like RK but then they started to get really really annoying... now though I'm loving this cd. It's crazy really. Anyway tomorrow my cousins that I never see are coming over and I'm uber exicted! They are so awesome and I miss them! I can't wait, is it tomorrow yet? Hopefully they can stay for awhile! Maybe I'll convince them to play spoons! Yes that'd be super! Well I suppose that's really it for now. Merry Christmas to all!


12/23/04--Umm tomorrow's Christmas Eve? How is that possible? I mean this week has flow by which is absolutley crazy considering I looked forward to Christmas break since the beginning of the school year. Now it's halfway over... go figure. I dunno it's just absolutley insane is all.. I don't want to go back to school and go all crazy over tests again. Isn't it wonderful how I don't have to use proper grammar at all in this blog that no one reads? To tell you the truth I do not really want anything for Christmas. I realize that's not normal but I just don't see the point of someone giving me anything... I mean give stuff to poor children in Sudan or something. In fact we should just abolish all Christmas gifts and donate all of the money to fix Africa. Isn't that a wonderful idea? I mean seriously think about it. If we Americans were just willing to sacrifice hording ourselves with presents, and instead donating the money to something worthwhile, we could honestly change some world problem. Sure it might not be major but I dunno. Someone read this and comment on that idea. Crud I have to go check my fruit flies, the experiment that is falling apart! I almost forgot! Well luckily this reminded me. Good Night then!


12/20/04--I cannot believe that Christmas is so close, it's insane really. It doesn't even feel like Christmas. I think part of it is because people have already given me Christmas gifts. I think I'm going to start saving all of my gifts for Christmas day. It seems better that way! Then I'll have more presents to open :) My science fair project is falling apart.. it's not so good. I've discovered that my second generation has been breeding with my third and that some of my flies were already pregant, so to speak, before I put them in the vial. That means I have no idea how many generations are in that one vial.. although I do know that ebony only crossed with ebony, that's good at least. I think I'll have to seriously talk with Ms. Holmen or Ms. Black about whether or not my data is accurate enough to enter in the fair. I'll probably end up speaking with Black. The BIG problem is that it's Christmas break and I don't think I'll have enough time to retest and finish my paper on the project. Plus I'm not completely sure if my hypothesis is within reason either. I have an idea of what will happen, and so far I'm right, but I have no way to prove it and that doesn't bode to well for science. I don't know, if I don't get to enter the project I'll be highly dissapointed so hopefully this will all work out. Cross your fingers and toes! Well Good Bye for now.


12/15/04--Yeah I never blog but who reads this anyway? What's going on besides science fair and speech? uh nothing really... So I don't have to take finals and that is super because I get to sleep in. I still need to figure out a hypothesis for my project. I was going to do that tonight but then I did uh absolutley nothing. I've been super lazy lately, I need to get over that. I also need to figure out how to make my OO personal. Then maybe I could get to finals in Oratory! That would be great. Well Imp-O-Rama is tomorrow so yeah, highlight of my week. You see this is why I don't blog... absolutely nothing to say. Anyway well hopefully I'll get a hypothesis considering science fair is January 29th and I've already started testing.... oops... I had one ok, but then I figured out that it really didn't work because I had no evidence to back it up. Therein lies my problem. Geez why are genes so complicated? Eh I guess because humans are complicated. Well I added more quizzes, so check those out. Good Night.


12/5/04--YEAHOO! I GOT FIRST! Well actually I got a second place metal BUT Steph and I tied for first in varsity Imp thus allowing me to go to S.C.O.T.I.E. the Tournament of Champions! Me?! Wow this is super exciting. Did I say YAHOO? On top of that I broke in Oratory. Well yeah it was super small yesterday and I just got lucky but oh well, me breaking in Oratory? Wowzer! So now I am inspired to work even harder in Imp, can anyone say one speech a day or more? I love Imp I really really do! Yeahoo! I dunno anyway I still need to figure out a solid hypothesis for my science fair project... uh yeah January 29th is going to sneak up on me isn't it? Well I'm still super busy and never blog but that's how it goes I suppose. I'm basically working on speech, doing homework, science fair, and a numerous other amount of things. I still haven't really realized that I am going to S.C.O.T.I.E. and that Steph and I tied for first.... hopefully it will sink in soon... Well tschus and wish me luck on winning a molecular model set on Ebay!

11/27/04--Ok so I went 1-2-3 at that tournament not 2-6-2... My scores were recorded incorrectly and I should have broken. Yeah it sucks but I'll get over it and just work harder! Anyway I don't blog much but there's really not a whole lot to say, I mean yeah I'm super busy but do you really want to hear about Organic Chem and Speech? I dunno. My life has been revolving around school and speech. Thanksgiving weekend I've been doing absolutley nothing but trying to figure out two-by-twos and procrastinating on homework. I was going to finish reading that Genetics textbook but you know how that goes... Instead I get online but hey if I didn't get on you would never hear this wonderfully boring blog from me! lol! Well G'bye for now!

11/21/04--Wow it's been over a month since I last blogged. Well my college plans have changed since then. I really have no idea where I'm going to go to college. Garh, this is not so good is it? I visited Webster and Webster was awesome but yeah, they do not have Chemistry or Biochemistry. I do not know if I want to major in those fields but it would be great to have that option. I have now decided that I am NOT going to major in political science. I relaized how bored I would be... I just do not want to be stuck doing something I hate you know? Well I have been doing alright in Speech, I got 6th at the first and second tournaments. The third though? I didn't even break... I went 2-6-2. I can't wait to see my critiques so that I can figure out my problems and improve. I plan on trying to blow the competition away at the next tournament. I don't care what it takes. OH science fair update... Well I started my project but I ended up killing about ninety percent of the flies, it was a complete and udder accident. Well actually my Organic Chemistry teacher taught me how to do it and we both ended up killing them.. great eh? Well I plan on ordering another batch and we will not leave the anesthetic in too long this time. She's on maternity leave though so I'm going to have to call her. I feel terrible bugging her with this project but I need serious help... Well that's enough rambling about the wonderful, oh so boring, world of me. Goodbye.

10/18/04--It's Monday and I'm blogging! It's a miracle. Anyway I actually don't have much homework tonight, well not much that's due tomorrow anyway. We're chaning seats in organic wednesday and I'm not too happy about it! Who will be my lab partner??? I'll miss Jessica, my chemistry friend... Why do teacher's always change our seats? I like mine just fine right now. Anyway, I'm hooked on manga now thanks to Steph. I'm currently trying to figure out how I am going to get the third volume of CCS Master of the Clow, ugh, I'm going to go broke aren't I? Maybe I should just steal Steph's copy.... I'll just sneak into her house and steal all of her manga, hmmm good idea eh? Yeah right, like I'll ever do that! I've narrowed my potential colleges down to Webster and UMSL! and! I think I am going to major in political science with a minor in German? Sounds like a plan eh? eh? Ich weiss nicht! Weeewho! I also talked to Ms. Black about my potenital science fair idea, yipee. I don't think the whole cancer infected fruit flies thing is going to work... now all I have to do is convince my mom that fruit flies in the house do not mean mass chaos because they would be contained. I'm doing this project no matter what anyone says! Well I think that's really it for now, well not really, I could ramble longer but I don't think I will. SPRICHT DEUTSCH! Ich weiss nicht! tschus!


10/16/04--The weekend again! It seems like that's the only time I ever have to blog! I think I found a science fair idea! Although it might be in Zoology and I orignally wasn't planning on doing that... I am going to ask Ms. Holmen if it can be in a different area somehow because I don't want to be in the same area as Nick and Steph. Anyway it would be something along the lines of studying the reproductive rates of fruit flies infected with cancer or studying how healty fruit flies act vs. those with cancer. The only problem is I have to narrow it down. I want to do so much with this project and I know that there is no way I could do it all in fifteen weeks! I have to run the idea by Ms. Holmen first though. I should have said something at our science fair meeting I guess, instead I say "uh I don't know." Garh, anyway. I want to go to Border's today so that I can buy Card Captor Sakura: Master of the Clow Book 2. I don't know if I'll get there though because I have to take my mom to Schunck's. I'm going to a colleg fair tomorrow. Hopefully I'll figure out what I want to major in by then... uh yeah right. Well g'bye for now, I think I've rambled enough!


10/10/04--This weekend has gone by super fast, it's already 12 p.m. Sunday night! Wow! I still have to finish my trig portfolio and study for American Problems! Instead I updated the site a bit, I finally changed all the backgrounds to gray, added more fanlistings, and added a few more pictures. I added the picture of me with Barack Obama! :) I can be bi-partisn can't I? I'm sorry but Keyes is nuts. Anyway. I worked at the Sister Cities' potato pancake stand at the Oktoberfest today. I worked the grill and I was crying because of the smoke.. it was bad. I think that I'll smell like smoke for days afterwards.. oh well it really wasn't that bad. Steph tried to teach Nick and I how to march today and it didn't work. I couldn't get past one step... I have more respect for marching band than I had before, which I actually had a lot before. Well anyway, I better go. I want to try to catch the last few minutes of the special about Stalin on the history channel. Auf Widersehen!


10/9/04--I now see how people can get so hooked on manga. I read Card Captor Sakura: Master of the Clow and I'm hooked. Bad thing.. I have hw garh! Anyway NIck and I went to the carbondale band competiton today. Hopefully I spelled compeition right lol! Anyway Waterloo did very well yet again... I seriously love their show this year, much better than last years. I am such a band wanna be. I seriously want to learn how to play an instrument, the trumpet would be awesome but I'm going to have to settle for the clarinet because it's sitting in my house right now. Garh... this isn't just a phase like my mother thinks it is either. I wish I had some money so that I could get lessons, the whole teaching myself thing did not work out because I can't even tell the difference between an quarter note and a whole note. Well that's not really true but you get my point. Nick, Steph and I were laughing our heads off tonight over nothing while "practicing speech." I'm starting to think that practicing speech means hanging out... We talked about DCVs and the "Stupid Democrat aka Smart Republican" shirt! It's so funny really, I just start laughing my butt off in the middle of nothing... inside thing... Anyway, I better go... tons of homework and I want to have freetime monday...


10/04/04--This weekend has flown by, just like every other one this year. I always tell myself that I will get to catch up on sleep and accomplish all of my homework every weekend but neither of those things ever get accomplished. Sure I get the homework finished that I have to but I never get stuff done early or study enough. Anyway. I went to the homecoming dance last night and I actually enjoyed myself. The music wasn't as bad as expected and I did attempt to dance a bit. Attempt is the key-word here. Rachael forced me to go but it's all good. Her sister fixed our hair and did a very good job :) I love Rachael's family now, her parent's took me to a band compeition and her sister fixes my hair and they charge me nothing. They are so nice! I am currenlty attempting to write my Oratory for Speech. An Oratory is basically like a reserach paper except for in Speech format. So far I have a blank word document opened. Fun huh? I cannot seem to think of an introduction for the life of me. I finally cleaned my turtles' cages today and mold is growing in them... eeek. I really need to make time, I don't know how might I add, to clean those cages on a regular basis. They were starting to smell so I made time today. I also got the new Chevelle cd! WAHOO! I keep listening to it over and over and over. They are the only band that would never be played on classic 99 that I love. So they must be good... of course few people have heard of them... go figure. Well I could ramble about a plethora of other things but I think this is enough. Oh yeah, I didn't get the new layout done this weekend... it's coming... I have to think of something first. Well g'bye for now.