Author: Precious L. the Spacepirate

Disclaimer: I don’t own Gundam Wing. Sorry but its true. Please don’t sue me I’m just having fun.

Rating: PG or PG-13 not really sure

Pairings: 1+2

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Untitled Heero fic

I see him sitting there watching the TV. He seems serious right now. And for some reason it worries me. His eyes are almost cold not like the ones I saw at breakfast. The news is bothering him and the rest; I see it on all their faces. OZ is winning by our standard and there isn’t much we can do.

The news ends and Quatre turns the channel, he seems to know what Duo wants to watch. His eyes remain cold for a few more seconds and... yes! There it is, the light that seems to take my breath away. His laughing eyes shine once more. I want to drown in them; they seem to be endless.

He laughs, god how I love to hear him laugh. I wish I could listen to him laugh for the rest of my life. If I died now listening to him laugh I would die happy. Whatever they are watching must be funny. Even Quatre is laughing, and Wufei just smirked.

Trowa isn’t really watching it. No he’s like me watching the person who has captured his heart and his soul. He told me once while out on a mission that he had feelings for Quatre. Trowa was badly hurt, I think he just wanted some one to know that he was able to care for someone. Or is it love he’s feeling? I don’t think he’s told Quatre yet. To bad, they make a cute couple. But Trowa he just sits there with a blank look on his face staring secretly at Quatre. Every once in awhile Quatre will look over at him. Quatre cares about Trowa, I can see it. He smiles brighter when Trowa comes around.

Duo looks at me. I don’t know what to do, so I go back to work on my laptop. I peer up just in time to see the look of disappointment on his face. That look of sadness in those laughing violet eyes of his. I didn’t even know that eyes good be so violet. And so big! When he’s happy its like they take up most of his face. His beautiful heart shaped face, with those prefect lips that I wish nothing more than to be able to kiss them.

I try to contain my sigh. I know he’ll never love me. Why would he want to? I kill. Besides I bet he thinks I like Relena. I shudder; the thought makes me ill. She reminds of that little girl with the puppy. Well at first she did. Now I wish I could have killed her when I had the chance. She ruined three of my missions already! Sometimes I think she is really working for OZ. Why else would she be ruining my mission?

I get up and head for my room. I have one all to myself for once. I should be happy, I can go to sleep without having to listen to constant chatter. But that chatter is what puts me to sleep and makes me have sweet dreams. Dreams about him, and what we can do together.

I lay down with a sigh. I have never kissed anyone before. And the one thing I want to kiss doesn't even like me that way. I closed my eyes and instead of seeing black, I see violet eyes that are smiling at me. Oh god why do I have to be the perfect solider? Why can’t I be like him? Unafraid to show my feelings.

I open my eyes to a knock on the door. The voice behind the door is him. He wants to know if everything is all right. I tell him yes, a lie. Then he asks me if I’m hungry. I grunt, what else am I suppose to do? He opens the door and walks in. He has a tray with food on it. He knew before me that I would be hungry. He puts it down and I start to eat.

“So Heero is it any good?” He sits down next to me on my bed. God I want to put the food aside and dine on him. I grunt again. He rolls his eyes. “So what's the perfect solider gonna’ do ta’ tonight? Oh wait I know work on his laptop. Man Heero you need to get out more. Why don’tcha come with me?”

I had planned on telling him no, but some part of me didn’t agree, “OK.”

His eyes get even bigger, they look like they’re about to pop out. “OK, OK as in you want to come?”

“Hai.”

“Your not jokin’ with me are ya?” He doesn’t believe me, his eyes are slightly narrowed.

“Iie, I’m not joking with you. When do we leave?”

“We can go now.”

“Alright.” I stand and head for the door, leaving my food to get cold. He still sits on my bed with a disbelieving look on his face. He finally gets up and follows me out.

We head for the front door. He yells out to the others that we’re going out for awhile and not to wait up. I’m trying to debate if that was joke or not. I walk out and get in the car. He comes out and looks at me funny.

“Hey Heero you aint drivin’?”

“I don’t know where we’re going, baka.”

“Oh hee hee, guess I forgot.” He jumps into the car and we drive off.

He turns on the radio and sings along with the song. I’ve never heard it before. Of course I don’t listen to music. Unless I’m with one of the others. I’m not paying much attention to anything, except for the way his lips move. Part of me wants to stop them from moving with my lips. To bad he would probably punch me for it. Or shot me again.

We stop and he gets out, he waits for me. It’s a store I don’t know what kind though. We go inside, it’s a bookstore. Somehow I never thought he would take me to a bookstore. Of course I’m having a hard time thinking of him reading. I follow him through, he seems to be on a mission. He stops, I look up at the heading, Religion.

“Heh, I lost my bible. Need a new one.” He seems embarrassed, I know I do, lusting after a boy who is now buying a bible. “I don’t know why I keep them though. Not like I read it.”

“So why buy a new one?” I can’t believe I just said something.

He looks at me, “I guess cause someone who cared for me once thought I needed a bible.” He looks down at the small leather bond book. He runs his hand over it, “Guess I want to honor him.” He whispers.

“Aa, then that is a good reason.”

He looks up at me and smiles. “Come on Heero, we have other things to do tonight.”

We finally get to his first destination, a restaurant. We go inside and sit down. The menu is in English, thankfully I am fluent in the language. However I can honestly say I didn’t know what any of it was.

He’s looking at me with this look on his face. I think its amusement. “Nani?” I asked shortly.

“Do you know what you want?” He smiles, god he looks so beautiful when he smiles like that.

“What are you having?”

He smiles even more, if that possible. “I was thinking about a bowl of soup and then move on to the meatloaf special.”

I rise an eyebrow. “What is ‘meatloaf’?”

“Ha! Heero are you telling me you have never eaten American food before?”

“Hn.”

“Well that it, I’m goin’ change all that right now.” The waitress comes up to us to take our order. Duo smiles at her, “We would both like to have a bowl of New England clam chowder. Then we would like to have the meatloaf special. I want mashed potatoes and gravy and corn on the cob. He will have the same. We also want gravy on our meatloaf. I want a pop, um root beer is fine, Mug if ya got it. No wait scratch that we would both like pink lemonade.”

The waitress smiled sweetly at us both and left. I sat there wondering what ‘pink lemonade’ was. I had never heard of a pink lemon before. It wasn’t to long before our clam chowder arrived. I watched Duo eat first. Dip the spoon in bring to nice full pink lips, and blow slowly as to driving me insane. Right I can do that. To my surprise it was quite good.

After a few bites I’m decided I should try the ‘pink’ lemonade. A bit sour with a slight sweetness underlining it. I decide I like it. He is watching me. I think he finds it amusing. I look at him and he smiles and goes back to his chowder. We finally get our main dish and I watch him attack it with gusto. I eat slower, partly because I have no idea what I’m eating.

“So did ya like it?” He asks me when we get in the car.

“Hai.”

“So you feel up to a movie? I mean there’s a really good one out I wanted to see... I mean if ya want to. You don’t have ta come I can take ya home or sompthin’.”

I look at him, I think. Go home and wonder what it his that he is doing, or be there with him as he is doing something. “A movie is fine.”

“Honto? You mean it?” He is shocked.

“Hai Duo. I wouldn’t have said it if I hadn’t meant it.” His face lights up even more. You’d think I had just given him a million dollars or something. And as I watch his face I can’t help but feel happy. What are you doing to me, Duo?

We get to the movie house and he pays for us to get in. You'd think we were on a date. Then he drags me over to the snack bar. Pop, popcorn and some candy.

“Duo, we just ate.” I can’t believe he’s still hungry.

I follow him into the theater. He looks around and then he looks at me and grins. Oh gods does he always look that good? Yes. Yes he does.

The movie starts and he starts munching on the popcorn. I don’t know what's wrong with me, I start eating the popcorn too. To make matters worse our hands at one point touch. I want to hold it. I have no idea what's going on out side of Duo’s hand. I stare at it and I run my finger along his, they’re soft. But then he retracts it. I look at him, he seems confused. We stopped eating the popcorn.

All During the movie I fought the urge not to put my arm around him. Then I got a wonderful surprise when he laid his head on my shoulder. I look down at him and smile. The light from the movie makes him look so innocent. The movie is over all to soon. We head for the car.

“Wasn’t that cool movie? Quatre would have liked the end. And the star! Oh man he was cute.” Duo was going a mile a minute, I don’t think he realized what he said.

We head back to the house, he’s quiet. “I enjoyed the evening Duo. Thank you.” I had to say something.

He stops the car outside the house and looks at me. There it is again, surprised. “You surprise me, Heero.”

Told you, “How so?”

“I didn’t think you’d have any fun.” He looks a way. “You always seem like you’re too good to have fun.” He whispers.

Damn my heart! The words he just spoke are tearing through it. I feel pain. I put my hand on his arm. It’s warm and soft. He looks at me again. “I’m human too, Duo.” I whisper.

“Oh, Heero.”

I feel his hand on my cheek. “I can feel, you know. Dr. J thought that emotion were unneeded in a soldier. I thought I gotten rid of it. But tonight...” I trail off I can feel his breath on my face. I turn my head and his mere inches from me. His eyes have a look I have never seen before. What are you doing to me Duo?

“I don’t know. What are you doing to me?” He whispers. He heard me! I said that out load? I’m doing something to him? “Heero?”

“Hn?” No that was bad, I want to talk to him more.

“When we go back in are you going to hate me again?”

My heart is overwhelmed by pain. Hate him? I never hated him. “I never hated you Duo. I just don’t understand you. You do things to me. Things I’ve never felt before. I think it scares me that you have that much power over me. I want it to stop, but.... I also don’t want it to stop. I...”

“You’re confused. Like me huh?” I nod, I feel so lost. When did I lose control? “Heero? I... I want...” I can’t believe my ears. Duo Maxwell is at a lose of words. What he does next throws my world into a tailspin. He kisses me! His wonderful full and oh so soft lips are on mine! I kiss back. Hey I’m confused not stupid. I know what I want. And what I want is one Duo Maxwell. But the kiss ends and he looks at me, confused.

I want more. I bring our lips together again. This time though I run my tongue against his lip. And to my excited surprise he opens his mouth. I plunge my tongue into his mouth. He tastes sweet. Somehow though I think I knew he would. I can’t seem to get enough of him. I want more. But alas he pulls away.

“What do you want of me?” He whispers. I don’t know, what do I want? I want him, all of him. I want him...

“What do you want?”

“That’s not fair Heero. I asked first, please answer me.”

“I...” I look him in the eye. He seems afraid of something. Is he afraid of me, or of what this might become? “I want you. All of you. I want you to want me, all of me. Is that wrong?”

“Do you know what your saying, Heero?”

“I... I only know what I feel.”

“What is it that you feel, Heero? Am I a mission or something?”

A mission? “Yes.” His face is so sad. He looks like he’s about to cry. “Let me explain. You’re a mission for myself. I want to be happy. I’m only happy when you’re around. I want you to be happy. I feel pained when you’re sad. Please, Duo don’t be sad.”

“Heero...” He trails off and I’m left wondering what he was about to say. He pulls away from me. I feel cold, I want him back. He runs a hand through his bangs.

“What do you want, Duo?” He looks at me. I don’t think he expected me to ask. But its only fair, I told him what I wanted. He seems scared.

“I.... I don’t want you to die.”

Huh? Now where did that come from? That was not what I thought he was going to say. I thought maybe ‘You’ or ‘I like you but not that way’ or maybe ‘Nice kiss but fuck off Yuy’. But never did I expect ‘I don’t want you to die.’ I take his hand into mine. Somehow it seems right. “What do you mean?”

“Heero try and understand. Everyone I ever loved is dead. They all die. Its because of me, I bring death where ever I go.”

Bullshit! “I don’t believe that.”

“Well you should.”

“You are not to blame. You have told me about the plague on L2. And about the orphanage. You were still a child, untrained, how can you expect to be to blame for that?”

“Heero...” The next thing I know I have my arms full of one Duo Maxwell. I like the feeling. I’m not really sure what to do now. So I follow my feeling and wrap my arms around him. My shirt is getting wet, he’s crying. Duo Maxwell does not cry. Why is he crying? Did I do something wrong? “Heero... you... I think I...”

I smirk to myself. I manage to make the great Duo Maxwell speechless. “Did I do something wrong?”

“No.” I shiver a bit as I feel his warm breath on my neck. Then I feel him kiss it, then lick it. Oh god Duo don’t stop. “We should go in.” He pulls away from me. No! I don’t want him to go. He gets out of the car and heads for the door. He pauses and looks back at me, I’m still in the car. Then he goes on into the house. Damn! What the hell happened?!

I get out of the car and slowly head for the door. I walk in and see Trowa, Quatre and Wufei in the living room. They look at me. Quatre looks sadden and Wufei has a blank look on his face. So does Trowa but his eyes say something else. I think he feel sorry for me. It is as if he knew something went wrong.

I head up to my room. And for once I wish that braided baka was sharing it with me. I walk past his room. The door is barely opened I can see him on his bed. I go to my room and fall on the bed. It was a nice date. I wish there had been more to it.

I few hours later I wake up, someone is in my room. I can’t see him yet but I know I’m not alone. Then I see movement. Duo. He walks out of the shadows and up to the side of my bed.

“I’m sorry I woke you.” His voice is but a whisper.

“It’s alright. Did you need something?” Me. Say you need me.

“Yes.”

“What?”

He sits down on my bed, and looks me in the eye. His hand comes out and caresses my cheek. “What happens if I tell you?”

Odd question. “I’ll try and give it to you.”

“Anything?”

“Hai, anything.”

“That's a lot to offer Heero.”

“I know. What do you want?”

He leans forward and our foreheads touch. “You.”

“Me?”

“Yes, but I want all of you. Mind, body and soul. Can you really give that to me?”

“Hai.”

“You don’t know what you’re saying.”

“Then teach me.”

“What do you want Heero?”

“You.”

Duo slips under the covers and lays down on top of me. I lay back down, and wrap my arms around him. He kisses me softly on the lips. When we break apart he lays his head to rest on my chest. We lay there like that until we fall asleep.

The next morning I awake to find it was not a dream. In my arms is an angel. An angel named Duo. He opens his eyes and smiles, I smile back. Then we continue to lay there. I could stay like this forever.