Destiny
I've never touched you yet I know how you feel I've never seen you in person yet my dreams of you are so real I've never kissed your lips but I know they taste so sweet I'll be coming to you soon and we'll finally get to meet When you hold me in your arms and we share our first kiss It will be like in my dreams So just remember this I believe you are my destiny so be careful with my heart If you promise me this one thing Then we will never part -Kimberly Williams
Trapped
Trapped with no escape No end to this hell Nothing I could do No one I could tell I can hardly breathe My arms are bound tight My mouth is taped up I don't have the strength to fight My life is in your hands And it shouldn't be that way I hate you more and more With every passing day My thoughts are driving me crazy They're swirling in my head You could kill me any minute Because they already think I'm dead -Kimberly Williams
Invisible
I was right there by your side although no one could see I was there to hold your hand wishing you´d wake up for me Nobody had told me But I already knew I knew something terrible had happened to you Tears streamed down my face as I waited for your voice I didn´t want to go but I didn´t have a choice I stood there in the darkness as I had to say goodbye I had to be invisible so you wouldn´t see me cry. -Kimberly Williams 2003
Crimson Tears
Standing in the darkness with no one around Sadness comes over me I fall to the ground I feel something hot running down my face Nothing can ever fill this cold, empty space I cry these crimson tears at night so you can´t see You shouldn´t be bothered with the pain inside of me I can´t bring life into this world I guess I´ve been hit with a curse They call it infertility but the truth is so much worse I´ll never forgive him for what he did to me I´ll just cry these crimson tears at night so you can´t see. -Kimberly Williams 2003
Beaten
So I was a little late I didn´t know you´d care Can you even see me with that ice cold stare? Your eyes say too much Your rage is so clear Is that me screaming or is it my inner fear I wanna soothe you calm you down you want to hit me knock me around what do you expect I´m not your slave I have my own life You think you´re so brave I´m not going to fight you not going to surrender I´m not going to please you I´m not going to make you dinner I have to stop covering for you yes, I´m not going to lie I´m gonna do it right this time I´m not gonna die Yeah I´ve said it before that doesn´t mean I won´t you think you know it all but I know you don´t Someday you´ll see yeah I know too well I´ll show you alright I´ll take you to hell I won´t shed a tear no matter what you do I know what I can handle and I can handle you I don´t need any help maybe I´m a little ashamed Maybe it´s my fault Yeah, I´m sure I´m to blame I probably push you It´s me that is causing it I know that you´re sorry it´s just a bad habit But this time you´ll break it Yeah, sure I have faith Just don´t let my family see it their hearts would break Do I really have to beg you? I don´t want to lose I can´t breathe Your hands are a noose What will everyone say when they see me tomorrow? I´ll just try to hide it Do you have a turtleneck I can borrow? Thats enough! I can´t last much longer Please stop I beg you you´ve proved it, you´re stronger Just say you´re sorry don´t do it anymore Everything is going black and I´m sinking to the floor. -Kimberly Williams 2003
She smiles at you like she does everyone She acts like it´s ice cream but she´s holding a gun She´s carefree and happy and she´s not afraid to cry Isn´t that how it seems? you never wonder why Perfection you´d think would have to be great But it´s merely a lie to carry the weight The most flawless lives drowning in trouble And you´re there with a grin making it double You laugh at her jokes you have no idea what they mean You don´t know she´s trying to muffle her scream But it isn´t your fault it´s hers for letting it happen You can´t steer the ship when you´re not the captain Is that what you think? Are you really that dense? You can´t walk the wall and you can´t climb the fence She doesn´t want help don´t you know what she needs? She just wants a flower to find in the weeds. -Kimberly Williams 2003
Hello there again Do you remember me? Our meeting was too long And yet so breif I didn't know your name then But here it is in stone Do you wish that you could change it now and instead be sleeping at home? I don't know what I feel for you I hate you with all my being But you also brought this change to me An effect I am so clearly seeing. That night was such a nightmare broken glass and shattering screams You took away my innocence And yours too so it seems What was that date exactly? 1975-1997 I feel like it's my fault somehow that you'll never see heaven But I didn't deserve what you did to me we'd never even talked I wonder what might have happened If I'd never taken that walk. I remember the sound of the shots The death in your screeching cries I wonder will I see that pain In our newborn babys' eyes? -Kimberly Williams 1994
Kimmy
My name is Kimmy I am only three my eyes are swollen I cannot see I must not be loved for I am punished by cigarette burns I must do right I can't do wrong or else I'm locked up all day long when I wake I'm all alone the house is dark my parents aren't home I'm really just an expensive joke no more no less than speed or coke be quiet now! I hear a car my dad is back from eleventh street bar I hear him curse my name he calls I squeeze myself against the wall on the bed it's too late his face is twisted into hate I feel the pain again and again Oh dear god please let it end My name is Kimmy I am but three last night my father murdered me... -Kimberly Williams 1997
Angel
She's not that crazy you think you know her You think she's high she can't be lower You call her an angel then say she's a demon Which is it you see when you've got her screaming? Your counting the years She's counting the seconds She's waiting for that moment when the darkness beckons She'd love you to stay you can't wait to leave she'll be hurting again she'll be trying to breathe she's in love with the moon and thats just what you are but you're more unpredictable and leave a nastier scar. She's stronger than you she can take what you dish while you run away when you get your own wish she can't tell you no but she doesn't agree when will you learn that she's not what you see. -Kimberly Williams 1995
Hidden
She's sad for no reason and people wonder why She can look at you and smile then turn around and cry She tries to hide her feelings and pretends it doesn´t hurt But it´s hard to hide the tears when she´s treated like dirt All the pain that she put up with still haunts her to this day She never ever thought that it would end this way Being trapped inside a hell that no one understood No one even tried to no one really could She kept everything hidden so the world couldn´t see I´m glad I finally opened up so I can just be me. -Kimberly Williams 2002
Untitled
I'm sitting here thinking of him light cast on me cold and dim. Hurt by his words, hurt by his hands I look beyond the shadow, and there he stands. My vision is blurry because of the tears The pain I put up with for so many years I can't let him see all the hurt in my eyes being careful not to let him hear my cries Crimson droplets fall from my head It's just a small cut. Oh no, it dripped on the bed. It'll make things worse, just don't let him see. He cares more about the bed than he does about me. Wait! Oh No! Something just caught the light. A screwdriver? A hammer? No, that was last night. I hid those real well under the sink in a sack, It hurt so bad when he used them on my legs and my back It's a knife, the same one he used on my head. Oh No! He just seen the blood on the bed. Please not again. I can wash out the stain. It's not worth the fighting, it's not worth the pain. Theres so much anger in his eyes. I know that look well, and my heart slowly dies I stare at him blankly and wonder if he's done. Yes he's done beating me now, and once again he's won. Does he give a damn that I'm falling apart? Does he give a damn that he just broke my heart? -Kimberly Williams 2000
Deceiving Butterfly
What a wonderful creature, The Butterfly. It's wings flap and flutter, Taking it high. It's as beautiful as a thousand perfect dreams. But this wonderful creation isn't what it seems. On the outside, colors of purple, blue and black, adorn this butterfly's beautiful back. But something darker lurks inside. Something even the colors can't hide. Some things are not always as they appear to be By now I think you know that this butterfly is me. -Kimberly Williams 2003
Dead
He beat me again today, I was lucky to survive He took a hammer to my legs to make sure I couldn't drive I have bruises on my arms and gashes on my head My rib is sticking out my back my face is crimson red The whelps across my stomach make me cry "Oh Lord" To know that it was done with a vaccum cleaner cord I feel something warm now runing down my head probably from the can of corn he threw at me on the bed I shouldn't let him do this but I'm afraid of what he'd do They tell me I should leave him but if they only knew He just now tried to kill me right here on our bed But what he doesn't seem to know Is that I´m already dead -Kimberly Williams 2003
