Mood:  blue
Its monday..my birthday..and its beginning to snow..I need some sun to lighten my life..i'm shipwrecked on this nite..The facade i put on that i'm fine is creeping slowly into the light..Christ i wish someone would call me!!..Anyway..this nite will be over soon..and i'll be home alone freezing...

Mood:  don't ask
Who says astrology is the key to a happy life?..My chart reflects everything thats going on in my life perfectly..Except the end result never appears!!..When i read my chart this morning..i was over the moon..and now late in the P.M. its slowly vanishing into the night..I must have done something really bad for this to happen.
Well...i have a few hours left but the clock ticks on..
Tomorrow it will be snowing for sure and i'll probably slip into a deeper melonchoia..

Mood:  down
Its now thursday March 3..and i am so sick right now..I have no energy and no power in my body or soul..My birthday is in 4 days and while i'm not worried about getting older..I'm worrying about the meaning of my life..I have nothing to offer except some recordings of times gone by and dreams of things to come..I have no one and i sometimes think is there something wrong with me..I never get what i want..and anything i do want, it seems is always taken away. This is just a weird nite..Its kinda witchy..theres snow on the ground and my house is warm... but i feel really cold inside.All i want on march 7 2005 is some peace of mind and too not feel alone like i'm feeling right this second..Who knows!!

Mood:  irritated
This day has not been kind..For things to go smooth at certain places everything has to be in turmoil..I for one am sick and tired of being sick and tired!!..I just want to get out on the open road and stare that white line down one more time..I dont understand why bad things always happen to me..I give off good karma but it never repays me the way it should..The depression i've staved off so far this winter is now hitting me full force..I need to step off the page into the sensual world...

Mood:  not sure
Another rainy day...And the weekend is upon me..any normal person would be going out and partying this weekend but i'm stuck working...AGAIN!!!...Its vicious..this life of mine..Things are changing though..slowly but surely..I'm in my blue period but turning and moving things forward!!!!

Mood:  blue
Today i feel like a stone..nothing more nothing less...
Its hard to wait for things that never seem to appear..
Guess its the circle of my life. I did finish a new song today..Maybe my events of today will inspire me to write something new and depressing..A sonnett maybe?.ha!

Mood:  chillin'
4 days on atkins and going stong...This rain is getting me down today but it has left me time to be creative. No stars in sight tonite,So i'm left to walking in the rain around Ireland..Tomorrow will be better..I can feel it!!

Mood:  don't ask
One more day and i'll be home for awhile...This day has me feeling like i'm in the twilight zone or the bizzaro world..Why cant things be black and white or up and down or crimson and clover.I need a harmonic convergence of the mind.....Oh well...45 miles and i'll be home

Mood:  accident prone
Well its actually dec 31 late in the p.m...Another year as went by and i'm stll left here like a standing stone.
Theres no moon like last year..its just cold and windy in ireland..I have to make a mark and leave one this year..The forboding i felt is gone for a little while anyway..The rebirth is coming..i just have to make it happen by myself...Peace in 2004

Mood:  sad
This rain is driving me deeper into the abyss..This week is starting out bad but i do have something to look forward too..i'm going to Scullys to recharge..Its funny how you think you know someone..then they turn out to be not what they seem at all..just an apparition or a figment of your imagination..maybe i see something that isnt there..Anyway...all i know is you cant run from yourself...