Introduction to 'Marilyn'
The fan fiction "Marilyn" is directly based on the following songs (writing credits to Rogue and the Cruxshadows) andloosely based on other works by the Cruxshadows
CRUELTY
Mother of motion, the eyes can't capture time,
falling emotion, the blind now lead the blind,
we commit indiscretions, and omit our sins from sight,
in a world of intangibles, too many things seem right
No hand to scribe, the sinking sickness I have seen,
no face to judge until you've been the monster I have been,
to hunger is noble, where beauty is silent sleep,
my hunger is noble, but my pain is driven deep.
Cruelty and consequence-cannot eliminate this relevance
Your selfishness, your hatefulness cannot take away my immanence
Cruelty and consequence-cannot eliminate this relevance
Your selfishness, your hatefulness cannot take away my innocence from me
Mother of motion, the eyes can't capture time,
falling emotion, the blind now lead the blind,
to hunger is noble, where beauty is silent sleep,
my hunger is noble, but my pain is driven deep.
Go Away
Found together in the cold grass holding hands
On the hill side watching stars descend
Forever seems like just an empty promise
We spent so long ago
But we were younger then.
Each sour word
Sounds so absurd
But lingers
In the air
While happiness
In an ashen dress
Fades into
The years
Each lonely hour
My heart has slept
Has drifted back
To me
A splintered dream
Of awful things
That now
Have come to be
She said Go
I don't want you any more
She said Go
I don't need you now, my dearest
She said Go
I don't love you anymore
She said Go
And I heard the angels cry
For us...
Simple words that simply disappear
While silence has replaced the sound of laughter
And in the twilight memories shimmer in a
Breath of hesitation
But it only lasts a moment before its gone
Each sour word
Sounds so absurd
But lingers
In the air
While happiness
In an ashen dress
Fades into
The years
Each lonely hour
My heart has slept
Has drifted back
To me
A splintered dream
Of awful things
That now
Have come to be
MARILYN, MY BITTERNESS
I don't understand how you've done
These things to me
I cannot comprehend your lack
Of loyalty
For you I would have shaken down the
Heavens from the sky
But it seems my love was stronger than
This love of yours that died
Did you think it wouldn't hurt?
Did you think I wouldn't feel
When the world came falling down?
Or maybe you didn't think at all
And that's why I feel what I feel now
Did you think I wouldn't fall?
Did you think I wouldn't cry?
Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay?
One of these days you'll realize
Just what you've thrown away
Now I lie here in this empty bed
And all I think about is you
And I wonder if you miss me now
And if your bed is empty too
But,
Did you think it wouldn't hurt?
Did you think I wouldn't feel
When the world came falling down?
Or maybe you didn't think at all
And that's why I feel what I feel now
Did you think I wouldn't fall?
Did you think I wouldn't cry?
Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay?
One of these days you'll realize
Just who you've thrown away
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot break away
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot find my way
I'll absorb this agony
I'll carry all this pain
I'll wipe away this emptiness
I'll purify this stain
My wings will fold around me now
For once a one was two
And my memory is a monument
That will always stand for you
But,
Did you think it wouldn't hurt?
Did you think I wouldn't feel
When the world came falling down?
Or maybe you didn't think at all
And that's why I feel what I feel now
Did you think I wouldn't fall?
Did you think I wouldn't cry?
Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay?
One of these days you'll realize
Just who you've thrown away
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot break away
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot find my way
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot break away
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot find my way
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
I cannot break away
Marilyn, my bitterness
I've fallen to a stranger nightmare
Marilyn, oh Marilyn
Now must I go away?
MONUMENT
I never wrote you a love song
Somehow words could not express what I needed to say
And so I never wrote you a love song
And now it's much, much too late 'cause you've gone away
But I will build this monument
To remember all the love we once had
And I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
And it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
You stopped loving me
So I wish that I'd had written you a love song
And somehow you understood what it feels to be me
Because the Angel loves the Sprite forever
And does it unconditionally
But I will build this monument
To remember all the love we once had
And I'll close my eyes and make it how it used to be
I swear I never stopped loving you with everything I am
And it hurts so much to think you stopped loving me
You stopped loving me
“I met a lady in the meads
Full beautiful --- a faery's child;
Her hair was long, her foot was light,
And her eyes were wild.
I made a garland for her head,
And bracelets too, and fragrant zone;
She look'd at me as she did love,
And made sweet moan.
I set her on my pacing steed,
And nothing else saw all day long;
For sideways would she lean, and sing
A faery's song.
She found me roots of relish sweet,
And honey wild, and manna dew;
And sure in language strange she said,
'I love thee true.'
She took me to her elfin grot,
And there she wept and sighed full sore,
And there I shut her wild wild eyes,
With kisses four.
And there she lulled me asleep,
And there I dream'd --- ah! woe betide! ---
The latest dream I ever dreamt
On the cold hill side.
I saw pale kings, and princes too,
Pale warriors, death-pale were they all;
They cried --- 'La Belle Dame sans Merci
Hath thee in thrall!'
I saw their starved lips in the gloam
With horrid warning gaped wide,
And I awoke, and found me here
On the cold hill side.
And this is why I sojourn here,
Alone and palely loitering;
Though the sedge is wither'd from the lake,
And no birds sing.”
-La Belle Dame sans Merci, W.B. Keats
Marilyn
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
