tragedy
why do u try and fix me when im not broken , how can i luv u when ive been out spoken , y do i mourn my luv 4 u , when all u do . is sit back and watch me cry , it makes me wanna die , how did i get in this mess , i think now i know y i am depressed , u tortured my soul , it was like i was falling in an endless hole , wishing and waiting , 4 an answer calling out 2 me , catching my last breath , all i could think about was death , why cant i die , just close my eyes , please save me from the angels of hell , i hoping my last moments will go well then i find u looking into my eyes , lost in this place i could never find , and then i realized that i luv u with all my heart then we drift apart , in time i think about the day we drifted away , trying 2 grasp every sweet memory , please come back 2 me , i must b floating in a dream , that is the way it seems , it feels like im perfect by nature , now flaws 2 b cn in this picture , life is like a glass of water , ppl will drink it away till there is nuthin left , but when there was nuthin left , i turned 2 u 4 an answer to this miserable place , u took in my case , when u held me in ur arms i felt a reason 2 live , live in this place that is nuthin but a dream world with nuthin 2 give , then i realized ive been alone the whole time , but i was there 4 u when u cried i whiped away the tears , and when u were scared i fought away all of ur fears , i cant make a choice , i dont have my own voice , so i go along with a tourtured and hollow soul , trying 2 find a reason 2 go on in this world , i feel u holding me down , my body is smashed against the ground , and with my last breath of air i whispered in2 ur ear , i thought i luved u..........
Life
In this place i have no where 2 hide. hide from the evils of hell lingering in the doorways of my soul. This rappid chaos is running my life. i cant take it anymore i have often thought of suicide. but then u pop in my head and save me. bringing me in 2 ur world of fantasy and freedom. i can live my life in peace. i thank u 4 bringing me away from death and evil in 2 ur world. i think ill like it in this place. this place where dreams and imagination mix 2 create reality. i thank u.............
Empty hands
I hold in my cold and empty hands an emotion. The emotion of luv. This luv is my source of life. So hold on 2 me luv. All i need 2 say is that i luv u. Im holding my last breathe with all these empty thoughts of u running through my head. These empty thoughts haunt me in my dreams. They make me c the reality of ever holding u close 2 me. I finally c the truth no one is there. if even in my dreams i cant have u than in reality all my thoughts on u were a waste of time. I will always hold a special place 4 u inside me heart and deep in my last breathe.
Im slipping away
Catch me as im falling. No 1 catches me and i fall into myself. As i fall i c all my pain and anger. It is all bottled up inside. Its burning 2 b released. I know that there is much more to come. I am blinded by my tears. The tears of despair 2 free myself from a never ending life of twisted torture of never having u. The tears of agony that u put me threw when u call my name. Those tears have made my life unclear 2 any1. Even unclear 2 me. Do i serve a purpose in this world that was created 2 give every 1 a chance. When will i get my chance. My chance of ever getting luv in this cursed life that i hav. This life of rejectedness and disregard....
Being Alone
Sitting here in this chair. Slowly dying every second that passes by. And every second that passes by i slowly die alone. Sitting in this dark reality staring at the stars in the sky hoping that some 1 will walk in 2 my life and bring me out of this dark hell that i hav been shunned 2. I have been exiled 2 this place. 2 walk alone 4 all of eternity. My only friend is myself.
Deep Betrayal
Lying here. Wondering. How i ever could have luved u. U went behind my back and now i am locked away in this torture chamber called life. I feel like i have made the worst mistake of my life. And that was trusting u with it. This life holds many ups and downs. But mostly downs. Im in a dark damp corner thinking of the good times before u Betrayed me. After sitting here i only have 1 thought left. The thought of u getting betrayed and put threw the same crap as me now. So i guess i will sit here and wait 4 that dream 2 become a reality.
These dreams
I hav had dreams. Dreams of us sitting at the beach or in a field laughing 2gether. But they r only dreams. Dreams that i would do anything 4 just 2 make atleast 1 come tru. And in these dreams of mine i can c that we r happy. We never stop looking in2 each others eyes and hold hands 4 all eternity. But then i wake up and realize im all alone and can never make those dreams a reality.
Happiness
Through all the broken shards of my life, I finally have happiness. This happiness comes from a person. A person which I hold close 2 my heart. Hoping she will never leave I will give my last breathe of life 4 her. No hesitations. When she kisses me time stops. Nothing is wrong. And I feel as if everything is right. But when we are apart it feels like part of me is missing. My soul has a huge tear in it. And when I hear her voice I melt. And when I see her face I want her 2 never leave. I LUV U ASH. MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF. AND IF ITS POSSIBLE EVEN MORE.
Sonnet for L&C
Dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and permitting me to live in this horrid world full of dead meadows you live in your pathetic life full of filthy lies fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals this world morbid in taste no light to walk towards for comfort and enlightenment everyone moves within it with haste all I can do in this place is Repent Repent for all I lived for It feels as if my heart was torn from my chest As I look in to the faces of people to me they abhor Unto my actions they detest Those petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a tear we all assume though us all... death blooms .
