I sit here thinking of my past, and how it’s all led to this one moment my Dearest. No matter what I did, how I fought it…it all came down to this…

A year. I had a year to do everything I wanted. I had a year to try and carefully place all my dreams. A year to get my mind together, to put my heart in my cause. Now I sit here, and wonder where all the time has gone? Why did I waste it on such fruitless things?

Time…how fast it passes. I watched you grow, kick myself for knowing I should have taught you more. Been a better person to you. Spent more time making sure you were ready. Oh yes, I know what you’re probably thinking…you’re ready. You’re mature. You’ve got what it takes. But you’re still young, and most people think they know everything at your age.

I kept many secrets from you, and some I fear I should have long ago explained. Valor, dearest Valor…could smite you from existence in something as easy as a wave of his hands. You’d like to disagree, but even you know this, I’m sure. You told me, that night I almost killed you, how badly you wanted to live. Then listen to me, and listen to me close…for these words may very well save your life. Speak with a respectful tongue to your grandsire. Listen to him, and talk to him as you would a wolf. That’s what he is, and you, unfortunately are just a mere sheep. So bite your tongue quick girl, and learn to listen. You need not do what he asks, but even the most holy men fear the Devil.

I did everything I could to undo what was done to Valor. He’s too far gone, and even my wish for his death is not something I can control. Amazingly enough, I have found my end in him for the second time, and this time I have no fear. This has to be done, it must be. I see no other way. And everything I’ve done, in the past...to this very letter...will not change a thing. For what must come, must come.

If you do as I have told you, and you truly want to live…you’ll follow the same path as me. I choose life, even though I know all to well what will become of me in the end. And I laugh at this whole situation, because I worked so diligently on trying to make things different. But none of it matters.

I remember our first meeting, when you said I couldn’t handle Valor…you thought you could. I remember that night all too well, and the nights that followed. You think you carried my heart, and in a sense you do. You were upset with me when I made Angela one of us. I tried to show you my reasoning, but your thick skull could never see that. Maybe my plans of old will work out, maybe. You two have come a long way, I’m shocked at that. Unfortunately, you two still have a lot more maturing to do, and I will no longer be there to see it.

Things change, cycles move on…and so they have with me. Lorina, how you thought you knew me so well. Cared so much for me, though I was little more then a stranger to you. You put so much trust into me, just because I gave you a second chance. And though I’d like to say more on you…I’m not sure you’ll live long enough. Not with your current attitude. And thus things return to me…

Maybe if we talked more, shared more of our thoughts and our histories, things might have been different. But now we will never know, and even with how hard I tried…none of it matters. It had to be this way; there is no happy ending. There never is in reality. I no longer think there’s a point in fighting it.

I believed so much in you, trusted you to do what was right. Did everything I could with what time I had left. I tried so hard to make you in my image, in hopes that you would try to save Joshua's soul. Unfortunately, the only thing I have to show for it…is that none of this matters. Not you, not Angela, not me. Maybe, one day in the future, we’ll be together again. In a way, I hope so...but if you think about it. My opinion on this doesn't matter at all. What will happen, will happen, regardless of what we'd like to think. And with that I end these final words.

Elizabeth