Religion In My Life.....
I guess some people have this thing in their head telling them such in such is the right way or thing to do and anyone whos not involved well their going to "hell". I have an idea where they get this idea from but because i don't want to offend anyone who reads this i won't say anything. The wost thing in the world, I think, would be someone trying to force something upon someone else. It's just not right. I mean forcing someone to not be able to think for themself or know alternatives and diffrent opinions, it's sad.
MY RELIGION AND OPINIONS....
First of all to set this straight, my religion is Paganism. Yes it means i practice witchcraft and i do spells and chants etc. Im and active Pagan. I live it day to day and i'm quite happy being this. I'm considered Solitary Eclectic Herbary Garden Witch (long title yes i know). It just basically means i practice alone opposed to a circle or coven, i tend to borrow and use other peoples spells but some stuff i write myslef, i preferably use herbs in my spells but i also use other things, and i preferably practice and use outside gardens, hills, forests as my place of worship.
Now some of you who read this may be thinking "oh my God", some of you may be lauging your ass' off thinking im twisted... those would be the people with closed minds who don't see things clearly, whom like to stick to their perfect world they've manifested for themself to live in. For those of you with open minds, congradulations for not being sucked into a dream.
Most religions all have somethings in common, as far as i know most all share.. prayers, chants, worshiping a higher power. Certain things are diffrent in practicing religions but they all have a common purpose. Some people as I know of have never been offered a choice in religion, they were simply born into a religion its the only thing they know. For some people its the history of a man named Jesus who died for them and "he's the son of God who is the creator of life on Earth". I dont disagree with the history of jesus but i hold diffrent views from my own studying.
I was born,baptized,raised Catholic. My parents and I only went to church durring "special" days. Since I can remember I've been fascinated with occult dealings and the dark side i guess you could say. In 6th gd. I took a look at things around me.. i was an outcast, popular but still an outcast, i was always in trouble, picked on, really no true or good friends whom i knew would be there, and i was still strange in a sence that i enjoyed darker things. I found a way to study witchcraft though going to book stores, libraries, documentries, etc. In 8th gd. I was still the same, walking around alone, being picked on, no real friends, until I met someone who invited me into a circle. 1 thing I realize now is that I'm the only one who studied it and didn't live by superstitious fantasy. What I mean is that out of 6 people, 1 remains a friend of mine but is not Pagan, 1 is STRICTLY a poser who is an obsessive liar, 1 is a person who thinks she has problems in her life which she only causes and is no where near a true witch, 1 is no longer in contact with the other 5 but she was surly in it for the friends.. she was a great person too, another 1 was someone who was totally educated only on superstitions which if she acted out she considered herslef a witch. AND then there was myself, I ruled out superstitions and rumors, had a great deal of books written by known witches and in 8th gd i didn't think playing bloody mary enabled a person to conjure up spirits.
Over all for those of you whom remain open minded I suggest religious education. Know everything until your satisfied with what you've got.. if something strikes you as unclear or just confusing.. study it and if your not satisfied like i was find alternatives.
OH YEAH above all don't preach, only inform, but only if a person has asked to be inform.
EASTER 2001
I accidently got saved!
About 2 weeks before Easter my parents raided my room while i was at school and discoverd a few new things about me. Before I got home my mom asked me if i wanted to change anything in my life and if i was ok? The idea of my mom asking me these questions scared the shit out of me but i stayed calm and replied what do you think is so wrong with my life that it needs to be changed? Well to get to the point my mom discoved and she was sure of it that i smoked. She found my poems and journal, found out i was on crank for awhile, found out about my uhm sexual expeirnces and preference, found out i was Pagan. I think thats it. Being that my mom is trying to save herself in being christian, and then finding out her daughter is Pagan.. she's hysterical and now wants to save her daughter. Well my parents simply without asking me how i felt, decided it was the best thing to do if they threw out my B.O.S (book of shadows which contains spells, recipes, chants, prayers, etc.). Well over 7 years of my work, more than 600 pages, went down the trash.
With my parents doing that, it made me feel worse than i already was. They didnt ask to know what i was doing, they only assumed.My parents were making me go to church since January and every single time i go i only seem people who are brainwashed and swaying to a single beat. Christianity is NOT for me in the least bit. On Easter Sunday the pastor asked if anyone would like to be recognized in the church to accept jesus as their saviour and i think after about 7 people i accidently raised my hand. Dont ask why.... Reguard less to stay safe in my reality I must put my life on hold till im 18 and then break free.
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