Wishful Eyes

 The Fault is all yours
Because you see that I live.
It's you whom I adore
Because of all you have to give.

I look through wishful eyes,
Why can't I ever see?
I promise myself lies,
Something that could never be.

You're on a higher level,
Far out of my reach.
Dreams given by a devil
To lower your self-esteem.

Dreams never came true.
As much as I hate to say,
I must be the biggest fool.
Waiting for a non-existent day.

Why do these feelings last?
Why can't I comprehend?
Experiences dug from the past,
Proves that no one understands.

But I continue to believe.
And I'm not sure why.
People don't love me,
They wish for me to die.

But it's different with you,
So don't wonder why.
I can't help but love you,
Resistance is vain, I tried.

Love is just an illusion
A fact I can't deny.
Yet it causes pain and confusion,
Or is it all in my mind?

-jesse- December 14, 2000