Zac:
"I'll see you in two weeks." Diggins says to me, her eyes watery.
"I swear i'll call and i'll write," I pulled Diggins into a hug, "I love you."
"I love you too," She wrapped her arms around my waist and pulled my body against hers.
"Are you going to call me?" I asked.
"Of course," she smirked, "Now be good, and make me proud," she hit my butt.
I laughed and pulled her into a kiss that would have to tide us over for two weeks.
"Come on you two love birds, zac we have to go." Ike yelled from the van.
"Okay Ike." I smiled at Digs, "I'll call you tonight."
"okay" She kissed gave me one last kiss and i got into the van and we drove off.
Diggins:
I waved at the departing van, and kept watching as it dissapeared in the distance. I stood in front of the vacant Hanson house, i went over to my car and was just driveing around.
"We ain't got no place to go, so lets go to the punk rock show, darling take me by the hand, we're gonna see a punk rock..." I sang at the top of my lungs with a tape.
Then i got an idea. I'm gonna get Kim to go to a rave with me. Yeah, it will take my mind off Zac and let me have some fun. We don't have to take drugs, we can chill and listen to the new punk band. I heard threw word of mouth the band thats playing is going to be a kick ass punk band.
I parked in front of Kims house and ran to the door, "KIIIMMMM!" I yelled as i knocked.
The door opened slowly to Kim looking at me weird, "hey digs."
"Wanna go to a party tonight?" I asked.
Her face brightened up, "Yeah man, i'm so bored."
"Cool, we have to leave now to get there in time." I headed to my car.
"Do i need money?" She asked.
"Yeah don't bring too much though." I responded and beeped the horn.
Kim ran inside as i waited. She returned a minute later and sat in the passengers seat. There was a long silence for about a half hour. We were about there, when Kim finally broke the silence.
"So do you think Taylor is too old for me?" She asked plainly trying not to laugh.
I laughed, "Oh no, he wants you."
A couple weeks ago, i went to Zacs house and Kim came with. You should have seen Taylor hitting on Kim. He was all over her. We walked in and he saw Kim and instantly he was like, "Hey there wanna see my keyboard?" Kim gave me a scared look then Taylor pulled her off and was just flirting like mad. Zac and I thought it was the funnist thing we've ever seen.
"So should i ask him out or something?" Kim asked.
"I thought you were kidding," I tried to resitrain myself from laughing, "you like him?"
Kim blushed, "Well...why not. He's uh...cute, nice keyboard. "
"Well i say go for it, what could it hurt?" I kept my eyes on the road.
"So where exactly are we headed to?" She asked changeing the subject.
"The sunborro rave." I replied sounding casual.
"THE SUNBORRO RAVE! dude thats a really drug abundant rave." She excalimed.
"Doesn't mean we have to do drugs, we can just go for the music." that sounded stupid.
"Well i wouldn't mind some grass." Kim looked at me.
"mmkay. I'm telling you now, no hard drugs." i warned her as we pulled into the field used for a parking lot.
"I got it." Kim rolled her eyes and got out as soon as we parked.
We walked to the scene where a crappy band was playin' but people already drugged up were moshing to it. A rock band. The good punk band won't be on till' eight. I looked at my watch thats about half an hour. I stood away from the moshing, and looked around. Kim went straight for the mosh pit. I'll never understand why that girl loves moshing so much.
I swayed to the music and danced around a bit with the people who were danceing. I looked over and spotted some people i knew in the corner talking. I saw a guy that i used to like point at me and smile. Then the rest of the group turned and looked at me. I'm surprised that they remembered me, their always drugged up.
The guy i remember as greg approached me, "Hey digs, haven't seen you around."
He gave me that smile that made me get a big crush on him. He really was extremely cute, but a junky none the less.
"Hey Greg, hows it going?" He reached over and gave me hug, and then a kiss on the cheek.
It made the old feelings for him surface, and it was like it was two years ago.
"It's going good, i've cleaned up a bit no more bad drugs, just pot." He took my hand and lead me over to the group.
I'm kinda wondering what all this touching means. I gave him a weird look, and let him pull me. We stopped when we were all making a complete circle. I was greeted with hi's and whats up's. I waved and blushed, Greg squeezed my hand, i didn't squeeze back.
"So where have ya been Digs man?" One of old friends known as Wit asked me.
"Staying out of the drug scene." I replied, he has changed quite a bit. Wit used to be very skinny, he's filled out and looks really cute now. He's got a huge new scar on his forehead.
Wit leaned over to Greg which was a few feet away from me and said to Greg loud enough so i could hear, "Dude, she got hot!"
Greg smirked and they both eyed me. I shot an evil look at them both.
"Why the look of death?" Wit asked.
"Just because i'm not fat anymore doesn't change the person i am." I spat at them both, they both gave me a surprised look, "And i got a mouth in the past couple years, i won't take your shit anymore."
I remember back in the day, they would pick on me so bad because i was fat. What can i say, munchies. I had such a crush on Greg and i thought Wit was awesome. I had almost forgot, actully i did forget that i was fat. It was blocked out of my mind with the rest of my drug years. Well, they would call me names and i would just worship them. They both had girlfriends back then and the girlfriends would pick too, because they knew i liked them. But thank god i had some friends to help me out when i was depressed, with drugs. Well, screw them.
"Calm down Diggy," Greg gave me a hurt face, "we're sorry if we hurt your feelings."
Now what the hell is this? He's appologizing? Thats a new one, he never said sorry for anything.
"Well you guys did, i worshiped you two and you guys picked on me like hell." I started at both of them, studing both of their expressions. Greg, he looked as if he was remorsful and he cared; maybe because he's not on heavy drugs anymore. Wit, his look was more facinated with my chest than anything else. Sometimes things never change.
"Well the past is in the past," I said looking around.
"So that means you forgive us?" Wit asked his hand was reaching comming close to touching my breast.
"Dude!" Greg yelled at Wit and wacked his hand down, "that's Ca ca!"
"Yeah i guess," I got an evil thought, i reached around both of their necks and pulled them close to me in a hug. Only i regularly hugged Greg, but i pulled Wits head against my chest and squeezed them both, "I love you guys."
Wit giggled, "I love you two too!"
"Someones the favorite." Greg mumbled.
"Na..." I said.
I let both of them go and looked at them, "And Wit you got very nice looking."
Wit smiled, "so did you."
Zac:
"No i'm sorry Zac isn't home, she went to a party." Sherri explained to me.
"Okay thanks tell her i'll call in an hour if she shows up." I said patheticly.
"Okay i will, bye." She said.
"bye."
Jeeze, she already is out of my reach. I should have took her with, and we would be together now. Just to hold her in my arms...even just talking to her would put me at ease. I want her here with me...is this what people feel like when their in love, so in love that they can't live without the other. If she only knew how much i need her.
Yes, i know we've been having some problems and fights, but who doesn't. I think thats why i need her so much, not many things in my life are stable. She's one of the things that are and it upsets me so much if she is no longer stable for even a minute. That we have a fight and then everything is fine and stable again.
So i sit here and wait for an hour to pass to call her so i can talk to her and then make everything alright again. I try to play playstation and my other amusements, but i can't concentrate and keep dieing. I hate it when i die in video games so i give up and sit here and watch T.V. like a drone.
Isaac walks in and sits next to me, "Hey Zacman."
I grunt.
"Whats wrong?"
"She went to a party and i called and she wasn't there." I frowned.
"awww, that sucks man. Well then keep calling her and you will eventully get a hold of her.
"I know but i want to talk to her now." I said.
"Zac tell me the truth." Ike started.
"Okay" I replied knowing that i can trust Ike with anything.
"Did you and Diggins...uh...did you and Diggins...do...it." Ike asked stumbling over eveything.
I looked at him surprised, "Yeah."
"Well what would come closest to describing it," he paused, "a walk on the beach; a hot summers day; a horse back ride." he asked looking very weird.
I kept looking at Ike but i was having hard time believeing it was Ike my big brother Ike. maybe it was some clone of Ike that was sent here to destroy the human race, starting with his little brother Zac.
I thought for a second. A walk on the beach....a walk on the beach would be in my opinion...breezey not very involved, any two people could take a stroll on a beach. I think that means that we just did it to do it, but it meant much more than anything in the world.
A hot summers day...hot, sticky...very close, alot of chemistry. People who have alot of things in common and can get along, who know each other like a book. People who pine for each other, but a breeze could come along and cool it off and it would be just like the beach, anyone could do it.
Ike smiled at me, "Good answer."
"Explain." I demanded just to see if i was right in my thoughts.
"Well, when you ride horses you put your trust, time and love into it. You can tell them anything and they would never tell, they love you and never betray you. They grow to love you no matter what and they trust you to guide them, just like you need them to guide you." Ike kept smiling.
"Thats exactly what i thought." i said amazed that i even pondered.
"You really love that girl don'cya." Ike nugged me with his elbow.
"Lets just say i wanted to take her on this two week trek." I sigh, i should have asked her.
"You've got it bad man." Ike said putting his arm around me and patting my shoulder, "Now you know what you have to do right?"
"Whats that?"
"Tell her."
"She knows I love her." I leaned on Ike.
"Tell her you can't live without her." I could feel Ike breath on the top of my head.
"I don't know how to." I glanced up at Ike.
"Tell her, well...from your heart."
Diggins:
"Jeeze, Kim you gotta stop moshing." I said.
kim laughed at me, "no way, i love it."
"you feel okay enough to go watch the band?" I asked her, while i examined her black eye, "How are you going to explain this to your mom?"
Kim shrugged, "I don't know...i won't."
"Come on lets go back to the group. Just no more passing out." I got up and started toward Wit, Greg, and some other people.
Kim followed and we rejoined them, "hey guys."
"Hey Digs?" Greg brushed my arm to get my attention.
"whats up?"
"uh...i heard you play in a punk band." He said.
"Yeah i do, you're looking at the guitarist," I pointed to myself, "and the bassist" I pointed to Kim.
"Woah, thats cool...marry me?" He said while giving me that smile.
"I'm involved with someone else." I stated. I could see his face go weird like saying, "Who could like you?"
"Who?" He asked with a weird tone in his voice, almost protective.
"Uh...." I looked at Kim as if to ask if i should tell him. Kim shrugged and nodded yes.
"Well, Zac Hanson." I blinked and didn't open my eyes for a few seconds.
Greg and Wit stood there and stared at me, then broke out in laughter. I kept wondering what they were laughing at, and why. But then i realized...Hanson and Punk doesn't mix.
"Dude why? I always thought you'd date someone like us." Wit said between laughs.
I looked toward the band, they were awesome. This is where i belonged in life. I belonged with the punks and such. I was a beer drinking, drug takin, tattoo getting, trouble causeing, weird looking, punk. But i'm also in love with Zac and i gave it all up for Zac's love, except the weird lookin' one. Now that i'm back i see how much i've missed it and how much i want it back. This is how i grew up and this is what i am...like they say you can't escape who you are.
I looked back toward Wit and greg, "Well, I really like zac, But you'll be seeing lot more of me." I started to tell them of the gigs were playing and to get their friends to come.