"Our practice is at 5:00pm. I want you to be there." Kim said to me over the phone.
Tomarrow Zac leaves for two weeks, and i am left here. At least we have alot of gigs to do in the next two months. 5 parties, 2 festivals, 5 clubs and a battle of the bands (i don't know why we are playing there, Nats idea). So in summery were going to be busy. When Zac gets back in two weeks, he stays a week and is off for months. He leaves again? Why does it come down to only days together. I'm getting sick of all this, but i have to put up with it.
Not to mention Kates a BITCH!
Chewbaca's call will echo throughout our town and he will hunt down Kate and savagely mawl her to death.
I don't wanna be in contact with a band member that has no respect for the bands guitarist! She's even dumber than i, all's she has to do is sing.
HA! I laugh in her face!
Okay so i know i have to go to the practice, but i am noteing that i don't want to go and i am being forced by telepathic beams from Kims head. NOTE IT!
Zac:
So, i'm here at home and bored.
"So uh, Zac...hows it going?" Taylor asked shyly, thats odd that he would try to talk to me. He is planning my death!
"so uh," I mimicked him. He wrinkled his nose at me, "good."
"aww man." He lunged at me and attacked me with an embrace. Taking me by surprise so i could not fight back.
"I love you man." He said in a whining voice.
"uh..." is this a change of heart or what? "I love you too uh...Taylor."
He wouldn't let go of me, his hug tightened when i said i love him back. I wanted to pinch him and tell him to go away, but i just hugged back. Whats the use of fighting, i love the big hippie. Plus he's nicer when he feels loved. Which is good.
When he let go, i decided that since i'm leaving tomarrow that i should spend some time with Diggins. I'm going to be seperated from her for two weeks. Ever since that night, we've become even closer and have shared more emotions and laughs than ever. I no longer want to go alone on the tour with the family. I want Diggins to be there with me.
Not to mention i come home to Diggins and only have seven days with her. Then i leave for months.
Why is everything so difficult and unfair?
Diggins:
I stuffed music and my pedals into an old backpack and put my guitar into it's traveling case and i was gone. I had to meet the rest of the band by the studio for practice. Joy i must come face to face with shawn again. Jeeze. I haven't seen him for a day.
I got into my new crappy car and drove down to the studio.
I keep thinking how much i hate Kate for doing what she did. Sometimes i think shes jealous of me and Zac, i keep forgetting how we act around people. We're always close and being coupleie. She probably wishes that she had a guy like Zac that will be everything she dreamed of.
once i reached the door of the studio and stepped inside. They all stopped and looked at me, surprised that i showed up. Kate turned to me and glared. Then whipped her hair around.
Kim
"I think we should kick her out of the band." Kate suggested to Nat and me before Diggins arrived, "She can't take a joke, shes always all over Zac, always wanting to do things for him."
Kate kept making up stupid excuses to kick her out, none of them good reasons. Besides we wouldn't kick her out, shes the founder, our best friend, and Kate started the fight. If anything Kate would go and we would find a new singer.
"Dude, Zacs' her boyfriend, thats what you do when your in love. You want the person to be happy, and feel loved." I said to her, while looking at my bass and playing something. I could feel her trying to stare a hole in the side of my head.
Shawn was sitting in a chair listening to us talking, "We kissed," He blurted out.
"What?" Nat excalimed.
"Her and Zac had a big fight so she ran to me. We chilled at my house and i kissed her, then she spazed and i took her home." He explained.
Dear gosh thats just what Kate needed to started the begining of the end for Diggins and Zac. I want to strangle shawn for saying that.
"Kate don't you say a word to Zac about that. You know that Shawn probably kissed her." i scolded her.
"Yeah right. She kissed him." Kate shot me an annoyed look because i stuck up for Diggins.
"She didn't," Shawn confirmed to Kate, "I kissed her, she broke it off and said that she loved Zac." Shawn looked down.
I can't but help feeling bad for the poor guy, but Diggins doesn't cheat.
I heard the door of the studio open and then a few seconds later Diggins entered from the hallway that lead to the rehearseal room. Everyone stopped the conversation and looked at her.
"Hey Digums!" Shawn said enthusiasatcly.
"Hey hows it going?" Diggins said and walked over to her amp and started to set up.
"I'm surprised you showed up." Kate intaganized.
"Well i did, so deal." Diggins replied while she slung the guitar around her shoulder.
"I'm glad ya made it man." I said and smiled. I'm surprised that she wasn't ripping Kates hair out at this very moment. Kate was even starting to piss me off.
Zac:
I got my butt in gear and headed over to Digs house. I kept thinking of the other night, and i still am in shock. I never knew that something like that could happen, to me no less. I love her.
I got up to the door and knocked. Soon i heard footsteps comming toward the door, and i was about to launch a surprise attack.
"Oh hi Za..." i jumped on her.
"What are you doing?" I looked down on the girl i had attacked and tackled to the ground. I gazed upon AHHHHH DIGGINS MOTHER AHHH.
"Oh CRAP i'm so sorry." I got off the women that i had clobbered, "I'm so sorry Sherri."
I felt so embaressed. Dear gosh i screwed that one up. I tackled her mother?!
"It's okay," She said as she got up and rubbed her head, "shes down at the studio. Do you tackle Digs like that all the time?" She laughed at me.
"Uh...yeah. I'll see you later." My face was burning. I'm glad shes a nice person and thinks it's funny.
"Bye Zac the mangler." She laughed and closed the door. Diggins gets her laugh from her mom.
I got in my car and headed down to the studio. Great, two people hate me there now: Shawn and Kate. Joy.
I walked in cautiously incase that they had some boobie-trap in store for me. They all looked up at me. Diggins smiled. It still makes me feel weak when she smiles at me that way.
"Hey Zac." Kim said.
"Hows it hangin'" Nat asked.
"Uh...good." I replied and let out a small laugh.
"we've gotta practice, so buzz off." Kate shot at me.
I can now understand why people lash out and kill someone out of nowhere. I hope her parents don't get too upset when Kate is missing.
"Well i want to steal Digs after practice, i'm leaving tomarrow." I explained.
"Thank god," She said in a snobbish tone, "he's leaving. Yay no more Zac!"
Me kill kate.
"Shut up and leave him alone." Diggins snapped at Kate with a scornful look.
"Okay lets start practice." Nat yelled before anyone could start a fight.
I slipped into the hallway, and sat in a chair and waited. Kate has a good voice, i'll admit that much. But she's such a bitch. Why do i piss her off so much? I didn't do anything to her. Jeeze, i think its just because i'm a Hanson. This makes me want to retch.
I stared at the wall until everything went blurry and i was out like a light.
Diggins:
The practice sucked. It was one of our worst. Probably because of the bad vibes. Everytime i would screw up, Kate would give me this look like to say, "ha ha you dumbass!"
But soon it was over, i was the first to get the hell out of there. I was no longer comfortable there, even among two friends. I hate bad vibes. I walked into the hall to the sight of Zac asleep in a chair, hanging over the edge and drool dripping out of the side of his mouth. I had to fight the urge to laugh like an idiot. I went over to him and gently nudged his shoulder to wake him.
He stirred and then movement seized. I knelt down infront of him and kissed him. His eyes opened automatically. A smiled creeped across his lips, and his eyes sparkled.
"You guys done?" He asked still groggy.
I reached over and gathered a clump of fallin' hair that was spread across his face, and placed it behind his ear, "Yeah, you ready to go? I can drive if ya want me to."
"Na, i will." he stood up and look at me.
"pass the processed corn made into wafers." Zac said to me.
"You mean the chips?" I laughed.
"uh..." He looked like he was pondering a moment, "Yes."
I kept thinking of weeks away from Zac and how much its going to suck ass. I can't believe that he's going to leave me here. Jeeze, i'm going to be missing him for two weeks. Thats a long time to wait. sigh.
"I'm going to miss you..." I choked and quickly caught myself.
I watch him out of the corner of my eye. He looked at me, giving me a sympathetic look. I don't need his pity. I need him.
"Aww digs. Don't do this, you know i have to go. I wish i could stay with you, but i can't" He looked away, like he was turning his back to me.
I started to silently cry. Over the years i have gotten very good at letting tears flow, but my breathing stays the same. It looks like i'm sitting there, but i could be crying. Silently crying, because my heart is in pain.
"Diggins?" He tried to get my attention, i was looking away from him.
"hmm?" I said so i didn't tip him off to anything.
"I love you." He said, it just struck me in the right place. I felt like hurling myself at him and holding him hostage.
Whenever i think hostage it reminds me of sausage.
Instead i walked away from him, "go home zac," I sobbed as i walked away from him.
I don't know what the hell i'm thinking. I just have to get away from him. I've become to dependant on him to live, and if he goes away i slowly die. Thoughts are going through my head too fast and are all pointing to one thing. I have to break it off with Zac. I can't bear to be without him, and now i've come to the point where i have to force myself to let him go. Now i know, that i love him enough to let him go. I hope he realizes the same thing.
I'm becomeing too moody.
I heard footsteps following my own a couple minutes earlier. Zac walks into my room and sits next to me on my bed. His strong arm reaches around me and pulls me so close i can feel his breath enter and exit his body. His lips caress my cheek. He lays down and pulls me down to him.
More tears escape, i keep trying to hold them back. It hurts to much to hold them back anymore, the stinging of holding back all the sobs and torment. It all comes out now.
"It's okay, let it out." Zac whispered to me as he smoothed my hair, wiped the tears away, and held me close so i wouldn't fall away from him.
Why does he keep reassureing me to this conclusion: he loves me, he'll never let anything happen to us, he will always love me, he needs me, he loves me...?
Damn it why does he always have to save us? Always change my mind.
I tried like hell and calmed myself down, "I love you."
"I love you too," He replied then he kissed me. But it doesn't make everything alright.