[] desperately seeking sanity



:X entery 5

its valentines day. i woke up this morning with one Valentine, my Jake. but i picked up a new one along the day. alyssa, the very cuiet Jr I've been into for a while. Jake doesn't approve but I don't really care, because shes nice and cuiet, and I like her. I do what I can to be happy, and he'll see right? But I've been big pimping, so.

So i had two valentines, and its the first time I've ever had cool valentines. I was happy, for once.

Mr Struther let me take the nice new camera, and a roll of film and just go take pictures. we haven't gotten them back yet, but I think they'll be ok. i got a cool one of the security guard talking on his walkie talkie thingy. I'm only happy when I'm writing or talking my pictures. sad isn't it? I don't know what to say about it.

mr sruther says i have the "sight" for photography. which is something he hasn't said to anyone i know of. {we critque alot of work together} he says Its natural tome, he can tell by the way i see teh pictures. and my opinions of them. that really made me feel better about myself, like I should take all thoese pictures, and I have a future in this. hes really cool, and he lieks me alot, and having me as a student. :) im happy about that.

void. void. void.

dieing to be filled. I'm out of here.


:x entery 6

today was a bore. I just finished my new book, "Speak". It was good, the girl was rapped over the summer, and now shes dieing to survive 9th grade with 0 friends. i can identify with the story, shes cool, and I would give her a chance. Cause that's teh kidan person i am? i dont know, i think i give everyone a chance. maybe thats my problem, i like to many people to quick, which is why my friends pretty much all suck.

it's 11:30 pm and im trying to have a conversation with chad. it's very very sad {that rhymed! *blond moment*} and im trying to think of why we went out. hes nice, rather, was nice and sweet and funny. I don't know. why am i thinking about this? whats done is done right? i mean no sense in thinking about it.....right?

i talked to shan on teh phone today. she was really happy i think, i told her about my new pictures and photography club. i felt like such a dork, talking about photography club, like its a chess club. hasnt even started yet. itll be fun, matt made the posters, i supervised. thier awsome. so nothing's to new with shannan, sept her new site. its got good content, page make up could be better.

Daniels a god, I swear. he made me a new image for my site. its his hang, and it looks liek a picture negitive, on the plam is my lips, and on teh finger tips are "pieces of me". pieces of me, pieces of him. it's beautiful. he asked to do more stuff for me, and i was liek "UH HELL YES YOU CAN!". hes sooo artisitc, im put to shame next to him. :)

gotta get some work done. ~Leslie~

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