2000
2000
oblivion
cast away
ode to my brother
cry of despair
song of sadness
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oblivion
i stare into that blank face
dead eyed, oblivious to life
the face of one fallen from grace
she stares back smiling at the knife
she knows my every move,
every thought i try to conceal
what does she have to prove?
i would die not to feel
a stalker i cannot escape
wherever i go, she follows
my mind she wants to rape
with promises of better tomorrows
she preaches against sin
and all the things that bind
she torments me from within
in the confines of my mind
cast away
cast aside all hatred
let the lonely souls sleep
deprived of love and passion
they let their hearts weep
for the emptiness inside
a place where everything dies
casualties of neglect
they are dead in their own eyes
lost in their own nightmares
where the darkness is their light
searching for an escape
to their never-ending plight
haunted by memories passed
a power which is sublime
the nostalgia echoes
throughout the halls of time
ode to my brother
such a sense of loathing
one of such invaluable measure
hes never been known in this world
i will take you and make you
a beating mat for my sadistic pleasure
after all, you aren't worth the daily bread
i would rather feast on my own excretion
than to call you-a worthless bastard, my kin
you are nothing like me and never will be
because your vacant mind suffers from depletion
a lack of intelligence and wit,
one of corporate america's proud accomplishments
a stupid, gullible, brainwashed lemming
you obey your master-the television
and you believe in His compliments
it is for that that i despise you
self-righteous, conceited, arrogant liar
i laugh to spite your abuse, it doesn't hurt
so now, i am in total control
alas-who shall save you from my fire?
cry of despair
help me i think i'm dying
can't anyone here my plea?
inside my heart is crying
does nobody care about me?
can't someone show they care
that i'm special in their eyes
i'm sick of that vacant stare
and all those little white lies
i feel so empty inside
my life is slowly sucked out
in this emptiness of mine i reside
this sadness no one knows about
i pretend everything is alright
not like anyone cares anyway
who cares what i do tonight
tomorrow's just another day
i want to live for tomorrow
today is just too hard
forget about today's sorrow
obliterate all that's scarred
my love for life is stained
i've lost my will to live
i feel my vitality drained
it's pouring out of a sieve
Song of Sadness
In this desolate desperation I call mine
There is only one solace -- to go inward;
A temporary escape from this hideous world
Which kills my spirit and dulls my shine.
Where has all the joy in my life gone?
Did it die with my confidence and self-worth?
I picture myself dying at the moment of my birth
Never to see the light of the immaculate dawn.
I am unworthy of life, a cheap motel-whore
Taken advantage of, yet complacent to a fault
I keep my frustrations hidden in a secure vault
Creating a fallacy, shielded by an impermeable core.
Tormented by my surroundings, never to find peace
I fantasize about permanently ending my existence
My life is a waste of a gift - I shall go forth hence
Leading a life of suffering - pain which will not cease
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