Rambling Page 2!
<--------WARNING!!! BIG RANT AHEAD---------->
Jan 19, I FUCKING HATE THESE KIND OF DAYS. Grrr...Finally I get some rest after not being able to sleep for 4 days. I'm rudely awoken by my mother in the room asking me how to turn on the new fucking computer! Her response was the computer looked like it was turned around. She thought she was looking at the back of the fucking thing! So I tell her to push the big white button. No mind you my new tower is blue. It took her 10 minutes to find the general area. Next she says theirs two buttons, one small, one big and she asks which one to push. ~_~
Grr..and to top everything off, BF is being stupid, I have to finish off a web site Im creating for Lazer Razer, which I can't because its a new computer and I don't have all the programs. ~_~
THEN my AUNT decides to come over. (Aunt is the biggest bitch on planet. She nags and nags and nags...) And starts yelling at me about some shit. So now apparently I have to give her back her snowboard that she gave to me. Which I really can't complain too since Utah is dried up this year.
OH AND, XP (microsoft) is being stupid. I have to CHANGE MY PRODUCT KEY AFTER USING IT ONLY ONCE!!!
so...my side note is....
FUCK YOU MICROSOFT!!!!!
I LOVE THE 80'S!!! IF ANY OF YOU DISAGREE....well....PHOEY ON YOU!
I came to a understanding tonight, that even those closest to me know dick about me. Most don't know what my favorite things are and well... not that I really blame them on this, my logic on most things. Well, I can't really explain my logic. However, clearing up things I really enjoy doing is something I can do. So here ya go.
I love performing arts. I love watching plays, I don't really like doing them but I could definatly go for helping with creation.
I love art of all sorts from creating to veiwing.
My favorite color is a deep saphire blue.
My favoire gem stone is the saphire.
I love swimming. My dad doesn't call me a drowned rat for nothing.
I love to actually sing. I'm sure that several of you who know me just fell over.
I love music.
One of my favorite things to do is sit around in maybe like a coffee house or something and just talk (or maybe just listen). To just about anything, specially something that can be argued.
I enjoy dancing.
I love to listen to people, especially if its something very valuable or something that as to do with deeper thought and stuff. However, if its about what color goes with that top...I'll hurt you.
I LOVE HUMOR. I love to laugh. I could probably live at a comedy club.
A couple of my favorite flowers are: Lisianthus, Mini Carnation, Casablanca Lily, Gardenia, and of course the rose. I also really like the bell flower I think its called. Any how. For most of you who don't know what these flowers are go to http://www.800florals.com/care/glossary.asp
I also have a big fasination with mysteries. Like Atlantis, or that colony that was one of the first to come to America that just suddenly dissapeared and all that was left was some weird word on a tree that no one understood. And stuff like that.
I also love cultures. My favorites is Egypt, Ireland, Japan, China, India, Thailand, Newzeland, England, Norway, and....alot of others.
Konya Wa Hurricane,
Arashi no HIGHWAY hashiritsuzuketa,
Togireta yume no yukue sagashite,
Nigai maboroshi subete no uso o,
Senaka de hajikitobashite,
BIG CITY kodoku na HEART TO HEART, Minna ai no mayoigo
BIG CITY namida wa DAY BY DAY,
Nemuranai omoi o yusaburu dake,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Anata ni HURRICANE,
Tsutaetai no LOVING YOU,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Kanjite HURRICANE,
Sugao no mama TOUCH! IVE ME TOUCH!
Kotoba no DARTS nageau dake ja
Mune no itami wa wakariaenai,
Oshiete hoshii nani ga anata no
Hitomi o kumoraseru,
BIG CITY chigireta HEART TO HEART,
Yoru ni odoritsukarete,
BIG CITY utsuro na DAY BY DAY,
Sasayakana nukumori machikogareta,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Anata ni HURRICANE,
Tsutaetai no LOVING YOU,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Moo ichido HURRICANE,
Dakishimetai TOUCH!
BURNING TOUCH!
BIG CITY kodoku na HEART TO HEART,
Minna ai no mayoigo
BIG CITY namida wa DAY BY DAY,
Nemuranai omoi o yusaburu dake,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Anata ni HURRICANE,
Tsutaetai no LOVING YOU,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Kanjite HURRICANE,
Sugao no mama TOUCH!
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Anata ni HURRICANE,
Tsutaetai no LOVING YOU,
Konya wa HURRICANE,
Moo ichido HURRICANE,
Dakishimetai TOUCH!
BURNING TOUCH!
GIVE ME TOUCH!
BURNING TOUCH!
Sorry, just felt like singing....in Japanese.
Ever get the strong feeling that you just need to grab something and tear it apart slowly.... me too.
Feb 17, 12:03 am
~~~~~ strange ramble~~~~
Its pretty common knowledge that hitting, screaming, writing and lots of other things are good to
release anger. But what if those things don't work? Perhaps you cant hit anything without seriously damaging something or the soft couch pillow won't do? Or perhaps you can't scream because of the area you are in. Can't just scream at the top of your longs in the middle of the park without catching a little attention. Sometimes these Anger Management methods do not work. What then? What is left is nothing but
allot of pent up anger and frustration you can't release. So what is it that we
do. We gather, we let it build, and build and build...Until we shatter. When all
resoning disapears and all thats left is a very mad person with blood lust,
whats left for us to do at that point? But to let it keep building even past the
breaking point.
By then we just cry and grumble. We slink off into the back, into the black shade. We avoid contact, we avoid people at all costs. We decay from the inside, letting it eat at us and build. And build. To points all we want to do is scream, but by this point we can't. We turn into a walking, breathing bomb. This is what I have become.
FEB 19, 2003! Today is my B-day. Muahahahahahahaha >:) I am now 18. This makes me capable of being arrested, I can vote, and tell the world to fuck off... so here it goes. FUCK OFF!
:D hehhe. Take that.
Oh, wow. B-day is over, and I feel absolutly NO CHANGE. This is what sucks about life, your birthday comes around and you feel like "wow tomorrow will be different for me." Then tomorrow comes along... You don't feel you have gotten older until much later...much, much later.