...And I am grateful for the pain you inflict...

is like a kick at the back of my neck
leaving me blind and numb... courageous
I stay there, holding my arms out
I was made for you... this is Love
So you can save yourself through me baby
I will be your Star, your lover forever
The darkest, sweetest angel you've ever seen
The most beautiful thing
Submitting to your never ending rage
as I only rise when you get me on my knees
The sound you hear coming out of my mouth
is the warm blood dripping slowly down my chin
That you kiss angrily with lust and desire
after hitting me compulsively
And I stay there warm, shaking, electrified bliss
Cause this is what I am
And I am just slowly dying
Taking pride in doing it brilliantly
under the moon light, the stars above my head
are keeping me warm and aware
are keeping me alive and awake
I exist because of you my love
I will be your Superstar, your dying heroin
The strongest ally you ever wanted
I will save you from your demons
if you just live through me, my love
The pain, the anger, the eternal sadness
For you I take and feed on to swallow
And together we are slowly dying
This is Love
This is what I am
This is all we'll ever be
I am your Superstar shining brightly



Sasha.
(October 27th 2000)